Maybe moments ago I might've chosen to open the book and start reading it because I wanted to know but as of now the zeal just wasn't there. I left the book on the table along with the note given as I went back to arranging my stuff.
I promise myself I won't get involved in any Damon related matters and this isn't because I was avoiding him is just that curiosity kills the cat and I can't be the cat in this story so it's better I stear clear from them.
So when did it change? When did I loose guard and allowed myself become the cat.... My hands were itching and my head was pounding not leaving out the heart that was beating so fast as I took the book for the second time in my hand.
At that moment I knew my end...
I searched profusely for the last page I was at before the pages went missing. There was something off about it. The lines of the torn pages were still there but the book had continued from the previous point only that the handwriting was very much different.
Was there a possibility Elizabeth had rewritten it and sent them to me, if that was the case her handwriting shouldn't be this different or was there someone else who had read the book before it was torn and just wanted me to know the truth.
Either way my theory went it didn't stop me from reading it contents.
"Xander returned today, the last time I saw him was the night before our wedding that he didn't attend. There was shock in his eyes when he saw me with a wedding ring on my finger, he never once would've thought that I will marry his brother. Xander wanted me back to him. With the pressure of having a child there and my pleasure husband been absent all the time, Xander became my backbone. We did a lot of things that I don't regret doing."
I took pause from the book, the fact that Elizabeth cheated first and not Damon was proof written in ink. All the while everyone thought Damon was the unfaithful one in their relationship. Still it didn't stop me from hating him....
I returned back to the book and was surprised even more, Elizabeth described sex with Xander as making love but enjoys Damon thrusting better. This woman! I can't believe she is still the Elizabeth at the mansion or all this we're just lies to ridicule her person. Well... You don't full know a person until you read a book about her.
"I got pregnant... Not with Damon's child but Xander's. That week I found out about my pregnancy I couldn't tell Xander, so I abort it before it was too late.... Here I was in need of a child to keep my status as Damon's wife before Beatriz kicks me out and I just killed one with the Doctor's hands. Surprisingly I didn't feel bad about it and I went back to Xander's bed there he complained of Damon having something that should belong to him, I felt bad for him and so we devised a plan....'
"Priscilla drop this book! Drop it!" my mind kept warning me but the part where I found Elizabeth to be a heartless mother made me keep reading. As I read it, I now understood why all those pages were ripped out, Elizabeth or whoever must've wanted to hide all of this.
I read on and got shocked even more, the things here about Xander was just unthinkable. "We both planned to get a child and make it Damon's but after several tries with Damon and Xander, nothing came out of it. Damon and I decided to run some test to see the reason for our inability courtesy of Beatriz. When the result came out I found out that my womb could no longer hold a child and Damon was pretty much in good shape but I couldn't tell the truth, could I? What I did next will haunt Damon's manhood for life.... I paid the doctor a loathsome amount of money to change the result and write that Damon was sterile, still paid him afterwards to seal his mouth but the fool died days after, not my doing though."
How could someone be this cruel, yet have an innocent face. I shed a tear for Damon, she didn't deserve him but then again he loves her still and I will forever be the other woman who cares and loves him, such an unfair world.
"Beatriz saw the result but didn't have the guts to tell her son, so we hid it from him and decided to find a solution. She was the one who suggested a surrogate and I took it up to Damon, he wasn't pleased at first but agreed. Xander brought up the idea of getting a handwritten note from him that he will give our child his properties when the time was right, he didn't know what the use what for since the baby was to be ours but he agreed..... Only if he knew. With Xander's humble donation, my egg and a wonderful surrogate, everything was finally in place."
I just was only a pawn in their game and the same applies to Damon, thought he had everyone figured out but on here he was just part of their game plan. The only innocent person here was Liliana, she has no clue what her real parent did so they could acquire wealth that wasn't theirs to begin with. I don't think I can look at Elizabeth the same way again and to think Alicia was evil, Elizabeth was a lot worse too bad no one can judge a book by it's cover and all the while she has been playing the victim.
"....... Someone is planning on killing me! Yesterday I heard Beatriz on a phone call speaking to some goons only she knew of and that they should make everything seem like an accident.... I feel she plotting against me but there was Damon as well, he has been distant with me lately and what's worse I found him with his secretary on our matrimonial bed, he didn't explain himself not did he apologise to me and then there was Alicia, my former friend who got angry with me after she found out that I married Damon, who was her fiancee.... Beatriz and her has been meeting up and now I feel those two are planning something against me, including Damon." I turned to the last page.
"I told Xander about this and he said that I was just been paranoid and that nothing was wrong, after seeing him that night he travelled. I knew I wasn't paranoid and that somebody wanted me dead and so I plan on tearing of this pages so that nobody gets to read what was in it, if I was to die then my secret will die with me....." And the book ended.
I had questions a lot of them which was why I turned to the end of the book based on what the note had said I should do, the hand writing was still the same and it read, "If you read the note and you are here for more proof, know that there isn't any. All I wanted is for you to know that there is no one that can be trusted, that includes me. I want you to find your way into the mansion for that is the only safest place for you now though it is the worst place, cause as of now the real person who attempted to murder Elizabeth roams about and if he or she finds out about the book you hold then your life shall be in danger."
The book fell from her hands as I became scared, this was no longer a joking matter.... this was a dangerous game and shit is about to get real. Out of fear I bolt the door to my house with an extra lock, made sure the windows were closed shut and didn't open the door to anybody when it was 8pm. What's worse was that I didn't go out because I had a feeling someone was following me and even before I go out I made sure that the book was hidden safe in a box under the floor board.
I was no longer living my life like I used to. Which is why now I am at the gate of Damon's mansion with a doctor report in my hand which stated that I was pregnant. There was no way anybody would doubt it.
When they granted me access to go in, I had cold feet. Not because of the potential killer but the thought of having to see Damon after three weeks and with a pregnancy report at that.
I guess now I was actually going to be a crucified cat!