“THE WRONG IS NOW IN THE LIGHT AND WHAT WILL COME NEXT WILL BE SOBERIETY’S HIGH.”
I had already caused too much pain to people that I have deemed my love and people I love, I have more or less broken people and I felt what I did was wrong but I didn’t feel it immediately did i? the next day I did not go to the hub, I was on my own, thankfully it was Friday and I was more or less having a lot of classes and I had no time to grieve, I did see them in some of my classes but I ignored them and tried to focus, it wasn’t all good because the question came from other students.
 Friday was over and then I headed home, I did not take the bus and I gave an excuse to the principal that I had another location, now for us who have a bus, you must all obey the rules, the rules are not so vast but they are detailed one being.
If you have another location not ordained or agreed by the school then feel free to go with a reason left in the report book, state your location and then you will be free to leave.
Its detailed but it is easy to understand, I filled the report blank and headed home, I put in another location of course, they don’t call your parents or anything, its just proof that the school will need to show the guardians of the child if anything was to happen to the child.
Since that day all I have been doing is just having more focus, it’s been 6 Days since that day, it’s another Friday and mom and dad are already trying to impose their ideology in my head, they have been all about how I am in school and mom has been saying how I should come to visit her shop, now mom has a shop but its like a partnered business, its not completely hers though but she is a boss there. 
This week I have visited the place up to 3 times, she was really persistent so I had to give in, entering the place, I was impressed, it real a nice place. In my mind I said, I don’t mind working here, so I decided to come stay here only after school, I really learnt some things I wasn’t expecting, I had not still been to the hub but I don’t even feel it like I use to, I have taken a break and I overheard them talk yesterday about my return, Xavier really did not mean the words he said but amil wasn’t having it, he is the one who still refuses to welcome me back.
“look you all can welcome her and all but I will not please anyone, I will not try to make her feel welcome, she can be on her grind and I will be on mine, I am sorry if you guys feel this is too much but she really made me feel stupid and during those times I just wanted to be friends, I had been trying to be for a while but when I finally got her attention it turns out she just wanted to get something from me and that was it so I will be on my grind.” 
He said, as he looked at them with cold eyes. I never knew he had cold eyes like that , now I do and I was the trigger. It made me sad and angry at myself again, I have always wanted to be good and I have always wanted friends but finally after having them I made them regret my existence, I was really sad so today I didn’t go to school and I am at home, I told mom that I wasn’t feeling well and indeed my temperature was up, I was oaky but I wasn’t really okay, I told her in order not to be idle, I would go to the shop and learn one or two. You should have seen her face, she was so happy, her eyes glistened and she said.
“Oh, oh uh, of course you should go to the shop tell me when you are ready, I will take you there myself.” she said as she prepared the twins for school, they are now going to school and they have been well behaved at home lately maybe it’s because they have seen their match in class and all. 
Any who as of I was in the shop,  I like the place but truth be told I still will not be here forever, I know they want me to have a skill and I am okay with that and I will have one indeed but I will not still use this particular one, it will remain a skill, it will come in handy but It won’t be my highlight and I mean that, accounting is the second one, they are telling me to go for, I also will not go for that but its time to play another game, no that’s the wrong statement, it will soon be time to play another game but first I will plan this very well, I will try my best not to hurt men and their feeble hearts but this time I will come out victorious, I will not fail, I will become the best and I will leave the rest in the dirt, this time I will not be ignorant of my surroundings and i will manipulate the hearts of men with my words but I will not oversell it, I will have rules and this will be where it all truly starts.
I had fun at the shop and I learned how to cut a cloth now, at least that counts for something, I learnt a lot since then, it was suddenly the next week and suddenly it was also a Mondays, I was picked by the bus as always but I have not followed the bus home, the principal had called the house yesterday about me not following the bus and before he could explain himself she said well she is now coming to my shop after school and that’s how that matter died down but I had to follow the bus going and today I decided to follow the bus coming. I got to school and after the class I waited a bit before leaving, it’s been like that for me, I had to wait, since the incident I wait in class for around 20 minutes before leaving or I stay there till the next class. Now I am a commercial student and there is one place that is always free for me and that is the office of the PHE teacher. I am very sure you thought I would say the economies teacher right, well it’s the other way round, I just told him I would love to be staying in his office from time to time and he said alright he doesn’t just want to see me idle and that is the deal. Now it was a new day, I stayed in class like I normally did and at the time to step outside I did step outside but there was someone waiting for me, someone I never expected to even want to see me in the first place. It was amil. I saw him but I didn’t know what he was there for till he said my name and my movement came to a halt.
“Aella,” he said as I froze in place and slowly turned around.
“Yeah, hey, how are you doing?” I said as I turned around.
“Is this what you have decided to do, have you decided not to become one of us anymore?” he asked.
“I, noo… I am sorry I don’t just know how to face all of you and how to even face you most especially.” I said as I looked down unable to look him in the eyes.
“Alright then, you have proven you are sorry, just come back, I promise you that they don’t have a problem with you.” He said.
“So, what about you.” I asked 
After this particular question there was silence.
The noise of the classes beneath had volume but the whistle of the wind was well audible only to us.
“Just come back.’ He said and left immediately he said so, I don’t know how to explain what happened but I will say that all I ever wanted at that point was for him to say yes, even I wish that you would come back.
In the silence I awaited, in the midst of the confusion I awaited that response, slowly but surely, I was beginning to have something for amil even without my knowledge, I wouldn’t say it was love at that time, I would say it was deep care for him and just him alone at the time being.
