"Doctor Kahfa, what disease is Kania actually suffering from?"
"It's very hard for me to tell you this, Farhan."
"Just say it, Farhan won't tell Kania."
"Okay. I'm also confused about what Kania is suffering from. Yesterday Kania got brain cancer but strangely after I checked it wasn't brain cancer anymore but heart failure."
"What?!"
"I know it's tough, but that's the fact for now."
"Can Kania recover?"
"Every disease must have a chance to be cured. It's just that we also have to know what percentage of the chance to be cured. And Kania's chance to be cured is very small."
"Isn't there any other way, Doctor? Apart from giving medicine?"
"Yes, surgery. It's just that this hospital hasn't found a donor heart yet."
"Farhan is ready to donate Farhan's heart to Kania."
"No, Farhan, I won't be able to do the operation later."
"Farhan is okay, Mr. doctor, Farhan is sincere."
"If you donate your heart to Kania, you will lose your life."
Farhan was silent, then said, "Doctor, remember this carefully, when I die, please give my heart to Kania." Doctor Kahfa could only nod.
"How much do you think Kania will survive her illness?"
"I personally don't want and don't want to conclude how long Kania will last, that's all we leave to God."
Farhan nodded then permission to leave the hospital for a while. Maybe something important.
Kahfa deliberately didn't tell Mr. Ali, maybe Kahfa didn't want to mess up the meeting between Mr. Ali and his parents. Kahfa wanted to call Maira but she also hesitated, she finally left Kania alone in her room.
It had been an hour since Kania was left alone, her eyes began to slowly open, her head was very dizzy and her heart was beating very fast. Slowly releasing the breathing apparatus and IV that was attached to his hand, walked out of his room barefoot. Sneaking away from doctors as well as nurses. Kania could not stand the pain she was feeling this time, slowly leaving the hospital to a mosque not far from the hospital. Take ablution and perform the Asr prayer.
After finishing, Kania prayed for his recovery, because he knew that only the Most Merciful could heal him through the intermediary of a doctor. After she finished, Kania returned to the Koran which made her heart and body feel the pleasure that God had given her again, very peaceful. Slowly came out of the mosque and sat by the lake, one word came out of his mouth, "how is the lake?" Only that.
"I will pray here, I am fine. I am very healthy, God willing."
"Kana?"
"Maira?"
"What are you doing?" Maira also sat beside Kania.
"Sometimes there are times when someone feels down, right?"
"You're right and you can tell me too."
"Thank you, you are very kind, Maira. I can't tell you."
"Okay, I understand. But if you can't take it anymore you can tell me, I will always try to comfort you." Kana nodded.
"Maira, tell me about yourself and your life in America."
"Alexis and I are happily friends-"
"Not about Mr. Ali, just about you and your life or about your family."
"Happy enough, everything I want I will definitely get. The money problem means nothing to my family."
"So you are very happy?"
"Who says with money we will be happy is impossible, the proof is I am not like that. I even feel it has no meaning for my parents."
"Maybe your parents are very busy with their work, that's for you too," said Kania with a smile.
"Huh, let me explain in Indonesian, okay?" Kana could only nod.
"At first I thought so too, but at least it's just a little time for myself. Can't I? Sometimes I think that I'm not their biological child."
"Don't think like that, Maira, they just haven't realized yet."
"When will they wake up?"
"Time will answer all your questions, believe in Lord Maira, believe."
"Okay, I'll wait for the time to talk," said Maira and threw a stone into the lake.
"Be patient with patience you will get a very sweet fruit."
"Have you ever heard the story?"
"About what?"
"About a twin daughter, but unfortunately one of the twins died. And the other daughter grows up to be a beautiful girl with her headscarf."
"Who?"
"Guess who."
"Don't know and don't want to know," said Kania and laughed as did Maira.
"You're okay, right? A little pale," said Maira while looking at every inch of the corner of Kania's face.
"Of course, you?"
"That's it."
"So what? If you are sick, you better rest at home."
"Kania, you are too kind. I'm okay, btw have you eaten?"
"I'm not hungry."
"Who says people eat when they're just hungry? Eat to live, if you don't eat you'll die."
"Maira, can I ask you something?"
"Everything for you."
"Why can you forgive Mr. Ali for me? Even though I have also forgiven him for you."
"A person and I know him very well, just like you."
"Who? I mean don't confuse me," said Kania, patting her forehead.
"Someone said, love does not have to have enough to wish him happy we already love him very sincerely," said Maira while looking at Kania.
"Meaning? Hehe Nia's brain works slowly."
"Someone said, love doesn't have to have, it's enough to just pray for him to be happy we already love him very sincerely."
"Oh... He's so nice-"
"He also said that the highest level of loving is letting it go. that's why I have given up Alexis for you."
"Could it be with the meaning? Nia has been forgetting about the English dictionary lately."
"He also said, the highest level of love is to let it go. That's why I have forgiven Alexis for you," said Maira interpreting her English earlier.
"Hey is Farhan?" Kania asked, hoping it wasn't Farhan.
"That's right."
"Oh, I see. What plans do you have tomorrow?"
