Seconds, minutes, hours, days and even weeks passed but there was no sign of Damon, he didn't even bother calling to see if I was fine or is it possible that I had being dumped without even realizing it.... I hope not.
Nevertheless, the frequent visits Xander made managed to cover the void Damon had indirectly created. Though Xander was giving me that attention I desperately sought from Damon it's just wasn't enough because it didn't come from the person I wanted. I do hate the fact that I was leading Xander on and had failed a lot of times to correct his misconception so he could move on with his life but the fear of being lonely again scared me.
My ache for Damon was growing rapidly and I was so obsessed with checking for recent messages, being on time to catch the news and even social media--- that one got me hooked on my phone.
I am currently at the edge of running mad as I constantly had my eyes on the window in case if Damon makes a surprise visit. It has being like that for three weeks now and yet no sign of him. I consoled myself saying that maybe he was too busy trying to get his name out of Rachel's murder case that's why he couldn't call but still it just wasn't enough.....
A slight glimpse of happiness shone on my face when my phone started vibrating in my hands, I quickly closed my eyes to say a word of prayer before opening my eyes to see the caller, the smile on my face fell into a frown when I saw that the call was coming from Xander.
"Hey" I said with a low voice, not the sweet kind.
Xander seemed to not have taken notice when he responded, "I am on my way to pick you up for your doctor's visit"
"Alright, I'll go get ready" I cut the call before he could say more, dragged my lazy feet to my room so I could change.
The doctor visit went great and I should commend Xander for sitting through the entire thing, he was even responsive when it came to being the representative of the baby.
I still can believe It has been an entire eight months straight with a lot of battles and struggles, in a month time I will be free and get my life back on track..... just a month left and it will all be over.
When Xander drove me back home and during our conversation in the car I tried my best to always ask about Damon but one way or another Xander would always twist the whole thing and return me back to the starting line, I just gave up since it was no use, why should I be the one to care about someone that doesn't even regard me one bit.
I am pained, really pained at the fact that Damon wasn't showing any concern towards me. It made me to feel like I had thrown myself so cheap to Damon that now he values me less, why do I have bad luck when it comes to relationships? All of my boyfriends had left me because of one useless reason or another, the worst excuse was that he couldn't love a short person, that particular break up had hit me so hard that it made me cry for years.
"Priscilla are you okay? You've been staring at the brochure for a long time now, do you have a place you want to visit?". Xander said referring to the travel brochure handed to me by a sales rep promoting her company's travel agency wt the front of the hospital.
"Mhm.... " I quickly looked through the brochure for any place that might interest me, there was absolutely none so I just shook my head. "Travelling isn't really my thing?"
"So what is your thing? Blogging?" Xander asked.
I shook my head again in response, "Nothing exactly.... I am yet to find out, but I do love to hang out with friends if that's a thing"
"Well.... If that's what you love doing then there is no need for me to criticize it" Xander made a turn to right before he parked the car at the main gate of my house. He escorted me inside where I hugged him to thank him for today.
The hug had prolonged for several seconds paving the way for a long awaited guest to walk in on us, I had just stepped back from the hug to realize Damon standing at the door which was a lot farther from the living room, he looked disappointed at me and I can understand, without uttering any word he left the bouquet of flowers on the table close to the door then silently took a step back. Xander had been oblivious to Damon's appearance and had been talking about something that I just can't say cause I wasn't listening.
I wanted to run after him but that would be impossible considering how I was. When Xander eventually left I quickly called Damon, it rang but went straight to voicemail. I wanted to explain to him everything that he thinks he saw but how am I going to do that if he won't even pick my call.
Damon has been on my mind for three weeks now, and now that he eventually came he didn't even spend any time with me because of how he saw me and Xander hugging and it sent a wrong message to him.
As if that wasn't enough Damon and I drew further apart when he blocked all access for me to get through to him. I only got to be happy when I got the news of Damon being relieved of the charges against him when I recent footage showed a man going into Rachel's room and brutally killing her in an instant, the police are currently on the case to catch this unknown murderer.
News of Damon's wedding spread everywhere and it was crystal clear Damon had chosen to move on. My only wish was to see him one last time and that day was today when everyone came to the hospital to offer moral support.... Why shouldn't they be here, the family's heir will finally be born.