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Maryam's POV
The next third day she heard the news of me getting married to another woman, she got angry,she thought I cheated her. Whenever I called, she won't pick up my calls. I got angry at mom and most especially at my self,I was not able to make the woman of my dream happy,the woman who always stood by me,the woman who always give me advice on what's right and wrong
That was why I came to your your house then,but got angry coz from your reaction I know you won't listen to me. I called my friend Hamza,we met at our usual spot and drank for a while before we go our separate ways. I still tried calling her line but instead she keep rejecting the call so I decide to visit her usual spot, where she and her friends usually hang out 
Upon reaching there,I saw her crying and her friends were consoling her. I got angry at the same time I hated my self for making her cried. I move closer to them and tried to talk to her but instead she disgraced me,she really disgrace me but I suck it in,I believe that I deserve what she did to me. I told her we needed to talk but she never listen,she wasn't ready to give me the slightest chance to explain my self to her
I was suppose to leave her that day due to the way she embarrassed me but I swallow my pride and with anger in me I dragged her out of the place,she protest but I never listen to her,if I had known I would have left her,I wouldn't have drag her out
When her protesting was getting much I carried her and placed her on my right shoulder,she hitted me and did so many things but I wasn't affected at all. All what was on my mind that day was to see her smile,for her to hear me out. I placed her into my car and drove off immediately
I really don't know how she knew,the next thing I heard was she asking me if I was drunk
_______///Years ago\\\_______
"Kareem are you drunk?"
"What! No I'm not " I tried to deny it
"You drank that thing again?! But you promised me! You promised me Kareem! You told me you won't drink again! Is that a lie? Is our relationship too a lie? Were you deceiving me all this while? You never loved me do you?"
"Is this how you want to repay me? With all the love I showed you, is this what you want to repay me with? I loved you Kareem, I really do,I put down my pride just to be with you,I decline so many guys offer just because of you Kareem, but instead what did you repay me with? Marriage! Marriage with another woman! Why? Why?!! Just why?!!! Because I was the one who asked you out? If you had never loved me why did you waste much time on me? Why Kareem?! " She bombarded me with so much question and I couldn't even answer her one out if the questions. 
"Answer me!!!" She scream while tears flow down her cheeks. I hate my self for making her cry. I promise to always make her happy and now? I was doing the opposite. Instead I never listen to her,I just keep driving to her favorite place,all what I was thinking that she would cool down once we reach there
"Stop this car right this moment " she said but still I never listen to her
"Kareem stop this damn car!!"
"Kareem I'm talking to you! Just stop this car. I hate you! I hate you!! I hate you!!!" She keeps hitting me but I didn't budge, I keep sucking in the pain
"Safeenah please listen to me,just calm down OK and hear me out?"
"Don't tell me to calm down! Don't tell me to fucking calm down! How can I calm down when you're a liar and a deceiver? Tell me how can I? "
"Just stop this car,I don't want to be in same car with you. I hate you... Stop this car" she said
Safeenah can you please listen to me?" I said turning my head to my right to take a look at her
All of a sudden, she shout out my name"Kareem look! Kareem!! Kareem!!" She shout
I turned and saw a car coming our way,I tried all my best not to crash with it but the next thing I heard was Safeenah calling out my name and everything went blank
*****
I opened my eyes slowly and saw my self on a bed,everywhere was just plain white "where am I? And why is drip connected to my hand? What's going on?" I thought for some seconds before it dawn on me
Me and Safeenah arguing...then a car...my car...it all crashed..shit! Safeenah where's she? I tried to stand up 
"Please Mr Kareem don't, you need to rest for a while" the doctor stopped me as he tried moving closer to me
"Where is she?! Where's Safeenah? Where's my fiancée?!" 
"Son?" Mom called my name as she rushed in and embrace me into a tight hug
"I'm glad you're safe" she muttered out of breath but all those wasn't getting into me. I need to see my love
"Hey! I was asking you a question! Where is my fiancé?!"