"Actually, this afternoon, Farhan and I wanted to have lunch together. But it didn't happen, because Farhan helped you," said Maira a little sarcastically.
"Uh, I'm sorry."
"Isn't that all you can do? Always a burden."
Jelbbbb, Kania could only smile in response to Maira's words.
"KANIA, YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT YOUR JOB COULD ONLY TROUBLE ALEXIS OR FARHAN."
"I don't want to bother them either but, tell me what should I do?"
"You'd better think for yourself. I'm tired when I see you always bother Alexis or bother Farhan," Maira said annoyed and left Kania sadly.
"Sorry Maira, sorry Mr. Ali, sorry Farhan," Kania whispered while continuing to smile, which was definitely a fake smile, a smile that became a mask behind every suffering.
…
I've been in Rania's room for two days. I purposely didn't tell Ummi that I was fine. I just said that I was advised to stay away from the crowd, that's all. Ummi doesn't have to worry about my condition getting weaker. Slowly walking while holding my head and chest area close to my heart, or indeed in front of my heart. Slowly took my diary and started writing.
Slowly out of the room, into the kitchen to cook food and eat it. Here I am, don't want to and won't want to bother anyone anymore. Be it Mr. Ali, Maira, Farhan, especially Ummi. Here I am, the new me with all the power I have. I can, and I'm sure of it.
Slowly leaving for campus by taxi. After arriving, immediately paid and went to Mr. Ali's room. I have something to talk about and it's serious. He started knocking on his door.
"Come in," he said still in his cold voice.
Slowly entered and sat in front of him, slightly bowed.
"What's wrong? And why are you looking down? There's a problem? Sorry that I didn't pay much attention to you, yesterday I was busy," he said as he slowly lifted my chin.
"Sir, this is money for Ummi's umrah, if Kania first leaves from you, please help Ummi to fulfill her dream of going to the holy land of Mecca."
"What nonsense is this? You'll be fine, calm down."
I nodded slowly.
"Kania, what happened to you? Why are you like this?" asked Mr. Ali as he approached me.
"Kania has given up, sir. Kania has been sincere, and Kania also wants to ask you."
"Enough! Enough with your bullshit! I don't like hearing it."
"That's the fact, Nia will die."
"Plaque!"
One slap landed fantastically on my right cheek, never before had I seen his eyes and his angry face as I saw him now.
"You should perform ablution and then make istighfar."
"Shouldn't you be the one doing it? Nia is still quite conscious."
"What happened?"
"There isn't any."
"Follow me to the hospital."
"One thing you should know, Nia does not want and will not want to go to the hospital again."
"What are you doing? I intend to heal you."
"And Nia doesn't want to get well."
"Well, it's up to you. You forced me to do this."
"Aaaa!! Let go, Mr. Ali, Nia doesn't want to be carried. No!! Aaa."
"You forced me to do this."
"No!! Okay, Nia is going to the hospital. But, put Nia down first, before everyone sees this."
"Okay."
Slowly the annoying lecturer lowered my body.
I still have very high self-esteem, it's easy to play with a cat, mistaken for a cat. Walk after him like a mother hen and chicks. Huaa, someone help me.
"Enter!"
Well this time I also have to obey the orders of this strange lecturer.
The car is slowly moving, then, wait! This is not a hospital but a boutique. So why the boutique? I told you didn't I? This lecturer is different from the others and may be rare or even antique.
"Sir? Why are we here?"
"I think you know why and why people come here."
I could only stare at him blankly, instead of answering he made the question even more complicated, plus he asked back. Isn't that a bit annoying?
"Well, you'll find out later. Come with me."
At least and it would be better if they were notified in advance, instead of telling themselves to wait.
"Okay, Mr. Muhamamd Ali Safar Alexis," I said and followed in his footsteps. Ahk, it's lazy if you have to walk and walk around this big boutique plus my immune system is still not healthy.
The lecturer suddenly stopped, or I wasn't too focused so I hit the back of his body.
"Ow!"
Right on my head. It's understandable that his body is like a pine tree haha ​​and I am not arrogant with this low height.
"That's why you use your eyes if you use the road."
I couldn't help but take a deep breath and then say, "Sir, that way is by foot," I said, smiling at the strange lecturer.
"I know."
One word, arrogant. That's the only word appropriate for this rare professor of an antique bin. And my head hurts even more.
"How? Beautiful, isn't it?" His hand pointed at the wedding dress which was very beautiful compared to the others. I can only nod, it feels like I can't speak anymore.
"That's for you." Short, clear and concise. Wow! Incredible, how can I have a future husband like Mr. Ali. Nightmares or sweet dreams? I don't know, but what I think about him now is, this lecturer can't be romantic at all.
"Why, thank you."
I just want him to realize, just give me a little love and I'll give him thousands of love. If he gave me a little attention, then I would never pay any attention to him.
"You don't like it? Or is the model lacking? Ata-"
"Sir, the wedding dress is very beautiful. If you feel that Nia is getting bored with you, that means it's true. Sir, Nia never wants luxury and expensive things from you. Just give Kania some trust and a little love, at least a little," I said. then left him, not without reason. I feel my head and my heart just getting stronger.