Falling for someone....at first, you don't even know it's happening. It all just started with a simple "hello" and you never would have guessed it would lead to this.
Your mind starts to concentrate on that one person, and nothing else. Whenever you see, talk to, or even are near that special someone, those butterflies and that smile appear as your problems seem to disappear.
Everything they say or do makes you smile. You just have that happy feeling inside again.
It's a good feeling, isn't it?
To love is never wrong. It may be disastrous, it may never be possible, it may be the deepest agony. But it is never wrong.
They say, "follow your heart" but if your heart is in a million pieces, which piece do you follow?
I was looking at the picture that Remy's sent me earlier. That's a picture of Clark and his friend, katabi nya iyong babae.....he's also holding her waist.
She said her cousin just showed it to her kaya sinend nya kaagad sa'kin.
I immediately went to Facebook in case their picture was posted there. Nakita ko naman kaagad 'yon kaya nagmamadali akong tinignan 'yon, kakapost lang din pala.
Halos walang negative comments ang mababasa, gan'to na ba sila ka famous?
"Ate Jessa bagay na bagay kayo!"
"Mine kay Ashton"
"Ate Jessa pa share naman kay Attorney"
"Clark Archer Gutierrez, totoo ba? Kayo na?"
I stopped.
I frowned at what i had read.
Wala namang nakalagay na caption sa picture kaya nagtataka ako sa mga comment ng iba. Karamihan ay puro "congrats bagay kayo" ang nababasa ko sa comment section.
Napatigil ako ng tumunog ang messenger ko, tinignan ko naman kaagad ang message ni Remy.
Remy Madden;
Is is true?
Kataleya Wilson;
Ang alin?
Remy Madden;
about Clark and Jessa. Sila na daw, akala ko ba kayo na?
I didn't reply. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko, hindi naman kami ni Clark.
In-off ko nalang ang phone ko, ayaw 'kong maabala sa kung ano man ang  kumakalat sa social media.
"Mama?" I heard Kiro call me as he was leaving the room.
"Hmm?" I sat him on my thigh.
"Where's Daddy?" He asked.
I sighed.
"I-I don't know" halos bulong nalang 'yon.
I don't know where Clark is. Base sa nakita ko kasama nya ang mga kaibigan nya. Alam ko namang wala akong karapatan na malaman kung saan man sya pupunta, wala namang kami.
Even though he said he loves me, I'm still not sure if that's true.
"What's wrong Mama?" I looked at Kiro.
I smiled at him before hugging him tightly.
"Do you love your Mama?" I asked.
He nodded. "Super. I love Daddy too." He whispered.
Natigilan naman ako.
I want to cry.
I know that Clark isn't really his Dad, but i'm very happy when i see them together.
Hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa utak ni Clark para sabihin kay Kiro na sya ang Daddy nya, alam kung mali 'yon dahil kapag nalaman ni Kiro ang totoo ay alam kung masasaktan sya.
Natigil ako nang may kumatok sa pinto, kumunot ang noo ko dahil wala naman akong inaasahan na pupunta ri'to sa ganitong oras ng gabi.
Ibinaba ko naman si Kiro para buksan ang pinto.
"Daddy!"
Nagulat ako ng tumakbo papalapit si Kiro kay Clark na nakatayo sa labas.
Hindi ko inaasahan na pupunta sya ngayon ri'to, hindi ba't kasama nya ang mga kaibigan nya?
"I miss you my baby" lumingon naman ako kay Clark ng marinig ang salitang "baby".
Napasimangot ako ng si Kiro pala ang tinutukoy nya, napatingin naman ako sa hawak ni Kiro. Malaking paper bag 'yon, pero curious ako kung anong laman 'non!
"How about Mama? Don't you miss her?" Kiro pouted.
Clark bit his lower lip. "I miss you" He whispered on my ear.
Gusto 'kong ngumiti pero naalala ko ang nakita ko kanina! Hindi ko nalang sya pinansin at tinalikuran nalang sila, aalis naman siguro sya mamaya baka gusto nya lang makita si Kiro kaya sya pumunta ri'to.
Pumasok nalang ako sa kwarto para mag review. Lunes na bukas may exam pala kami!
Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagbabasa ng bumukas ang pinto, kunot noo 'kong tinignan 'yon. Buhat ni Clark si Kiro na nakatulog na sa bisig nya, inihiga nya naman kaagad sa kama bago hinalikan ang noo ni Kiro.
Nag-iwas naman ako ng tingin, as time goes on mas lalo akong nahuhulog sa kanya. Even though i know there is no certainty if he will love me back too.
Pero umaasa ako.
"Can we talk?" Napasinghap ako ng maamoy ang pabango nya! Kahit ata hindi sya maligo ng ilaw araw ay ganito parin sya kabango!
"May ginagawa ako"
"Baby-
"Ano ba! May ginagawa nga 'ko diba?" Hindi ko alam kung ba't ako nagagalit! Wala akong karapatan magalit dahil lang nakita 'kong magkasama sila nung babae kanina, pero hindi ko kayang pigilan ang nararamdaman ko! Nagseselos ako.
"I didn't want to fall in love or need someone." He calmly uttered.
I stopped. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko!
"I really didn't want anything."
So, does he mean he can't love me back?
I bit my lower lip. Nag-iinit ang sulok ng mata ko! Nanatili ang tingin ko sa harapan, hinihintay 'kong may kasunod pa ba ang sasabihin nya.
"But then." He sighed. Lumuhod sya sa harapan ko at hinawakan ang kamay ko, yumuko naman ako para hindi nya makita ang mukha ko! "You appeared and i started wanting everything"
Nalilito parin ako kung anong gusto nyang sabihin!
"W-what are you saying?"
"I honestly didn't want to get involved with anyone. Heck, i never saw it coming. But you were the absolute best to me, and you were so easy to talk to. Little by little i found myself falling for you"
Natigilan ako, We stared at each other eyes for a moment before he leaned and kissed my lips. Hindi ako makagalaw. Pakiramdam ko nanginginig ang mga kamay ko!
He licked my lower lip sensually before pushing his tongue inside my mouth, tasting me. He kissed me for so long i almost forgot how to breathe.
"I wasn't looking for anything at all when i met you. Actually, i wasn't planning on falling for anyone so soon. But then i met you. And that was it....I guess things just happened. I found you and i found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you. It was simple. It was easy. And i think that's how the best relationship begin. You're not looking for anything and then suddenly you realize.... you have something"
Nakita ko nalang ang sarili 'kong lumuluha habang nakikinig sa sinasabi nya. Finally,
"You didn't have to do anything anymore to make me fall for you. I didn't fall for you because of what you could or couldn't do for me. I fell for you simply because you were unapologetically yourself. I fell for your beautiful soul and big hearts. I love you for everything that you are and everything that you're not. You're so perfectly flawed, but also perfectly you "
"Y-You're mine n-now?" I asked.
He nodded. "I never craved attention, until i tasted yours."
And kissed me again.
I thought it was impossible, it was impossible for him to love me back....in a few months we were together akala ko wala pa'rin syang nararamdaman para sa'kin.