I've chased you several times in the hope that one day my two hands can again hold your slightly rough hand and talk about how we will get back. I ran because you were walking so fast and I was so far behind you. However, when I fell, you just looked at me with pitying eyes and couldn't do anything about it. Then everything went dark sugar. My hands can no longer reach you. You've gone too far. I myself by embroidering various feelings of loneliness. Embroider a lot of hope that one day you will come back and say a thousand words of apology. Unfortunately, in my real life, you were never present at all even a day when the thread in my lap was running low. For then, I let all my hopes and dreams evaporate and be buried as time goes by.
Kania woke up from her slumber gasping for air. His temples were filled with sweat. His pajamas were wet. He tried to digest what was going on and tried to remember his dream just now.
He glanced at the clock. It's four fifty in the morning. While calming down, Kania decided to take ablution and perform the dawn prayer. Hoping that he would calm down a bit.
After the prayer, Kania was still sitting on her prayer rug. He had perfectly remembered the dream that had blinded him like that.
"That dream again," Kania muttered.
In the last few days, although not every day, Kania often has the same dream. He wondered what his dream meant. In a dream, Kania meets her ex-husband again. He tried his best to catch up with the man. However, unfortunately Kania's efforts in her dream were in vain. Her ex-husband can no longer be pursued. The man had run so far.
Kania then looked back into the old photo album. Where her three children and her husband are still by her side. Their smiles grow on each other in the photo. Aditya who is the eldest child is sitting on Sabila's lap. While Salsa is in her father's lap.
Without realizing it, Kania smiled faintly for a moment after seeing the photos. Tears welled up in her eyes because she missed such a warm atmosphere so much. Unfortunately, now he had almost lost it all. Aditya decides to leave the house after his mother and father divorce. Now left Sabila and Salsa. However, Kania stupidly acted unfairly to Salsa. He was afraid that one day Salsa would leave him too.
***
At Salsa and Reyhan's place.
Reyhan was still very surprised at Salsa's sudden request. He tried to digest little by little what was really going on.
"Why all of a sudden like that? Has something bad happened?" Reyhan asked with a worried look on his face. He let his drink order sit in silence.
Sally could only nod. Actually he didn't want to tell her what was going on, but like it or not, Reyhan had to know. He didn't want this matter to get any more complicated.
"I just don't want my mom and twins to think we're related."
Hearing that, Reyhan almost slapped his forehead. "Just because of that?"
Sally nodded again.
Reyhan couldn't understand the way the Salsa family thought.
"Just because they think we're dating that's why you don't want to be with me anymore? Good grief?!" This time Reyhan really patted his forehead.
Salsa could only look down. He also felt very guilty about Reyhan. Even though all this time, it was Reyhan who often helped him whenever he was in trouble.
“Okay if that is the best solution. I don't mind," Reyhan finally said. He also didn't want to make Salsa even more sad and awry. But deep down, Reyhan felt a little sad. He could no longer be near Salsa for an indefinite period of time.
“Then, since this is our last meeting, I would like you to accompany me to finish this meal. Too bad it was bought and not eaten. How do you want it?” Reyhan looked at Salsa closely. The woman in front of him nodded.
The next two hours, they spent eating the food they had ordered and chatting about whatever came to their mind. Reyhan also did not ask further. He knew maybe Salsa didn't want to talk about it anymore. After their last meeting, Salsa said goodbye first. He said he had to go home soon and do his homework that had piled up.
Reyhan nodded and let Salsa go. He looked at her back and said to himself, "A strong woman."
Salsa decided to immediately return home. Although he was afraid that his mother would not want to receive a gift from him, there were still many tasks given to him by the lecturers that he had yet to do. Or if he is late in submitting assignments, he will be punished again by that annoying lecturer.
Arriving at the house, Salsa was surprised by something. Not only was the apron a gift given to him by his mother worn by his mother, but he found a lot of food served on the table. And for the first time too, Salsa found her mother smiling at her very sincerely.
"Are you home yet?" Kania asked Salsa.
Salsa, who was still clumsy with her mother's treatment, which had changed for the better, couldn't help but nod. He hesitantly approached the dining table.
"Mom has made your favorite food. Quickly change clothes and wash your hands. Sabila might be coming home late, so let's just eat first," said Kania who was still smiling very kindly to Salsa.
Salsa nodded and headed to her room to clean herself up before she rejoined the dining table.
"Salsa," Kania called which made Salsa stop and turn around.
"Yes mom?"
"Thanks for the gift. I like it," said Kania again with a smile.
Salsa glanced at the apron that her mother had worn and smiled. He gave a small nod in response to his mother's thanks and ran quickly into his room.
Salsa's heart at that time was really happy. He didn't expect such a miracle to happen today. Every time he finished praying, he always prayed. Praying for God to return her mother's former happiness. And miraculously, God granted it through the gift of the apron. Only this time, after the divorce of her mother and father, Salsa saw her mother smile very sincerely. It was as if her mother had found her happiness again after a long absence.
Not long, Salsa came out of the room and headed for the dining table. Kania has prepared many side dishes on the Salsa plate. There is fried chicken, stir-fried kale, and Salsa's favorite chili paste. Don't forget Kania also makes Salsa guava juice, Salsa's favorite.
The two of them ate voraciously while occasionally conversing. Although still a bit awkward, the two managed to enjoy the warm atmosphere.