I indeed went to the hub just like he said I should and even though I was nervous I still came in, as I entered, I was kind of scared that they will all give me looks like I was never supposed to be there but as I entered and went straight to my space in the middle everyone knew that there was someone who entered but they did not know how to break the ice with this person, so as I sat down for around 10 minutes and then I heard.
“Hey, welcome back.” He said to me as he stretched his hands to me.
“Oh, thank you.” I said, with an awkward smile because who was in front of me was Xavier.
“plus I want to apologize for my words to you, you know words are powerful and even though men mean well you may think otherwise depending on how they talk, it is not as easy as I said it to paint a man in white but it is easy to paint a man in black if he utters the words that are of the wrong caliber, I meant what I said but I did not mean to put it in that format I wished to make you understand in a better way but even I, I guess is still a slave to anger, so please forgive me.” He said to me as he held my hand and that alone was enough to break the ice. As I stood there, I now understood why he was called the first, the one who is the leader of the best, he is a really good person but his quietness is scary.
“Thankyou, I am really thankful and I have forgiven you, in fact there was nothing to forgive, you did nothing wrong. You corrected me and yes was in a brutal form but do not hate you for that, you had to do what you had to do.” I replied as i shook my hand and smiled at me, truly there was nothing to even say, there was actually no grudge in my heart against him because he wasn’t wrong, in fact he was right.
“I guess I also owe you an apology for being quiet about everything and not even meeting you or talking to you for a week plus that in my dictionary is a fowl move, I should have at the very least said something to you after.” Konna said, closing in on my location. He also gave me a handshake and told me to feel welcome and I shouldn’t forget to have fun.
“you know that when I saw you at first I didn’t like you, in fact the way you talked and behaved ticked me off but as time went on I discovered you have a passion, a passion for art and it was what brought your whole self to light, it was what brought your whole behavioral pattern to life, you have a knack to be a photographer but that’s just the basics, you have the potential to be a creative, that is why we all are here, we aren’t just the best but we do the best in an abstract way, I don’t regret giving you my cameras and even though the motives were twisted they were still kind of pure so I don’t regret giving you a gadget of mine.” Monna said as she stood at the side of Xavier, my mouth was opened because I have never seen her even talk this much talk less of praising someone, I was indeed honored. 
As they all came together, amil came and he said.
“Welcome back.” As he stretched his hand for a handshake, I know I had apologized to him but I I feel like he deserves another apology and this was the moment so I stood up and I shook his hand and then I bowed my upper body down and I said to him.
“I am sorry, I have not formally said this but I am sorry that I literally used you to achieve a goal of mine, I shouldn’t have, you guys are my friends and you are the first one to make me feel welcome, the one who made me feel welcome, I shouldn’t have done anything that hurt you and I should have considered you like you considered me, you made me feel welcome and I made you regret it, I made you feel used and I did not just make you feel that as a misunderstanding, I was actually doing so and I was not seeing anything wrong, I am sorry, the times I wanted to talk and I am just alone you were there for me and when it was your turn I didn’t do the same for you, I ignored you and that was wrong, I am sorry.” I said as tears began to gather but not today, I wouldnt want to ruin this moment.
“I know you are sorry, please stand upright.” He said. I did stand upright and then he did something that I really never expected.
“I have forgiven you and to prove that I would like to ask for a hug.” He said
Though it was sudden I agreed out of good measure.
“Sure, it’s no problem”. I said to him. Now hugging is normal for me, I mean I hug my mom and dad including my brother.
He closed in and put his arms around me, and ending his position at my upper back, he stayed there for a very short time and then let me go but I was well weak after and it’s not because I don’t receive hugs or ask for them but this time it was different.
I was never one to notice the smell of people and the softness or hardness of their skin, I wasn’t someone like that, in fact I have hugged a pig in mud before and even though its been a while(8 years ago.) but this time it was different, I was feeling his body against mine and even though it was a second or two longer than a normal hug, he smelled nice and his body was soft but firm, his hands, they were also cold and his heartbeat was kind of fast or slow maybe it was just there I really did not know back then because I had never paid attention to all those things but today I did, at that moment, as we hugged I could feel his breathing and his head on my shoulder, my ears were directly at his upper chest and my head was at his left side and his head at my right, I know I am probably not supposed to say this at that age but it felt good.
Well its not like I was too young but in my country you are only allowed to feel love at the age of 18 or so.
I honestly did not want him to stop hugging me but he probably thought I felt uncomfortable so he ended the meeting of our bodies and as his body slowly departed from mine my mind was already In chaos and my heart was beating all over the place when he said.
“You are forgiven and I hold no grudge.” He said, as he held my hand and then let go, I was more or less there in shock but not the kind of shock one would think, I was in confusion on why my body felt like that so in the heat of the moment I responded with.
“t..Thankyou. I really appreciate.” I stammered. After that we talked and we talked about my life since that day and they also told me their part of the story, they each said their own story and they all also talked about school, that was it for the day, that day made me understand that after recalibration comes reconciliation, it exists with the other as its direct part, I understood also that it Is not easy to get it, it is not easy to want to recalibrate, there must be a trigger and sometimes it just comes from within now after recalibration there will be reconciliation but it is not immediately, yes they complement each other but it is not just going to come, after recalibration one must wait to understand his or her next step and then reconciliation comes after then and only then will it make sense, if you recalibrate and then know what you want to do next then that means there will be reconciliation around the corner and that’s that.
After the talk we all had lunch together, we then had a discussion about an event that is to come up later on in the school, we will be the judges of the event and we will be having a major role to play in planning it, we and the seniors will try and relate to make this happen and when I mean the seniors, I mean the prefect. This was new for me because I did not know how to relate with people and I was about to get tested.