I was supposed to meet Nolan at 8, but it was already past 9. I was beginning to worry if he was still here or not. But he does say that he will be waiting. When I reached the park, it was scary. Nobody is around and the lights are out. It was cold and I could feel someone was watching me.
"You came." I was startled that Nolan suddenly stood behind me. He was too close! Considering that he appeared from nowhere. That scared me a little. "Yeah, I'm here. So now tell me." I said, turning around to face him. He just took a seat on the bench.
"Come here. This will be a long story."
Nolan said, and I sat next to him listening to what ing to what he was going to tell me. "When I first learned about Roxy, Which is your mom? I assume you already know that, right?" He smirks. I nod. How did he know? "I was angry, of course. But Nicolas is much worse." he chuckled. I just stared at him in confusion.
"You know, he was furious at our dad when he found out about Roxy. And at the time, my mother was battling cancer." he sighed as he looked down. I stayed silent. "He was angry that dad never visited mom at the hospital. In fact, dad just sat in his room staring at a blank space with a photograph of your mom." He rolled his eyes.
I bit my lip, suddenly feeling the need to cry.
"Nicolas tried to make him go to the hospital. But he never does. Mom said that she was fine, but I could see her suffering. It's too much that she had to suffer with having cancer and with her dad being an asshole. That's just so fucked up." he hissed and turned to me. He is looking at me with something in his eyes that I cannot read. "Until that day, my mother's death, He came to her funeral saying sorry and shit, but it was too late for that as my mom was already dead!" He said this in anger, and I started to feel guilty. He chuckles. "Nicolas, of course, was pissed at him. He hated our dad ever since that day, and that is why he left. To my mom's sister, Aunt Marie, he said softly."
I never knew this happened to Nicolas. He had been suffering so much pain all this time. "When he left, dad was back to locking himself in his room. He sighs, "Saying that Roxy left and so does our mom." he sighs, disappointedly. "Although after what happened, he is still waiting for the day Roxy comes back into his life. Like seriously? Your mom had already moved on without saying a single word to my dad. She gave him hope..." He was pissed, and I know it.
"She had amnesia," I said quietly, hoping he could hear me.
He turned his head towards me.
"What?! How come?" he said, confused and annoyed. I told him about the plane crash and how mom ended up losing her memories. "F*ck it!" He laughs and I don't get it.
What is wrong with him?
"You're telling me she forgot about who the f*ck is Noah? How come nobody ever f*cking told her about MY father?" He said, raising his voice. I flinched back, shocked that he suddenly raised his voice. "Sorry... I didn't mean to." he sighs. "It's fine. Diego's told me that they taught your dad and my mom had alr6 brokrn up since she was going to London. That's why they never speak about Noah again." I told him what I knew. He stared at me, as if he didn't believe me.
"I've heard my dad mention Diego's several times. I don't know." he said, scratching the back of his head. I don't know about this either. "Nicolas thought that dad was over your mom. That is why he doesn't care about it anymore when you told him about Roxy being your mom. You must be really special to him since he opened up to you." He stared at me as if he was hurt and jealous. What?
He does say that he likes me. But I'm not sure if he meant it like really really like or just like. I smiled weakly at him.
Nolan suddenly chuckled.
"Of course. That is why he likes you so much." he said, and I was confused. What? "What do you mean?" I stared at him, raising an eyebrow. "You remind me of our mother. Your smile, I mean." he said, smiling.
Oh
"Nicolas is closer to my mom than to me since she was the one who named him. And I was closer to my dad, since... you know what? Your mother named me." he said, staring at me.
What?
"How come?" I raised an eyebrow. "Dad told me that if they had children together, she wanted the first boy's name to be Nolan. So yes, me!" He said sarcastically. I was speechless. I was disappointed to learn that Mom doesn't remember much of her past.
Noah had suffered waiting in vain. And mom never knew about his existence. I don't even know what else is worse. "You okay?" Nolan said as he took a seat next to me. Why does he have to be so close to me right now? "I don't know. What if Nicolas found out that both of your father's are still waiting for Roxy?" I asked, looking at him.
He looked concerned.
"He might as well hate everyone again."
No!I can't let that happen. "What should we do?" I accidentally hold his hand, but he doesn't seem to mind. He was silent for a moment. He tightened his grip on my hand and looked at me in the eyes. "Come with me," he said. "What? What are you saying?" I was confused.
"Let's go somewhere far and never come back."
He said, cupping my cheeks. I stared at him with wide eyes. "No! Are you crazy? I can't leave him!" I pushed his hand away. How dare he? "Why? I can be him. I even look like him. You know that I love you. What else do you want?"
He what?! We barely know each other. How come he's saying that?
"Stop! Don't please." I don't know why I cried, but I just can't bear it anymore. The thought of me leaving Nicolas is just too much. I can't  I don't know why he hugged me, but I don't feel like pushing him away.
"He has already seen us anyway."
he whispered, and I was shocked. I tried my best to push him away, but he held me close in his arms. Why? "Please... why are you doing this to me?" I cried, struggling in his arms.
"Because I love you."
He said, closing his eyes. From the corner of my eyes, I saw someone watching us. He looked hurt and angry. I can't help but cry even more. Nicolas was standing there looking at me with hurt in his eyes. I don't know what could be worse.
I don't want to lose him.