Someone used to tell me that loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them.Sometimes, loving also means losing, because you let them go to find their own happiness, although you may lose them.
I was hurt to learn that Nicolas hates me so much now. I don't even know what else to do.
"It'll be fine. He will forget about you and move on soon." Nolan said, as I silently cried in his arms. I could not believe this guy! How dare he come to this school waiting for me and act like my boyfriend? Like, seriously no. But what I saw earlier broke my heart. Why did he let her kiss him?
Why?
It took me weeks to even get close to him, and Stacy manages to do that in just ONE day?!
"This is all your fault! If only I had never met you." I cried harder and he just sighed. I noticed some people were giving us a weird look. Probably thinking why we suddenly hug each other after the argument we had earlier, as nobody knew that Nicolas had a twin brother. I don't care at all right now.
"I wanted you to meet someone." he said, holding my hand. I tried my best to glare at him, but I was more curious. "Who?" I asked, wiping away my tears.
He was silent for a moment.
"My father."
My world came to a halt. I will finally meet Noah! He drove us off from the school, and the ride was awkward. Other than Bruno Mars singing while talking to the moon, everything else is awkward. I can't help but think about his father. I needed to know his story and why he couldn't move on from my mom.
"You okay? You seem quiet." I heard Nolan say, but I kept looking out the window and ignoring him. He just sighs. What is going to happen now? Am I actually going to lose Nicolas? I can't handle this. It hurts me so much to know that Nicolas hates me.
"I just want you to know that I won't leave you. No matter what happens, I will always be there for you."
Nolan said, and why does he have to say such a thing?! He's making me weak, and I badly wanted to cry my eyes out. We have been driving for an hour already, and I don't even know where he's taking me. I wonder why he wanted me to meet his father.
"We're here." Nolan smiled, taking off his seat belt. I was confused. What are we doing in a hospital? Is he sick? Nolan noticed I was confused, but he just pulled me towards the entrance. "What are we doing here?" I said, looking around. "Meeting my father." he said softly, and I just let him pull me towards his father's room.
Why am I suddenly feeling nervous? Oh God
He pushed the door and I peeked in to see a person laying on the bed, almost like half dead. He was pale and skinny. He looked like he hadn't eaten in years. He was staring at the ceiling with a blank expression, but when he noticed Nolan, he smiled a little.
"Is Nicolas with you?" He asked and I could see sadness in his eyes. I don't even know why I wanted to cry looking at him. "No, I'm sorry. But I bought someone." Nolan said, and I smiled at him.
His expression shows me that he was shocked to see me. He reached out his hand for me to hold, almost begging me to come near him.
"Go on." Nolan whispered to me, and I obeyed him, reaching for his father's hand. I did what he told me to and take a seat next to his father. Noah's eyes started to become watery as he was holding my hand so gently and it made me want to cry.
"Roxy."
He breathed, and I couldn't hold my tears any longer. He must have missed his mom so badly. Nolan turned his head and sat on the couch with his palm covering his face. He looks like he's going to cry.
"No. My name is Rosabelle. Roxy is my mom." I said, wiping away my tears and smiling at him. His hand reached for my face and touched my cheek. He was looking at me with sadness in his eyes. "You have her eyes." he said, smiling softly.
I wonder what happened between them.
"Yeah, that's what Diego's told me." I chuckled, and he just lay helplessly in the bed looking at me. "I miss her so much. It's good to know that she's alive. Everyone's been telling me that she's dead, but I don't trust them because I believe that Roxy will come back to me like we promised." he said as a tear fell from his eyes. It hurts to know that he has been waiting for his mother all these years.
"I'm sorry." I said, as he smiled at me.
"For what, dear?" He spoke. "For everything. You have been waiting for my mom for like forever, not knowing that after the plane crash, she suffered from amnesia and lost all her memories. She forgot about you. She had forgotten about everything." I took a deep breath and noticed Nolan was staring at me.
"I should have known." Noah chuckles softly. "Please don't hate her," I said, looking down. "I don't hate her. She was the love of my life, but it seems like destiny doesn't want us to be together. But I was thankful to know that she's alive and has a beautiful daughter like you." he smiled, reaching to touch my cheek.
He's so kind. He deserves to be happy. Why is he suffering? I couldn't bear this if I were him.
"I feel grateful to know that she's alright.. it feels good to see you with my son." he said, staring into the ceiling.
His son. Which son, actually?
"Yeah, They're fine," I smiled at him. "You've met Nicolas, I assume.. I wished I could meet him again. If only he could forgive me for neglecting Barbara. I regretted everything. I just wanted to let him know that I always love Barbara because she has always been there for me. Although I was a fool to realise it when she'd gone. I regretted everything." He started sobbing. I assume he was talking about his wife, Barbara.
If only Nicolas knew about this. Will he stop hating his dad? Or to be specific, me?
"Can you help me?" He asked, looking at me. I turned to face Nolan, but he just sighed and nodded. "Yes, What is it?" I held his hand as he was now crying.
"Please don't give up on him."
He whispered, and I was confused. Who is he talking about? I saw Nolan going out of the room, and I was even more curious.
"He always sees me as a neglecting father, but I love him with all of my heart. I just hope he will forgive me. I just wanted to meet him one last time. I just wish he would be able to forgive me." he sighs
When he says one last time, I can't help but feel curious and worried. He's not dying, right?
"I promise I will not give up on him. I promise that you will be able to meet him. I promise he will forgive you or I will force him to do so." I smiled and he chuckled.
Well, at least I made him happy.