“TO KNOW ABOUT ANOTHER IS NOT IS NOT JUST AN OFFER.”
In the midst of the get together we later had to go home and we had to disperse, truth be told that day was more fun than It had ever been, we ate together talked about class and so on and so on forth, I was happy, we were happy but the bell rang and we had to head to class, we were going for class and it was going to be a long class, a class of around 3 hours, it was nicknamed the marathon class, the class of around 3 hours and it was hectic, we had math, we had English and then we were to separate to our various department, it was hard and it was tiring, I write in cursive so its pretty hard writing fast but I managed though my hands were shacking after, I still managed.
“Damn, my hand is literally shacking, I shacking look at my hands I have suffered and it is not funny, we already had 2 classes before this but this was the most hectic mix-up I have ever done and had in this school, I can’t believe they are trying to mix-up topics and combine them because we would be having an event and then our exams, I cant even deal with this people and their plans.” Konna said, as he laid on the floor outside to rest.
“I mean, the rush was too much, I could legit see people giving up when our English teacher started to dictate, that woman talks fast and then she has an accent to it, she has a weird American accent and only me and a handful of people understand her, I wrote so much and I regret it, sometimes I wish I was those guys that didn’t even write, they were literally letting the teacher do their own thing and even they do theirs, she could not talk to them, she had too much on her hands and she had to hurry so she let them do what it is that they wanted.” Monna said, sitting outside.
After that class we were having around, 1 hour till we closed and I decided to stay outside, I just wanted to rest a little and after that probably go home, then amil came out. I was not shocked or anything, I was just a little surprised and that is all there was to it, we really have not sat in the same place to properly talk and I felt today was going to be the day for us to have a talk, knowing me I am too shy to even speak up but thankfully he broke the ice.
“I really am tired.” He said sitting on the pavement and looking at the clouds.
“Well, you are not the only one, everyone here is also, I guess its just one of those days.” I said, replying him and also observing the clouds like he was doing, we weren’t sitting so far from each other and I was sitting sideways resting on the pillar outside and he was sitting facing forward and resting on the second pillar not so far from me. 
“Well, I guess we are all trying our best to meet up before the clash of events that will happen soon, and by next tomorrow we would be meeting up with the seniors, I was never a fan of them, they really are their own league if I would say, we are the five and they hate they are not the ones here.” He said.
“But really I don’t see it like that, I see them as people who mind their business and that’s it, and plus they were my brothers’ juniors, they are probably not bad.” I added.
“Well, I won’t say that, for me they are like the most secretive of all in the school, no junior goes near their class and they mostly smile amongst themselves and no one else. I don’t hate them but even your brother came to congratulate us when we were here, he is like the first ambassador of the school, the most amazing senior in the school and also one of the highest rankers in the history of this school, he was respected even by us his juniors but they never came out to really say hi, they just clapped and then looked at us like we were their enemies.” He explained. Looking at it, he is not wrong, I recently came here and I am about to do my exam for the first term and they have not once greeted or responded to our greetings, but we rarely meet so I really didn’t notice, the school opened another place for them to practice their practical’s not so far from the farm so I guess that’s where they mostly stay.
Alright let me break it down, we have like two places that is cutout from the school, I will say we have two spaces, so 1 is the space cut out from the technical department lab, its directly at the back, it’s a cabin surrounded by grass and soon we will be adding a pond, we are here in space one, this place is our responsibility, we must keep it clean, we must beautify but not past educational standards and it’s a calm environment, now I call it a shed because I didn’t know what it was, yes I didn’t know but now I do, now for the seniors theirs is like a shed, a place for farming tools, yes that, they built theirs big and wide, so they had to make it cozy themselves, its in the farm and its surrounded by crops, a large body of crops and also a pond, and trust me its big, its really big and its fine, but they still hate us because we look better or something, no I will use smug.
“that’s true though.” I agreed 
“I wonder how that is going to go for us, plus the principal asked us to do this planning with them because he probably noticed that they really don’t do anything or partner with their juniors to do anything.” He said.
“Well, I guess you can say so.” I agreed. 
