I can't help but to feel broken knowing that Nicolas is hurt by me. I can't. Nolan is too much! I don't care if he looks like Nicolas! What I am sure of is that I love Nicolas, not Nolan.
My feelings will never change, and I don't know what to do right now. I tried calling him but he never answered. He doesn't even reply to my texts. Nolan's text worried me. He said that Nicolas was not home. I was beginning to feel guilty.
Where the heck are you, Nicolas?
I still remember that after last night, Nolan sent me home and said that he didn't regret what he had done. He is so cruel! "I'm doing him a favour so that he can move on with his life." he said again for the hundredth time.
How could he?
The next day, Nicolas came to school. But he doesn't even talk to me. He doesn't even look at me! I tried to approach him, but he just ignored me. "Nicolas, please, can we talk?" I begged him but he didn't even care. His eyes were red, and he looked at me with venom. Somehow, I feel hurt by it. "What else do you want from me? Is my twin not enough to satisfy you?" He glared. Wow
I badly wanted to cry right now, but since we're in school and everyone is watching us, I can't
"Let me explain, please." I said, trying to hold his arm. "Don't you dare touch me!" He pushed me, and I heard gasps from everyone who was watching us.
Seriously? Why can't people just mind their own businesses? Why are you making this so hard, Nicolas?
"Please just listen to me! I do—" I was shocked when he suddenly banged his hand on the locker next to me.
I was indeed shocked.
A tear started to fall from my eyes. I wiped it off instantly.
"Stay the f*ck away from me!"
He sighs frustratingly before walking off. I couldn't handle this. He hates me! He seriously hates me now. I saw Caleb running towards me. He looks hurt and worried.
"Shhhh, you're okay. Don't cry," he said as he hugged me. I never felt that I badly needed someone to comfort me until now. I don't care what people are going to say about me. I don't f*cking care about that! I was thankful that Caleb came to me. He truly is a good friend. I needed to explain everything to Nicolas.
I can't lose him.
"Ohmygod, look at her!"
"I wonder what they are arguing about."
"I think they really are breaking up!"
That was all I heard when I walked around the school. I hate myself too for hurting him. I feel grateful to have Bella as my best friend. She will give a death glare to those who have been spreading rumours about me and Nicolas. I was thankful indeed to have her in my life. I couldn't handle practice. I didn't even know if I should go, but I needed to tell Nicolas the truth!
"Hi Rose!" Violet chirped when she saw me, but soon went silent when she saw me being silent. "I'm sorry to hear about you and Nicolas. Are you okay though?" She said, looking worried
I told her I was fine and noticed Nicolas was talking to Miss J. She looked disappointed and hurt by Nicolas's words. I decided to go and meet him, but as soon as he saw me, he went straight to the door. Miss J sighed frustratedly.
"What happened between you two? Last time, you were the one who wanted to quit, and now Nicolas? I don't even know what problems you guys have, but please just settle everything." she said, almost like begging
He wanted to quit? He must hate me so much. It hurts. This is too much. Why is he doing this to me without hearing my explanation? I decided to look for him and, whether he liked it or not, I would tell him the truth about what really happened between Nolan and me that night.
I heard a girl say, "I could make you happier than Rose did." I peeked and saw Nicolas with Stacy. Why is she talking to him? He was staring at her with a bored expression.
I decided to approach them. But when Nicolas noticed me, he suddenly slipped his hand around Stacy's waist and pulled her close. She can't help but giggle. Jealousy and hurt were all over me. Why is he doing this on purpose?
"I love that." Nicolas whispered into her ears while staring at me with hatred and hurt in his eyes. I can't. They both chuckled, and Stacy cupped his cheeks. I stared at him with wide eyes. No, please. Don't kiss her! Nicolas gazed at me for one last time before Stacy decided to pull his face so that she could kiss him.
I had enough.
He hates me so much and it hurt me to know that he did.
I've never felt like this before
and I don't like it at all.