Heaven's Point of View
"You did good in the first semester, Heaven. You're our Dean's Lister since your GWA is 1.00" One of my classmates from Entrepreneurial Mindset.
I am now in my first year in college and I'm taking the Bachelor of Science in Entrepreneurship. This would work for me since I love the idea of being in a business field. This is also an opportunity to succeed in a short run if being realistic.
I don't see myself being a teacher, nurse, doctor or any other courses not other than business. I would like to be a CEO someday, running my company. Businesses are where the millionaires and billionaires are nowadays.
"Here comes our Dean's Lister! How come you're so smart!" Eli said. We're still best friends even if she's taking a different course than mine. She's taking Architecture which was also a good thing since she likes drawing.
"What are your plans now, Dean's Lister?" Lawrence said. I treat him like a friend now since he wouldn't be my rival in academics since he's pursuing Engineering.
"I wouldn't waste money just because I'm a Dean's Lister. I stopped taking work now so it must be hard for Alona to be a working student" I said. I stopped being the helper to that grocery store since Alona kept insisting that it would be a distraction for my studies.
But I'm still tutoring childrens. Since I need to somewhat help Alona to pay the bills. We somewhat survived and didn't ask our parents. I've heard that they went crazy and were being taken to the mental institute.
"Okay, I would treat you since you somewhat deserve it," Lawrence said. I shook my head. I don't want to owe something to someone again just because of the title. I mostly want and truly enjoy being in this field.
But he's Lawrence. He's annoying and would really insist on what he wants. So at the end we were at the coffee shop taking our sips that Lawrence had ordered. I somewhat enjoy being at their company.
"Are you pursuing Heaven now, Lawrence?" I heard Eli ask when I just got out of the bathroom. I hide behind the column and hear their conversation. I don't why but it interests me and I feel excitement just by thinking of it.
"No, she might reject me. She might feel uncomfortable and we know what happens to her so I think I might just be rejected" He responded from Eli. That makes me feel good, he was different from other men but I don't know why I feel good hearing those words.
Does it mean that I somehow love him but continue to shove it away? But I don't know the experience of loving someone. I just know it by words but I somehow believe that love doesn't exist by how my environment works.
But there's actually a chance that I love him. I loved him from the beginning but just wants to forget about it since I don't know the feeling of it.
"Pursue her still! So you don't assume anymore! You said that you've been crushing at her since you guys were in third grade!" Eli speaks. Wow so his feelings were somewhat longer since I feel like I've felt this when he hugged me one time when I was lashing out.
But if he has liked me since third grade, does that mean he didn't feel anything for Riza? I need some explanation so I need to talk to him right away. I started to leave the column that I've been hiding at and went near them. They became silent then I chuckled in my mind.
"Oh, I forgot I need to buy some material for architecture design that I'm going to do" Eli excused herself then left the coffee shop.
We were silent after that. I'm waiting for him to start since it kinda awkward for me and I feel awkward for him too.
"Uh, Heaven what would you do if someone confessed to you?" He asks. So I need to still pretend that I haven't heard their conversation earlier.
"Uh, I don't know," I said. I really don't know what I would do but it somehow feels so wrong. I feel like my subconscious was face palming herself right now.
"So you wouldn't harshly reject him and go far away from him?" He asks. I chuckled on what he said. So that's the idea of me once he confesses.
"No, why would I do that? He may have a chance to be with me" I said. I was really hoping that he would get the sign that I wanted him to confess to me.
He looks like he's tempting and having the urge but backing away. Doesn't he get the signs that I gave? What signs does he like for him to confess his feelings? But the thought that I would enter a relationship now, also made me back away. I'm also getting selfish for that. It was very hard.
"I like you!" He shouts so loudly that it makes me shocked. He was embarrassed after that and looked down.
"Would you wait for me?" I asked. He looks so surprised like that didn't cross his mind and he didn't really think about that.
"Yes, I would wait for you like when I was in third grade waiting for you to get the sign that I've liked you" He said. He was really a cutiepie. I feel like all my problems were gone when we had our little moment now.
But when I went into our apartment, I was bombarded by the problem. My parents were here and ruined our stuff incuding the newly bought television that we really saved up for. I push them away so they can't destroy stuffs anymore.
"How dare you! We saved our money for that! We sweat a lot just to buy our own television and yet your here ruining things!" I said loudly to them. I don't care if neighbours would find my voice so loud that it interrupts what they're doing. I'm really frustrated at them.
"I hate you!" My dad said a voice like a child while my mom wails in the corner and looks so scared by my voice. I pulled my hair in frustration. My tears were now escaping at my eyes and I don't know what to do anymore.
"Who sent you here?" I asked. It wouldn't be possible that they just sent themselves here since they've never done that. I just think about one person and I hope that he shows up.
They never respond and hide in the corner when I ask for it. They look so scared that my mom eventually cry harder. It was also the first time I saw my dad cry while hiding in that corner. They looks so pitiful.
"Show yourself! I know that you're watching this right now!" I said loudly at no one. I know that by now he was now going here since I know he hears us and watches us.
Someone open the door. I look at it immediately but it was just Alona who's now in shocked and she can't even comprehend how she feels. She look at me and to our parents who's still at the corner comforting themselves.
"What happened?" She asks so tired and exhausted. I know that she's been drained from both her school and work and she would go home seeing this, seeing the ruined things and our parents were here.
"Call the mental institute that they've been taken into" I just said and I can't explain it to her now.
So he won't show himself now. I would actually lose my sanity by how frustrating our life is now. Alona and I got the worst life possible. We accept that our life is like this and just fight to survive but up until when? Up until when do we really fight for our life more.
"They are on their way to take our parents now. But would they pay for it? Most likely to be possible. It's tiring now, Heaven" Alona said and just sat on the ground.
Our chair, drawers, television and all the things that they can destroyed was now destroyed. They were even the hard thing to buy since we really worked hard to get it so its really hard to look at it now.
"We're getting there, Alona. Just stay with me for a while and let's strive. We're getting near to success. Just hang on" I said and hugged her so tightly.
Wait for a while now to my loved ones. Just hang on for a while because I'm hanging on too at this life and at this rate. This would end, everything has an ending and I believe that we can fight for it and be happy at the end and I'm waiting for that to happen now.