“Yeah.” He said back to me. At this point the conversation felt like we were in a friendly football game, where a ball is passed to the other team in order for the team to pass it back, the only difference is we are not literally playing a game this is just a conversation being passed around to birth something tangible in my opinion. We were silent and all for a short time when he asked me something.
“Can I ask you something.” He said.
“Well, yeah.” I said to him
“Why do you have a lot of interest in photography and also editing like a photographer or designer.” He asked me.
“Oh.” I replied immediately transitioning from a calm expression to a worried one.
“It’s okay if you don’t want to answer me, I actually understand, don’t stress if its something private.” He said. Trying to shove it to the side. Funny enough I would like to tell him, he is someone who helped me and he lends me his laptop for use, he deserves an explanation.
“No, no, its fine, I will tell you everything.” I said
“Oh, okay.” He replied as he moved closer. I was at first startled but he didn’t notice, he was just doing his thing, he probably doesn’t want anyone to overhear because of how private I have made everything about myself seem.
“….” I was at first quiet.
“Oh, did I come too close, should I move? I think I will just move.” He said after seeing my eye brows raised up and the uneasiness on my face.
“Oh no, it’s okay, it’s alright don’t worry, don’t worry about it.” I said, slowly stretching my hand a little over the pavement, it was like my hand was hovering, I stopped at the middle and placed it down, it seemed he got the message so he  did the same and our hands met in the middle. Though I don’t know exactly why I did that, I know I felt butterflies from that action.
“so the truth Is I am not interested in accounting this is what my parents have decided on my head and they are not kidding with the decision, my mom wants me to study fashion designing and my dad wants me to be an accountant, well now you would ask me what exactly is my passion as a person, well my passion is related to tech, truth be told I should be in the science department, I have so much passion for anything that can be done on a phone laptop, the software, you know the spark I have are multiple and one thing I have always wanted to accomplish is to be good at all I love, to make a fire off the sparks in my head and that may be hard but I am willing to go through the hardship, I have always had a knack for graphic designing since I was a kid and its been hard to exercise on it when none supports me, no one gave me hearing to my wishes and my dreams except from my brother who keeps advising me to pursue something else for now and go back to what I want to study or what I love later on, it’s the best plan truly but there is no time on my side, I mean women don’t marry late and so on and so forth, I really can do what he advised me to do but It really is hard, I then said to myself I will just forget it but then I met my mentor, he is someone who showed me everything about this art and my sparks, he Is the one that has always made me rekindle my passion for my dream and so I decided to do something, I decided to do everything all at once but it will have stages and it will be self-taught but I did it the wrong way, or better still I started it the wrong way but now I have recalibrated I understand what it is I must do.” I said.
“wow, I don’t even know what to say, I cant believe… well I can believe actually, its not something new at this point, parents always try to get what they want and you are the first girl I am seeing that is interested in the tech industry and all that’s really nice, and I think its because your parents have not seen many of your kind and that is why they are talking bad about it, that is why they are redrawing their support because they don’t want you to enter a sink hole, I do understand.” He said 
“Even though they would want the best for me did my dad have to react like I killed his dreams when I proposed my passion to him? If you would let me down wont you want to do it easy? I still think of that night that I told him, I wish I never did but then what is it I would have done? Would he support me if I told him about it now? I doubt that to be the case, I doubt that to even be a possibility, he would hate me If I were to repeat this particular word of. I want to be a graphic designer; he sees the ones who work there as a joke.” I said, as it dawned on me, I wasn’t telling a story anymore I was putting in scenarios that are probably the best, truth be told I would want to present the idea to him again but even I just said what he would have said to me, if I were to do that. 
“Sigh. Men and their ideology, do you know why men battle Aella?” he asked me.
“No actually, I would say it is to prove something.” I replied.