"Son please calm down...I'm sorry to say this but Safeenah is dead"
"What?! Who...who do you say was dead? Safeenah? My Safeenah?!"
"I'm sorry,we tried all our possible best to save her but it was her time already 'From God we came from and to Him we shall return back to' please take heart Mr Kareem" the doctor replied me
"No! No!! No No No!!!. ..Safeenah can't be dead,she promised me! We made a promise! Mom..Mom do you know that she promised that she won't ever leave me? Then what was all this that I'm hearing?!"
"Son you need to believe us she's dead! She's a strong girl but I think it was her time"
"No! No I can't believe you all,I need to see her! I need to confirm it My self,without seeing her, I won't ever believe that she's dead"
"But son-"
"No! I said I must see her! I want to see her NOW!!!"
I was taken to where she was and immediately my eyes came in contact with her face I fell all of a sudden, I can't believe what I'm seeing, we were together few hours ago,how could this happened? How?! Just how?
I move closer to her and called out her name numerous times but didn't get a respond from her,she was lying there peacefully, my heart was hurting, I my self was hurting, how could she leave me when she promised not to,I tried all my best to wake up but later realise that she's gone and she could never come back to me
I was so devastated,I don't know what else to do
"Kareem please don't do this to your self, don't hurt your self,she's gone,she's gone.. There's nothing you can do about it"
Yes she's right she's gone...and all because of who? Maryam... She left me because of her,she in this state because of her. Don't worry Safeenah I'll avenge for you, I'll make sure she goes through hell,I'll make sure she regret accepting this offer, I'll make sure of that I promise you
*****
"Mom I'm ready, I'll marry her"
"What? Kareem do you know what you're saying? Safeenah just died and you want to-"
"Mom safeenah is dead already,I have to move on"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Mom" I replied her smiling and she was happy but never did she knows that I have plans already. You just wait Mom, I'll make her life a living hell in my house, I'll make her regret the day she said yes to your proposal
__________///Present Day\\\_________
"Maryam believe me, I know it was so foolish of me to think that way,but I couldn't deny the fact that then I was madly in love with her,the reason for my actions was because I thought you're the reason we were not able to be together.
But when I married you, even though I bullied you,frustrated you and do so many mean things to you, you still choose to be good to me. I am stupid I know,I was stupid to think that to make your life miserable was the best thing to do but believe me Maryam please that was all in the past,I regretted my actions,I was still clinging to the past but now I realise you are my present and my future"
So all this happened? But Mom never tell me this part even Kareemah... Were they hiding something from me? The way they do talk about this Safeenah,she seems like a bad girl,even when we went for the fake honeymoon, Mama Faiza told me she never like her too but Kareem...the way she approach him and makes him like his parent more than he do...could she be-
"Maryam are you listening to me? " Kareem brought me out from my thought. Now he's already in front of me kneeling down already
He went through a lot, now I could see that all  what he did wasn't his fault, in fact it was totally my fault,if I hadn't say yes to Mom proposal they wouldn't have had a fight,may be they would have been happily married with Kids. I was to be blame for this
"Kareem please stand up" I told him softly but being the stubborn him,he remained on his spot
I sighed "Kareem I'm sorry, I'm really sorry,this is all my fault too,I shouldn't have said yes to Mom,if I hadn't all this wouldn't have happened..."
"You shouldn't apologize beautiful, I'm the one at fault,I only judge you without knowing the real you. I'm sorry please forgive me,forgive me and give me this one chance to prove to you that I'm now a changed person,I'm now a better person please Maryam...leave the Shabsuma and come back to me, please I promise I'll always make you happy,I won't ever let you down..  please"
"But-"
"Maryam show me that you've forgiven me by putting on this ring on your finger" he said bringing out my wedding ring. How much I missed this ring
But how can I? He loved two women which is not possible, even though he might have love me like he had said, he still love Safeenah whole heart fully,he can never forget his first love
I can't do this,I really can't