My mind was in Fucking disarray, I can't focus, I couldn't focus, even when I try to get my mind past the memory, I just couldn't let it go, I Fucking knew that I haven't settled that score in my head, I Fucking knew it, Fucking knew that I never wanted to see her face again, shit.
Curiosity is to blame, I was just curious and curiosity took me there. She wasn't looking rich at all, despite running away with half of my Fucking money, it doesn't Fucking show around her, she looks leaner, not in a physical fitness standard, but like she was going through chaos, maybe that's the thing that is hunting me, the fact I still love her deep inside my heart, even though I am trying to silence that feeling, it's still there, she's my first love, and also my only love, seeing her suffering like that hurts me, yet she fucking deserves it, because that's what she Fucking bargained for when she decided to break me in pieces, living with children that was never fucking mine.
I was just thinking about this, never wanted to leave my bed, but the memory was making me really uncomfortable, there's more to life Jerome, never underestimate going out there and enjoying the feeling of nature.
My phone lit up, it was Ryan, his name was on my screen, shit, I am not ready for business talks right now, it's quite late and I really want to relax. “ What's up buddy....”, I greeted on the phone.
( “ Hey Man, I don't know where the fuck you're right now, but I want you to come to this venue I'll be sending you right now Man, I just Fucking tried to be you man and I am Fucking loving it....”) he disconnected the call, not giving me the chance to reject the offer. My phone lit up again, and it was a message from him, possibly the venue he was talking about. What does he mean that he was trying to be me?.
I have been ransacking my head, looking for a reason, one reasonable reason that would make me reject this offer, but I can't seem to find one, I can just tell him no, but I feel like I don't need to say no this time. Fuck it, my brain is low already with what I saw today, maybe going outside after all will help my situation.
On getting to the location, it was a park, a Fucking park for playing, why didn't I thought of this, possibly because my mind was too busy with something else. I messaged him that I was here already and told him where I would be waiting to meet him.
The sight was good, it was already 20:00 in the evening, yet everywhere was lively, people were still enjoying themselves, their nights, probably because tomorrow was weekend, they're possibly just going to stay in at home.
“ What's up Man..... Damn, is this how this feels?, I never knew I was missing this much buddy....”
He spoke casually just the way I wanted it tonight, not ready for any seriousness now. His woman was here with him, more like they was in a date, but they possibly wanted room for more, to add me to the fun, I guess he still doesn't understand how the world works, seems like I've got to teach him a few things.
You shouldn't invite friends to this kind of stuff when you're hanging out with your partner, I know he's just doing things he believe I would do for him, but I guess he just doesn't understand how my brain works now, I would never invite him to this if I was spending time with a partner, it's just like bleeding in front of a shark, anything can go wrong, misunderstanding especially.
The sight outside has really helped my mind to relax, but I wouldn't be joining them, he's supposed to spend this night alone with his partner, if I knew she was here, that would've been my reason to decline the offer, but till then.
“ Ryan, as much as I want to stay and....”
I was lost of words when my eyes caught someone, someone that I never expected to see here, I wanted to reject the offer, but I believe I just found myself a reason to stick around. “ You know what, go have fun guys, I'll get to you guys later.....” I said holding his shoulders before I let go, going past him, he's possibly looking at me right now, but I don't care, I'm looking at someone else.
“ Brian!....”
I called out to him, he turned around, saw me standing distance away, his face lighten up, seeing me walking towards him, he was holding something that looks like a plate which he seems to be throwing along with someone I seen from the spot I was in, he threw the plastic plate to the floor and ran towards me, jumping onto me.
Anyone would think that this boy just saw his father, but in other words, we're friends, he just saw his friend, and his friend being me is so happy to see him. “ I don't know how to say this buddy, but I missed you Man....” I hugged him tight into me, “ Me too, I missed you....”
I was still holding onto him, but the next face I saw took me by surprise, I looked at Brian, then looked at her, she was the one throwing the plastic plate with Brian, and now putting the two faces together, she's possibly his sister, the one I spoke with on the phone.
“ What.... What are you doing here.... I'm sorry, my bad, I wasn't expecting to see you here.....”
I said, can't seem to get my words straight, I pulled my hand forward for a handshake, last time I didn't get her name, but now she happens to be my New friend's sister.
“ I'm Jerome.... Jerome Hadley, it's nice to meet you again.”