Heaven's Point of View
"You're the brother of Antonio Ilagan?" I unbelievably tell Lawrence as I confront him now. Did he know it? If yes, why didn't he explain it to me? Why did he lie to me?
I knew it once when I bumped into Riza when the summer break just started. I would just pass her and don't want to care about her existence but she shows evidence.
"Did your boyfriend break-up with you?" She asks. I don't have time and won't waste time to share my feelings over my enemy so I plan to ignore her. I pass by her but she immediately stops me by using her hands.
"I don't want to waste my time on you so stop pestering me" I coldly utter while glare at her. She just smirks at that statement.
"Now you also experienced what I experienced. By the way, I have some shocking news that needs to be brought up, "she said. I sighed and raised my eyebrow, even if I don't want to hear that news my curiosity is still the one who's winning.
"Lawrence is the brother of Antonio Ilagan. And if you won't believe me, I have this paternity picture that states that Antonio's dad is the dad of Lawrence" She utters and shows me the picture that she has.
It was unbelievable yet somehow believable. That's why Lawrence was cold and break-up with me. He was the brother of the person who raped and murdered my sister. He was the brother of the person who makes my life more sufferable than it is.
"Yes, I'm his brother. And what now?" Lawrence coldly utters which sent a poison arrow in my heart. How come he didn't tell me this?
"Why don't you tell me, huh?" I said which sounded like a pledge. When does he know this? Does he know this before we even met or he just knows this recently? I hope he knows it just recently or I wouldn't forgive him for doing such cruelty to me.
"Even if I tell you that, what's the point? Wouldn't we end up like this? Even if I tell you that I'm his brother, we would still be like what we are right now so there's really no point in telling you that" He said.
He was right about that. We would still be what we are right now even if he told me but why do I still hope that he was somehow truthful to me. That he still can tell me that at least he was the one who's telling and not someone.
"You're right. Why do I even expect something from you? You're the brother of someone who would ruin innocent life because it is the payment of someone who's indebted to him. I hope we won't cross each other's path again and this would be the last time we would talk" I said and walked away from him.
I don't want to glance at him anymore. It hurts me that he would going to end up as my enemy. That he didn't make his promise, that somehow I trust him but he would end up betraying me.
I don't know why I'm so much hurt by the fact. I think that it is because of the way he talk to me, like the love that I assume really fades away. That I don't know who he was in entire time and he was just faking it.
I went to pay a visit to Alona, hurt and had a swolen eyes. I just cried on the entire trip to Alona's space. There's no more that I can do but cry, I wipe the tears when I'm near at her space because I don't want her to worry about me.
"Heaven! I missed you my sister" Alona said once I knocked to her door and she opened it up. I was immediately bombarded by her hugged and it was so soothing like she was my rest in this cruel world that I had.
"Why do you have swollen eyes? Does Lawrence hurt you? I'm going to punch that man for making you cry. Are you alright?" She worriedly utters. I was somehow glad that I still have her by my side. She didn't even know that we break-up and he was the brother of that man who ruined our life.
I wonder what would be her reaction once I told her that. She should somehow need to know what's happening because I don't want her to feel betrayal after. Like what I felt with Lawrence's confession and admittance.
"We break-up and he was the missing brother of that person who needs to be in jail" I admit. The silence was long after that and when I glance at her she had a speechless face like she couldn't form a sentence.
"How? What? That's so impossible" She stuttery utters. Even me, I didn't want to believe it and it's so impossible to have but somehow I just believe and accept it. It's hard to believe but its the fact.
"It's possible in this world that we're living" I simply said. She hugged me tightly after that, comforting me but I don't know why I didn't feel that I need to be sad anymore. I think it was because I thought that he didn't waste his tears for me so I shouldn't too.
"I'm fine, it's okay for me now" I said. She still hugs me and tell me what happened to her. A lot of things happened to her.
She was Dean's lister and there was a man who's pursuing her and that's her blockmate. She wants to let me meet that man. That man was also a Dean's lister and he was the one who's pursuing her to study hard.
"Did you eat, Heaven?" She asks me. I told her that I didn't, so she cooks for me. She was all smiles and I'm happy that she's happy with her surroundings right now. She was freed from the misery now and that's what I just aim for her.
"Can we also go to the mental institute where our parents are now admitted?" She asked me while we were eating.
"Is it near here because I won't waste my money to just see them?" I responded with a question. She nodded and told me that she seldomly pays a visit to them and they're doing fine and they asked for her forgiveness.
I am still didn't ready to met and forgive them. As long as Antonio was still living his best life and there's still no justice for Swan, I won't forgive them. They are the ones who's the reason why we had this insufferable life.
And I want them to live their life guilty and blame themselves for the things that have happened to them and to us. But I also want to see them so that Alona won't be sad and insist about that thing.
After we ate, we firstly went to a coffee shop to meet the guy who's pursuing Alona. He was tall and he looks gentle with how Alona looks at him and praised him while he left to get the order that he takes for us.
"How long would you accept Alona?" I coldly asked. I need to show him that I was not that nice to show him that I wasn't going to be easy on him. I wouldn't trust men nowadays and that's going to be for lifetime.
"I would accept her wholeheartedly even if she had a bitter life which she tackles with me. I would still accept her by that. And even if she doesn't want to accept her true self, I would be the one who would do that" He said.
"Prove it then. I don't believe in sugar coated words anymore and I hope you don't hurt my sister because if you hurt her you wouldn't even wake up tomorrow. I hope your words are also for a lifetime and not just because your pursuing her. Let's go now, Alona" I said and stood up not finishing the drink.
She followed me after and behaved. She would somehow think that I'm right and I'm just doing it for her. She wouldn't got the same experience that I have and I hope that. I want her to have a happy life and wouldn't get hurt because she somewhat trust a man to enter her life.
We were now at the mental institute and I'm now facing my mother and father who looks like begging even when they just saw us. But I'm just being bombarded by the memories, the memories wherein they abused us. They verbally downgrade us like we couldn't do anything and that's just because we are still young at that time.
I still loathe them even just by facing them right now. My heart was still fuming mad at the wound they open and I still hate them for once and for all. I stood up and didn't want to see their faces that looks like they are the victims and not us. It's not the time to forgive.