After that incident I begged Shane to forgive me in any possible way that I can but she just ignored me, my messages and my calls. I don’t know what to do for her to forgive me. Shane left me and went to America for her job. 
I asked her parents and they said that Shane told them that we are already over but she didn’t explain the reasons behind our break up. I don’t want to give up and I have no plans to give up on her at all. I know it’s my fault and I’m willing to accept her punishments but that’s not including breaking up with her.
I decided to chase her and went to America to talk to her and beg her. I am nervous of course because I know Shane will ignore me even if I went to where she is right now but I don't care at all. I went to their company and inquired about Shane’s work schedule. I learned that she has a photo shoot right now but I don’t know the exact details.
I tried to call her to inform her that I am here in America right now but it’s just a voice message from the line who answered me. I left a message and went back to the hotel that I’m staying at. Her photo shoot will start at noon so I decide to buy some flowers for her and reserve a restaurant so we can talk privately. Time flies and it’s already noon so I went to the place where she is.
The place and set was so amazing and had a vibes of intimacy on it. I went inside and there were so many people watching their shoots. A large banner caught my attention ‘Love No Boundaries’. My eyes slowly turned to the artist on the set. It was my girlfriend and her partner doing some intimate poses together as per the director’s order.
“They look good together,” the ladies in front of me said while giggling.
Shane was amazingly beautiful and seductive while her partner. I hate to admit but yeah they looked good together. Shane looks so happy while filming they’re so close and comfortable with each other. The woman that I’m being jealous of is the one with her right now. My heart aches so much seeing her so happy with someone else.
I waited a long time until the filming was over. I went to her dressing room first to wait for her and after an hour of waiting the door opened and I saw my beloved. She seems shocked after seeing me but then her expressions change easily.
“What are you doing here?” She said without looking at me and went straight to her wardrobe.
“Love, can we talk please. I am–” she interrupted me.
“Don’t ever call me love! I have nothing to do with you!” She shouted angrily.
“I’m sorry Shane, please! I know what I’ve done is unforgivable but please give me a chance. You are the only woman that I love. The things that happened between me and my secretary are just a mistake. I don’t love her at all please!”
“Roxy, please leave me alone! Don’t bother me anymore! You ruined my love for you! You ruined everything between us! I don’t want to see you anymore, just leave!”
Shane turned her back to me after saying what she felt. My tears keep falling down on my face as if they were racing. It hurt so much the person that I treasured the most, the woman that I love the most is now gone and chasing me away to her life. I slowly turn my back and walk out the door in tears.
After I left I heard Shane cry so loud inside the room. I rushed back and opened the door. I hugged her so tightly and kissed her and begged her for the last time but she hardly pushed me away. 
She didn’t want to say those hurtful words towards me but the pain that I caused her is so much for her heart to handle. A wonderful love that ends in an instant. The love that we thought could last forever end just like that.
That time I never noticed that there’s a media outside the door. When I rushed back to Shane’s room that time they took a picture of us and posted it online and brought it to the news. I went back to the Philippines after that day. I lose confidence that I can bring her back to my life. I lose hope that she will forgive me.
“Roxy! What the hell is this news about you and Shane!”
My mother shouted at me early in the morning after A night that I came back from America. I was so drunk last night the bottles of alcohol were scattered inside my room and the smell of cigarettes.
I got up on my bed and went to my mini fridge to get some water, “We broke up.”
“What! Why? Everything was alright just a week ago. What happened?”
“We are already over Mom, that’s it! Don’t ask any more please!”
“I need to know everything, Roxy! You guys are engaged already! What will happen to our business with her family if that’s what happened!”
I shouted at her, “Mom!! All your concerns are just about our business, what about how I feel! Do you care about my feelings! Do you care what I am feeling right now! You are so selfish!”
I walked out of my room and left my mother in anger. I don’t feel her concerns as a mother to me. I don’t feel her love at all. She’s so selfish it hurts me so much that my mother is like that. I bumped into my father when rushing outside my room.
“Roxy? Sweetie, what happened? Why are you crying? And why are you looking so horrible?”
“Dad..I–”
I cried in my father’s arms like a baby. I couldn’t hold back the pain that was pouring inside my heart right now and it’s killing me.
“Roxy, sweetie shh..stop crying and let’s talk about what's going on.”
My father brought me to his room and gave me a tissue to wipe my tears, “Sweetie, can you tell me what happened?”
I nodded and slowly told him what happened between me and Shane. I saw his pain expression and sadness for what’s happening to me right now. Dad hugged me and caressed my hair to comfort me.
“Roxy, give her time. Don’t press things right now and just wait for the right time to talk to her. I’m sure that you can get over this trial in your relationship right now. I’m here to support you. You admit your mistakes and you are facing the consequences right now. Rest your body and mind baby then talk to Shane again.”
“Dad, I doubt that she will forgive me. She already said that she doesn't want to see me anymore. She doesn't want me to be part of her life anymore.”
“It’s understandable that she said those words because you hurt her so much my child but don’t lose hope everything will be fine just wait for the right time to apologize again okay.”
I hugged my dad while sobbing. He’s so great my number one person in the world. Maybe he was right. I just need to give Shane some time and space for now.