“That’s not just it truly, that is it but it is deeper than that, you see men have ideologies, they have ideals and when they meet another man, they know that with every word there is to be a proof of a just and stable belief or I would say sensible belief. If two men who have never met before come together and they need to work together then you will understand the power of ideology over men especially if they are great men, they try subconsciously to prove their supremacy, that’s the power of ideology and that is what sparks war, the war comes from the excess want to prove supremacy over the other person, the supremacy over the other and that is was done in the time of old, it is still done though but it is one of the most important part of being human, Ideology is important but it is not to be over exercised because it brings pride, now imagine you are giving a baby an advice of something you know partly about, of something that you say you know but you don’t know exactly how it is being done and this baby then tells you this is what I want to do, now you have known that thing to be successful but the success rate is low, what will you tell the baby?” he asked me
“I would try to make the baby understand what I know and advice the baby.” I replied
“Well, yes that is what you will do if this baby will listen but now let’s say this baby doesn’t listen, this baby is stubborn.” He said.
“Well, I will try to support the baby I guess.” I replied.
“That’s why you are going through this thing now, it is for you to be supportive in the future, your parents are like mine, they are of the past and we are of the future, it is so you will be a better supporter than them, I pray that your mentors words touched you enough to make you understand that you can juggle both, adapt it as a hubby like you are doing and then work to support your hobby, do you understand?” he said as he smiled at me.
“Yeah, I guess so, I will have to make everything make sense I guess, this is for me not them, this is how I will, make myself believe that I can do it, I first have to love it and at the same time be good at it as I get good at other things, I understand.” I replied him as I smiled out of a little relief, he was the second person who made me want to continue this.
“So how do we approach the meeting with the seniors, I mean according to Xavier, we are going to be talking one on one with the prefects to make things better, to make things faster, we will each be given a topic on what to talk about and after that we will meet up and then talk about everything, we have learned from them then we will know what next to do.” He said. I know myself not to really talk so honestly, I don’t know how I would even make this happen.
“Well, yes.” I said not really revealing my weak point to anyone yet.
After that, we heard the bell and then we had to go home, this was the brink of forming a new and more profound relationship this was the earliest stage of forming a relationship with someone talk less of anyone ever.
Going to my street I had my mp3 so I decided to listen to music as I headed home, heading home I could not shake the worry I had, I had only told amil about my case at home but I think everyone should know, sooner or later they will need to know because I guess it is essential. Essential? What is essential, I have been living like I am always having goals but truth be told I don’t really know where I am headed, I have my mom and dad but what I want is not what I want, they want their daughter to be a kind of intelligent but I can’t be everything they want me to be, I would like to be me, I would like to overcome these problems of disapproval or I will not be mentally capable of moving forward. It gets tiring when all you want takes a turn around for the worst, all I wanted was to finally have a goal and boom it came in a flash right before my eyes in form of pixels coming together and colors forming from one place to another, lines and dots, texts formed a remarkable art on digital paper, it was magnificent, it was different, on the other platform was a man speaking with his computer, he wrote words with brackets and his laptop replied, in number and sometimes in words of red, the world lite up in front of my eyes and I was lost in my imagination. 
I did not take the bus today because I wanted to walk and I had it in mind to go to my mom’s shop but I had passed that location some minute ago, I did head that way and I did get there but I did not enter, I had the urge to walk further and I decided to walk further indeed, I took a long look at that place and I said to myself.
“In all your beauty and grandness, I find no solace here.” I said as I looked at the shop before I moved forward and just starred at the road and the sky in awe, I don’t know what happened that day but there was something new, something different, I had no worry or stress at that point all I thought of was the art of my sparks and it was like thinking back to how it started. 
I entered my house some minutes after with a calm smile on my face as I saw the twins play, they were happy and it made me think back to when I was happy, when I was singing at the top of my voice with my brother, the kitchen was their place those days, Sunday nights, you could here the bubbles pop from the stew on fire and you could see white water come out from the side of the pot of rice as the intensive heat shifts its cover, those days were the days but I guess I am growing, I guess I am now past the stage where I should be wishing for the days of old or am I? I said as I questioned my self while watching these kids fight over a toy, I stood there reminiscing.
After that I walked to my room and took my clothes off, I had a cold bath and I enjoyed every bit of it, the water bouncing off my skin and the thoughts clouding my head, it was going to be a long evening and I knew that myself.
 “ZZZZRR, ZZZRR” my phone vibrated on my bed.
“Hello.” I said after picking up.
