I know what he's doing, he's just running around the corner of what he's trying to tell me, like the weight is really unbearable like he has said, but since it's an option of getting things back on track, I guess I have to hear the real truth and then know the outcome of my decision.
“ The only way this can be resolved is by me letting go of the least control I have over time, things won't remain the same, it's either I live you to die or I put my well being in your hands to risk it all..... I know it might sound simple to you, but no, it's more than you can imagine.... I'm a prisoner, me becoming full part of you, letting go of all control makes you the person in danger, it's the same thing as me fully escaping prison, meaning that From now henceforth, the time keeper will be after you, everyone has his or her own time keeper in charge of the individual, it's like a personal demon that can't be defeated, the more you manipulate time, the stronger it gets, until it's ready to hold you hostage, swallowing you whole.... So this means that if we're to risk this, you'll always be on the run whenever you're to use this ability because you wouldn't be chased only by your demon, you'll also be on the run from my own demon because I am fully part of you......”
“ Wow..... That's sounds interesting, but I can't see what's to fear in that, what's the worst the whatever time keeper can do?. I can't see any reason why I should be scared of it.....”
I said, trying to make him realize that I am ready for this, all he had to do is put his trust in me and we can make all this right, I'm sure of it. “ I think this is all dumb, maybe I should just accept that my freedom is over and allow you to go your own way....” he said, not meeting my look, eyes staring forward, away from me.
“ Didn't you hear what I said?, I said that I agree to.....”
“ Shut up!.... Shut your dirty mouth you coward!.... You are so foolish and ignorant that you can't even get to understand what I am saying, you brain is just an empty shell, nothing in it, I regret getting seeked by you, I regret finding you in the first place, I wish I had stayed back in my oblivion with no hope at all than getting a slightest of them and it happens to come from an asshole like you!.... Do you even care about me?, Was you even listening to what I was saying?, Doing this is a one time regrettable decision that can never be changed, it can never be done right if the opportunity is wasted, I would seize to exist, I'll just puff out and you wouldn't even remember whether I once existed or not, I am the only one who has everything to lose, yet all you're thinking about is how, to change something you shouldn't tamper with, how foolish can you really be?, I did I ever come to fall into your path?....”
I was watching the old man in rogue, he couldn't hold it back anymore, throwing everything to my face, letting me know the level of my foolishness, he's right, all that was in my mind was how I can do this again, forgetting that his existence is in line, his existence is the debt to be paid and I'll get to forget that I ruined a god who wanted nothing but freedom from many years of torment he has been living, an unending punishment where no one seems to even know his true nature.
“ I'm sorry Chronos.... You're right, I just don't know, I can't understand your pain because I don't know it, you can criticize me all you want, but all I can promise you is that you won't regret this, I'll make sure that you doesn't disappear into thin air, I'll protect you with all I've got, I just want you to trust me this time.....”
Now I think I am beginning to understand the weight he's talking about, this means that I can hoard the ability to tamper with time, but can't possibly use it, like a hungry starved lion who hasn't eaten for weeks, and a lamb was thrown into its cage, but because of what's at risk, he'll better remain hungry than tamper with the lamb thrown into its cage.
This signifies that, if he lets go, I can get to live again, as well as him, he'll get to still enjoy the taste of freedom, but the moment I tamper with time, From the way he has been speaking, his time keeper might be too powerful and would snatch me the moment I leave the normal time zone.
He was looking me in the eyes, I can see pain written all over an old man's face, risking his existence just to enjoy a freedom he's not part of, just hovering around the earth, learning and enjoying how freedom can be. About to risk his existence for an incompetent me who doesn't know the value of the joy and light he seeks, just looking at my own problems from my own point of view without caring about his well being.
“ I think I'll do it, if I don't, then you'll die, but if I do, then I'll be at risk of getting lost forever and as well as putting you in the same danger as myself, you'll get to be imprisoned like me when caught by the time keeper, living in the punishment of time, living until what feels like everlasting..... I feel like I'm leading you through the path of doom, that's why I want you to make the decision by yourself without my opinion.... Are you ready to live again but in a tough miserable position or you're ready to just die and keep me safe, all I'll have to lose is the temporary freedom I've been getting so far?....”