Sean Elijah Dela Fuente's P.O.V (Part 2) • March 12, 2015 (Thursday)
“Eli!”
I was interrupted from wearing my tuxedo when I heard my little sister's scream from my room's door. Selene walked inside and looked up to me. She pouted as she looked at my outfit.
“Where you going?” she asked. “Can I come with you?” I smiled before I shook my head at her. She pouted and just give me a kiss on my cheeks. “Bring me chocolates.”
“Sure,” I kissed her forehead before she left my room. I wonder what she wants. She always come to my room when she needs something.
I glanced at the full-length mirror in front of me. I smirk when I was satisfied at my look. I brush my hair up first before deciding to go out.
I saw Dad talking to someone on his phone. He just tapped my shoulder as he looked at me from head to toe.
“I'm going.” I muttered before I went out and used my car to get 'there'. I can't suppress my smile as I remember Rielle. It's her debut today and I am her last dance. I wanted to see her. She's already eighteen today.
I wanted to tell her that we're official. I'm sure she'll be happy. While I am enjoying the game I made. As long that she's with me, no one will own her.
I become possessive when it comes to her. I know I don't have feelings for her, maybe just attracted. I can't deny the fact that she's gorgeous. It so happened that I am being like this just because of a lady who's now turning eighteen.
I broke my promise to myself that I won't get attached to anyone. I know that it's risky, but I still indulge myself to her. I just want to try. I won't make any wrong choices, I guess. And I'm sure she won't leave me.
I saw her ascending the stairs as soon as her name was called. I was in awe while waiting for her. She's the epitome of beauty. So gorgeous. And as her escort, I am glad that I will be her last dance.
We're just enjoying the moment. I know she's happy. A smile was evident on her lips. We took the longest dance because she want to be with me. I'm that awesome.
I was about to guide her to our sit when my eyes focused on the woman I longed for. The woman I was waiting all my life. She was wearing fancy dress as a middle-age man was with her. I was stilled on my place as our eyes met.
My eyes gazed coldly at her while her eyes widened seeing me. I'm sure it was mom, and she's with her new man. I looked away and turned my head away from them. I guided Rielle to her sit first and told her that I will be outside.
As soon as I was at the balcony on the third floor, I gripped the wine glass I was holding until it breaks into pieces. I can feel my hands stings but I don't mind as I still focused my eyes somewhere.
There... My mom going home with her new guy. Great! Just great!
How.. how could she do this to us? Is that her new husband? She's with that man all this time while she abandoned us without reasons!
I can't.. I can't tell my dad about this! He will get hurt, I'm sure of that. I was about to leave when my eyes diverted to Rielle who was already smiling at me. I looked at her coldly.
She was hesitant to walk near me. She roamed her eyes around my whole face and caressed my cheeks. It ease my mood a little but not enough.
“What's wrong?” she asked. “You looked different.”
“What are you doing here?” I asked, my eyes pierced through her.
“I'm worried of you,” she mumbled while staring at me. It softens me with her soothing voice. And realization hits me as I stared at her.
How can I dragged her to my messy life? How could I play with her feelings? How the f*ck did I make her mine even if it's not?
She doesn't deserve this kind of treatment. I can't do this to her anymore. She's not a toy nor a piece of my game. D*mn you, Elijah! She's too kind to be with me. And I can't do anything about her feelings for me.
“Rielle,” I muttered while still staring at her deep blue eyes. “Let's stop this.”
As I observed her reaction, I saw her face paled and her eyes started to water. She bit her lips and expaled a sigh. She did that multiple times before she looked up to me.
“I'm already in love you with Elijah,” she uttered. “I can't stop this feelings anymore. Please...don't do this.”
I can't look straight at her. Her tears are falling down her cheeks. It pains me seeing her broken into pieces in front of me. And I am the reason for that. But I need to do that so she won't be with me anymore. So she won't be like my mother who will just leave.
“You broke our only condition,” I sighed, keeping my eyes on her. Coldly staring at her. I want her to feel that I don't want her to come back to me. “You're just a fling, Rielle.”
“E-elijah...” Her voice stuttered. I shook my head and was ready to leave her when she grabbed my arm. She locked me into a tight hug and cried on my chest. I can hear her sobs, her soft yet broken voice as she mumbles my name repeatedly. “P-please... Let m-me stay beside you. I want to be with you. F-forgive me..”
She looked at me and I looked away when I saw her eyes. She caressed my face and made me face her before she leaned forward for a kiss. My eyes widened as she deepened the kiss and I respond. F*ck! I can't resist her. But then I pushed her away making her sobs louder.
