Ynnah
I could hardly believe everything I learned about him. In all he went through he could only be with me is so unbelievable. He traded everything he had as an angel just for someone like me. I was deeply impressed by his dedication, but I could not help feeling upset. His wings were ripped because of me. Because of the forbidden love he has for me. He made so much sacrifice while I did nothing at all.
Then now he is facing a big trouble and that's because of me. It is all because of me, again.
"Francine," I suddenly came back to my senses as Eros spoke next to me.
We are here on the terrace of his room staring at the dark but starry sky. This is what I like at night, it relieves stress and relaxes every time I drink milk while just staring at the star-filled sky. My favorite feeling when I just stared at it while doing nothing.
"Yes?" I asked as I avert my gaze at him who is still staring at the sky with his famous dull gaze.
"Promise me, that no matter what happens you will just stay by my side. " I was stilled for a moment while looking at him.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused as my forehead creased.
"When the day comes that my twin and I will meet again, I want you to be just here by my side. Don't leave me. You are my only strength. Don't get lost. I may not be able to cope," he said meaningfully, even though I didn't understand what he wanted to say, I just nodded in response before smiling.
In all that he went through just to see and be with me, at least this is what I can do for him. I would not hesitate to do so.
I put my hand on his that was on his thigh and held it tightly causing him to turn his gaze at me.
"I promise." I sternly said with my assuring eyes and smile. "I will not leave you. We will deal with it together."
And for the second time, I saw his genuine smile.
A very beautiful genuine smile that comes from the most handsome Guardian Angel of mine.
My very own Guardian angel.
My Guardian Angel alone.
I don't know why despite being reprehensible and hot -headed like me, I was still very lucky because there was someone like him who love and taking care of me unconditionally. I am so lucky having him in my life. An angel who forsook everything just for me. A good angel who only does vigilance disobeys everyone just because of someone like me.
I don't know what good I did in my past life to have a man who will truly and wholeheartedly love me. And he was not just an ordinary man, but an angel. But despite that, I also blame myself for what happened. If it were not for me these things would not have happened to him. He will not be punished, he will not betray his own brother, he will not disobey the commandments and rules of the Dear Father. And even more so that he will not have his wings cut off and he will not be thrown here in my world, here in our human world.
He did not deserve such an event taking place in his life. It is just me. I am the head and tail of everything. If it weren't for his love for me it wouldn't have happened. No trouble would take place between the two of them of his twin.
I don't want to blame myself but I couldn't help it. Even turning the world upside down, I know I am the cause of everything.
And now, I no longer wonder why his twin wanted to kill me. I won't wonder why he's so mad at me even though I'm not doing anything wrong.
He feels anger and hatred towards me because of what happened to them with his twin. They become fallen, sinned and miserable because of me. They cast out from heaven because of me. It's so hard.
It's like I just wanted to disappear in a sudden. It was as if I regretted why I was still alive. I feel like I should have died already. But no, I promised him. Even if I want to be eaten by the earth because of all the misfortunes I have brought to him and his twin, it is not possible.
I wanted to fulfill my promise. I don't want to leave him on the air hanging because I know this is the only thing I can do to make all his sacrifices for me meaningful. I don't want to be a selfish bitch anymore. I will help him. And I will return the love that is due for him.
"I'm going to introduce you to my guest tomorrow," he said after the moment of silence.
I suddenly became interested.
"Really? Who?" I asked in excitement.
"Just wait, you'll see." He said then he put his arm around me and I nodded.
"Who is that? Tell me, you still know something suspenseful." I snapped.
"It's someone that I treasure the most," he said then kissed me on the top of my head.
"Is he your father?" I asked once again.
"My father is in the heaven," he answered sparingly which made my lips protruded.
"Then who is it?" I asked again but this time, he already stared at me with his bored look.
"You'll know him tomorrow," he answered nonchalantly as he lean his back on the backrest of the sofa here on the terrace while his head rested on mine.
"He? So he's a guy? Are you the same age with him? "I asked again and again.
I won't be surprised if he suddenly strangles me because I'm so stubborn.
"Nope," he answered not in the mood already.
"So he's young?" I asked again which made him remove his arm around my shoulder as he stood up.
"Stop asking, you'll find it tomorrow," he said and laid his hand in front of me, means I will hold it to get up and go inside the house. "Let's go inside, it's getting cold here outside. You might catch some cold."
I just took a heavy breath as I accepted his hand and get my ass up from the sofa with my pouted lips.
"Fine."
As if I have a choice, eh?