“Oh, hello miss Aella.” The person replied. It was the voice of a man, a familiar voice.
“Hello sir.” I replied him.
“How are you doing oh miss Aella.” He asked.
“Hmm, I am doing alright sir, thankyou very much and you my humble sir how are you doing?” I asked him
“Oh, I am doing quite well today madam, I would say I has been a while I heard your voice; I must say you tend to forget the ones whom you were so familiar with sometimes but I guess that is what distance does to the mind.” He said. The audacity of this person.
“Oh, oh dear, forgive me but does thou not own a phone yourself, or has distance also made you wait for calls and greetings even when you worry, excuse me but is it not often said that communication be a two-way street then why complain when I do not do my part? Is though not supposed to do the same to me.” I replied him, the right way of a lady no doubt.
“Oh, please spare me you complain and justification when even you madam knows the wrong you have committed.” He replied me.
“Excuse me, I sent you a message did I not, did you reply me on the same day or expert communicator? You are in the wrong too if you say I am in the wrong and that is my proof of justification, for if I am wrong so are you.” I replied him.
*HE LAUGHS*
“You have gotten good at this Aella.” He said to me.
“Oh, spare me your puffery Albert.” I replied him.
“How have you been though sorry I did not reply you earlier, sorry I did not check up on time, I am already facing exams over here, I finished my last paper today and I was like oh I have to call my sister and disturb you a bit.”  He said.
“About time.” I replied as he laughed.
“it’s been a while I heard your voice, how are things over there? Are you doing alright?.” He asked me again.
“Yes, we are all fine albert, I got back from school around an hour ago, I am even settled on bed and all, I think I will sleep or something, I just feel kind of off tonight.” I replied him.
“Oh, why the off part, did they do something at home?” he asked me.
“Oh, no, no its me not them, in fact it is nobody, it is just me getting lost in the way things are and my whole goals and ideals.” I replied him.
“Oh, I understand, have you not told dad and mom about it again?” he asked me.
“Albert, you know how they are, I am very sure they will stare at me with judge full eyes and hateful words would rain down a lot from their mouth so I can’t deal with that, I have a small relationship that I have kept, I don’t want it to be destroyed by them again, all because they don’t understand me.” I replied him.
“I understand but when you are in a bind wont you want to let them know how you feel..” he said as my sigh cuts him off.
“How I fell, no they don’t care about that anymore and you know that very well, they imposed different things on me for my good but I guess no matter how I explain to them they will not sleep nor slumber properly till they make me understand that they are doing the right thing and my opinion on the right thing they want to do for me matters not because I am immature and they know the best.” I replied him.
“I guess I understand where you are coming from, so they are still like that with you huh.” He said.
“You should know that they won’t change, I don’t really think my sobs will change their mind but I know very well that the evidence of my achievement will change their mind.” I said to him.
“Well, that’s true, back then before I left 7 months ago, they always even make it seem like you don’t know what is best for you and only they know.” He said to me.
“oh, that time that she got me an underwear and I said I don’t really like it, I would prefer something different but she read it the wrong way, she made a big deal of that thing then and honestly it really hurt, especially because it was something so private and in-between mother and daughter, why would she be showing my dad and you to ask for opinions, it really made me accept that they will not listen to me no matter how I try so I can only prove to them I guess.” I said.
“Yeah, I guess that’s the right thing to do, play their game and win at their so called game and then be the boss while they still think they are the boss and rulers of the game.” He said.
“Yeah, thanks bro, you support me some times but sometimes you just behave like a fish.” I said.
“Truly I know how I can be but its only because I know they really worry and care for you, it will move me to at least make you understand, if I pay deaf ears then will I not just be like them?” he said.
“Truly though, I understand what you mean but any who I will be okay.” I said to him, we did talk more and we later had to say bye. I was not really fixated on that part; I mean I have accepted to play their game and all but the highlight of my day well was that I told someone else about my problems and all.
I guess I am kind of excited for tomorrow, I can see the unity I have formed but my fair is, will it hold or is it all for the main time like my sparks that was suppose to be a healthy fire but now all I do is struggle to keep them burning. Sigh.