“Don't you f*cking show yourself to me. I don't want to see you.” I muttered coldly before leaving her, crying and broken.
It's the best for us. She won't get hurt anymore when she's with me. I will just see her from agar. All that matters is her feelings for me.
I waited secretly outside their room the nex day. I just want to see her. It's to reassure myself that she's doing fine. But no Rielle came.
it's been two weeks and their graduation is approaching. I didn't see her walking towards their room. I didn't see her anymore. No Rielle showed up. Even on her graduation, she didn't come back.
I tried to used my tracking skills but someone's stopping me. I can't find her. Weeks turned to months and Rielle is not on my reached anymore.
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•November 19, 2016 (Thursday)•
“Dude, stop this!” I heard Denver said and shoved the bottles away from me. I glared at him. But he just scoffed and called the waiter before paying the bill.
He grabbed and took me to his car. He's been doing this for months. I don't know why he's being like this. He's not even my friend. No one deserve to be treated like that.
But he's one of the few who stayed with me. The first time he saw me at the bar, he never treated me as someone who will felt left behind. And it was his birthday today, but here I am, being an assh*le again.
“You're wasted.” He shook his head as he maneuvered his car to my condo. I didn't feel going back there but since I don't have a choice, then so be it.
It doesn't feel home anymore. She's not with me. I lose her already.
A year have passed and I still can't find her. She's untrackable. I was worried to where she's staying right now. Her name is not enrolled in Clivette. She's not in her house anymore. And she deactivated her social media accounts.
I miss her already. Her comfort, her warmth, her kisses. Everything about her. She's always occupied my mind. Every little things that I saw reminds me of her.
It's my fault that she's not with me anymore. She did what I told her. I broke her heart. I rejected her. And I was a j*rk for doing that.
I regret everything I planned to get her. I lose on the game I personally made. The game I made to play with her. I was so confident that she won't leave me. But she still did.
And now, I was the seeker while she's the one hiding now.
I felt someone punched me that get me back from my reverie. I was already on the ground while carressing my jaw. I looked up and saw Denver standing up in front of me. We're already at my condo unit. Fudge! His punch hurts.
“What are you doing with your life, Dela Fuente? She won't like this if she will see you!” He shouted.
“Don't bring her up again, she's not with me anymore.” I still got up even with my vision being blurry.
“We'll find her. I will help you dude,” he uttered and help me got up. I shoved her away.
“I'm not worthy of her love, Denver.”
“Then prove to her. You were the one who pushed her away, then be the want to make her back to you!”
“I'm fine. I still need to focus about my mother.” I muttered which made Denver silent. He just sighed and sit beside me.
That's the real reason why I need to let go of Rielle. She's not my first priority. She will just get hurt when she's with me.
I am still afraid that if she will stay by my side, she'll also do what my mother did to my father. I am already comfortable being with her. I got attached to her. I was just protecting myself from hurt that she'll do. And it really happened. Rielle left too.
“She doesn't have any location. We can't track her either,” Denver muttered, pertaining to my mom. “The man she's with is from The Hawk too.”
The Hawk, an underground gang, who causes trouble in our city. They are founded by the elites. I still don't get it why they used their sons as successors especially that they're part of the national positions. They're troubles they brought gone wild and reached the lower parts of the country.
The Falcon is their counterpart. It's also an underground gang but with assigned positions. Everyone has their own role in the gang. They are against The Hawk. And as a member, I am the hacker and tracker of the group. We're consist of twelve members.
Denver told me to be with them. He knew my skills. He told me that his younger brother is the leader but since he's not yet matured, he was the one who take the responsibility. Rash Ferrer, who's the eldest of us, is also the 'acting leader'.
“You can multitask, dude!” Denver uttered. “If you really want to see her then make an effort. Don't waste your time being locked up in this lonely unit. Tsk.”
I shook my head, diverting the topic. “What's the mission?
“Hacked their security system and find the goons making troubles on the South-east part.” He shrugged. I just nodded and got my laptop.
“Don't overwork yourself, Elijah,” he reminded before standing up.
“Who are you, my mother?” I scoffed. He just chuckled while I did what he told me eventhough I'm a little tipsy.
Denver Velasquez, he's the messenger of The Falcon. He's good at his work as he also likes to gossips.
As I finished my work, I sent it to William Rivera, the recorder and navigator too. He's also the protector of secrets of the gang, opposite to Denver's position.
Rivera... I chuckled to myself as I already have a trace to where Rielle is, but I didn't use it. I can't just ask her 'brother' to where she is. William doesn't know I have a thing to his younger sister and I didn't meet him yet. I don't want to use him. I will find Rielle myself.