Could you believe that I could not bait an eyelid? It was a struggle to rest.
I kept on pacing up and down, doing a prayer walk. What will I tell Phillip depending on me to convince Lilian to give him a chance?
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Kate on the other hand wants her man back as before. She is depending on me to make things right.
I want Isaac on my side too. He left my house in pain. Why me? Why do both of these people believe in me to think I am the right person to contact?
I thought of talking to Isaac, but will he come to my house? I do not want to go to his house lest I'm tempted to stay overnight. Mr. Flesh cannot be trusted.
People in courtship need more carefulness so as not to defile their bodies. I wanted to keep myself pure till my wedding night. I believe that I can maintain the purity oath.
I also know that being a virgin is a rare thing these days. People taste before going to the altar, but those who believe or follow Christ must hold on and be disciplined to keep themselves pure.
I went to bed, closed my eyes, rested my head on the pillow got hold of another pillow, and placed it on my body as if I were hugging Isaac. I intended to catch sleep but the result was my tossing on the big bed and rolling.
I picked up my phone to place a call to Isaac but kept it down. I repeated the process up to thrice when Lilian gave me a call.
"I'm sorry girlfriend but I need to discuss it with you."
"Oh! You mean you've not been able to catch a nap?" I screamed.
"No not at all. Wait, do you mean that you have the same affliction?"
"What makes you think so?" I challenged. I didn't want to share my thoughts because she is part of the problem.
"You were able to pick up your phone without delay and grumbling. If it were before you will murmur and it will take a while. Moreover, your voice is sharp and clear as if you have not been sleeping but waiting for my call."
"Hmmm, you are damn right, baby girl. My heart is confused. My Isaac is not too happy with me. He has refused to call since yesterday. It's unlike him."
"Sorry, my girlfriend! I'm confused about Phillip". She blurted out, and her voice was laden with emotion.
" Share your thoughts, please. I'm all yours tonight." She chuckled.
"I love Phillip, his thoughts have occupied my heart. I tried to fight it, but the more my heart yearns for him and his touch. Wow, all the memories of our escapades, kept on running through my mind. My wish is for me to stay in his arms forever. Oh my God! I'm finished. This is too bad. What can I do to hate him?" She sobbed.
" Hate the father of your child? Hate the man you love? Hate the man who wants you and only you? Okay now, hate him very well. Do you hear me?
Kate is here to take his husband back now!"
"Oh oh! Good luck to her then. I think it will help me to forget about him." She declared sighing.
"Is that what you want? Is that what your child will want? The child will grow up without a proper home. Are you ready for this?
" What do you want me to do?"
"Accept Phillip and make him a faithful man. He is trying to change, you know!"
"Are you sure?"
"Well, I think so! Help him by staying with him."
"How about his fiancee?"
"He is not in love with her. He told me himself."
"God, I am in trouble. I want him, but my mind is fighting it."
"Follow your spirit. Do you have peace of mind whenever you think of the two of you together?"
"Yes, I have this joy and peace. But my mind tells me that he is a flirt and cannot stay with a lady."
"Okay do what you want to do. I do not have anything to say. After all, I will not be the one to live with you. I would not want to be blamed in the future. Choose for yourself and take responsibility." I quickly advised.
I recollected a case I handled years ago. The couple blamed the pastor of their church for making them marry. They had wanted to break up, after two years because they were always arguing.
But the pastor explained that he had a similar problem with his wife but today they are together and they hardly argue.
But theirs was not like that. Since then I told myself that one needs to be careful never to allow one's experience to be a yardstick for others. We are different and with different experiences.

"But I need your wisdom."
"You mean the wisdom of God? Please ask Him."