Apple's Point of View
Fascinating was the only word I can describe right now. We have intrams today, an event in our school where sports teams can fight for a medallion. Now, we're watching a basketball game where our classmates were there.
We cheered for them of course but they're no match at all. We ended up going out of the gymnasium where the game was being held. We even see Renz and Mac also going out of the gymnasium.
When we go to the elevator together, I feel what I need to feel. Like I want him to notice me being there that I didn't feel when we got to see them. Alina spoke to them since I'm with them. Alina was our spokesperson since we don't talk that much.
After going out of the elevator, they talk for more while walking. They want to get the attendance as soon as possible to get home. I also want it so that I can go home so I got interested.
As soon as we enter the room, there's the attendance. We sign on it and leave the room. I got pretty bored and wanted to go home but our adviser would check on us later so even if we already signed in the attendance we can't leave the premises.
So we decided to play a game to waste time. I was really bored and I felt like life was boring. But I'd like this to feel more than a messy life. I don't want a messy life, being bored in your life means peace so I'd prefer this.
I don't want to have that nightmare anymore. It was so scary for me and I don't want to have that in reality.
"It was now your turn, Apple," They said. My brain was thinking something, that's why I didn't think of the game anymore. I lost the game and they bet something on me.
Our adviser came in after the bet and announced something. She announced that we would have a group project in her subject and she would get the list. There would be 7 groups with 6 members and we would be separated according to our alphabetical order.
There's a possibility that me and Renz would be a group since we're next to each other if that's the point. I feel nervous and excited about what our conversation would get. There's also groupings in PE which were in the same group.
I thought about the possibility of our first conversation with each other while my dad was driving to our home. After the announcement of our adviser, she dismissed us and that's why I'm going home.
"Dad, did you feel these things?" I said my thoughts out loud. I'm even shocked to hear myself.
"What did you feel, Apple?" Dad responded. So now I don't have a choice but to say what's going on.
"I have a crush, dad and I want to be close to him like talk to him and have conversation with him. I caught him staring at me whenever I got a chance to glance at him. He was so kind and dreamy, dad" I explained. He chuckled, different from what I expected.
"You're now hitting puberty, huh. I'm just like you when I was young, Apple. I always get nervous and want to talk to you, Mom. I was even younger than your age haha" He said. I smiled at him.
So he was the reason why I'm being like this. He passed his hopeless romantic side on to me. I laughed and felt relieved that I released this thought of me being delusional with someone. But does he feel it for every woman that he interacted with? I think not.
We talked about their love story on our way home. They have a beautiful story together, being there for a person who had suffered a lot and stayed. I wish I also had a love story like them.
"Uh, hi can I talk to you about the group. We're partners on PE, that's why" I said. It was night and the faking scenario was one of my things to do. It was so fun for me like there's action, romance and horror where I'm the main character.
"I'm about to spill you something, I don't really have a boyfriend and I just did that because Frederic seems to be a bad guy" I explained on the air.
I keep on acting like that and I even changed what I'm going to say because I think it's not the appropriate approach for him. I was getting more and more frustrated when I don't perfect it.
"It's so cringe, I should stop," I said to my brain. But my brain couldn't be controlled and it just makes more scenarios in my head.
I got out of my bed when I was being called. I ate silently, I was even confused when they were staring at me like it wasn't the usual me. I was already like this, but I know they weren't seeing this.
I get to be like this ever since I left that school and go to this school. I still talk but if not necessary, I wouldn't. I was even shocked that I was capable of doing it since looking back I would always talk and talk about nonsense things.
Maybe, I already hit my phase where I couldn't be bothered to please people anymore. Like if you don't want to talk to me, then I won't say anything anymore.
But I was thinking of the ways I could get to talk to Renz. That was also one of the thing I was mostly concerned of like, I might just embarrassed myself with that.
"You're very unusual today, Sister," Paul complains. "Like what?" I asked him. I was not usual, I just changed.
"Nevermind" He said without explaining. After that, I went inside my room and just worked on my assignment. I also think of him and the scenario that I should do tomorrow once it was our PE.
But since fate didn't want me to work on it, the teacher let us do the work individually and not by partner. That's why I didn't get the chance to talk to him and say what I wanted to say. I thought that maybe it's still not my time to get through to him.
Weeks passed and we needed to apply to state universities. I want to challenge myself and try to get the exam in a state university. I don't want to accept it once I pass since we have money to get me to my dream school.
It's just going to be a challenge for me because I really want to experience what they experience. Alina, Mina, Ayen and I would go next week on that state university to get the entrance exam and hopefully they passed.
"Did Renz already have his entrance exam?" I asked Danielle. He nodded in response in my question.
I have thoughts immediately. I want to talk to him, maybe to help me in my upcoming entrance exam. I'd already thought of the possible scenarios to talk to him. I'm really eager to talk to him about that.
We always caught ourselves staring at each other, glancing at each other but we really didn't talk about anything and just let time pass by. I was really confused by his act but I also think of it as something that I shouldn't think of really because it might be him looking at someone in front of me, that I didn't know.
We were going inside of the school when someone shouted my name. It was clearly me because they even shouted my surname. When I looked at it, I saw Jeca, Ayen and Marco. Ayen was even holding her baby.
I'm so surprised that I couldn't make a move. When I came to reality, I was mad going near them. What are they going to do now and why do they know where my whereabouts are? I stopped in front of them.
"What are you doing here?" I said angrily. I don't want to talk about them anymore. They changed my life and my perspective. I know that I should forgive them but I can't believe that they are going to be here.
"Can we talk?" Marco was the one who stated it. He was the one who carried the baby.
I was contemplating but as soon as I met Renz and his group was leaving the school, I already nodded. We were in the outside because it is allowed in this school but I tell them to wait for me up until my last class dismissed.