I don’t want to work because of this heartache. I’m too lazy to do anything for now but I have no choice. I’m not that irresponsible person to let my emotions win over me. I went to our company with my dad. He wants to make sure that I can do my job well despite what's happening to me right now.
“Roxy, are you sure you are fine now?” Dad asked me while having his coffee inside my office.
“Daddy, don’t worry I won’t let my emotions be a hindrance to my work. There’s a lot to do here. I can handle everything, trust me.”
“I trust you, you know that sweetie,” dad smiled and told me that he was leaving to meet his friend.
I started my day positively. I need to focus for now and give Shane some space. A long hour passed and my secretary knocked at my office and talked to me.
“Miss Roxy, how are you now? Is everything okay? Has Miss Shane already talked to you?” She asked continously.
I looked at her and I saw that she’s really worried about me and my relationship with Shane, “Rhian, don’t worry everything will be fine soon. I give my girlfriend some space for now. I know that it’s my fault why she’s angry and broke up with me. That's why I am repenting for what I did.”
“I–I am so sorry for taking advantage too at that moment. Should I talk to her and explain everything? I wanted to help you, Miss Roxy.”
“No, it’s okay don’t do that. I can handle my problem.”
She thanked me and left. I sigh and rest on my swivel chair. My head hurts. I am missing Shane again. I wanted to see her but I restrained myself to contact her. But I think I’m dying by doing that. I miss her so much.
I looked at the television in front of me. I will check if there’s any news about her. I will be fine seeing her even just on television. I switch it on then looking for entertainment news or shows then suddenly a news caught my attention.
‘Breaking news one of the hottest supermodel now in America Miss Shane Sandoval is in a relationship now with her co-model Alexa Gray.’
My tears ran down to my face immediately watching Shane’s interview together with her new partner. They’re so sweet together, like a perfect couple of the century. I stand up but my legs are shaking and my body is trembling in anger. I'm lost now. I lost the woman that I love so dearly with all of my heart because of that one stupid mistake.
After seeing that news about Shane I drown myself in alcohol everyday after working allday like a beast. I don’t want to have any free time in my everyday life so that I will not think of her. But sadly after working all day in the long run while drowning myself in alcohol all I think about was her. I love her so much and I really miss her. 
My family always talked to me, especially my dad. He always checks on me if I am okay. I just answer them with lies. I don't want them to worry about me.
“Roxy, my child I know you are in so much pain after knowing that news about Shane but darling you can handle this I know you are strong. You need time to heal your heart and fix your broken heart and then you can love someone again,” dad said while hugging me.
“Dad, there’s only Shane in my heart. I’m afraid I can’t love another woman again. She’s the half of my life, the source of my happiness and strenght,” I said while sobbing.
My father didn’t say a word after that. He just keeps on comforting me till I fall asleep. After I fall asleep dad will clean my room fetching all the bottles of alcohol that are scattered on the floor inside my room.
While I am drowning myself in sadness I didn’t know that Shane and her new girlfriend already broke up in just one week. Shane just tested it out If she can forget about me by having a relationship with Alexa but then she realized that she still loves me and she can’t forget me. Shane decided to go back to the Philippines after her filming project to talk to me and fix our relationship.
One month passed without me and Shane seeing and communicating with each other. I slowly accepted that the girl I love is no longer mine now. She’s with someone else now and being happy together. I decided to write a letter to the very important person and to the woman that I love the most. 
I pour all of my feelings into that letter. I write what I wanted to say to her for the last time and move on with my life to another country. I wanted to go abroad to start a new life there and my parents agreed to my decisions.
“Roxy, darling, are you sure you wanted to leave us here?” Mom asked me while I was packing my stuff.
I stood up and hugged her so tightly, “Mommy, don't worry I will always call you and dad. We can always talk through video calls.
Dad knocked on the door and went inside my room and hugged both me and my mom, “We will miss you sweetie. Don’t forget us, okay. Always keep in touch.”
“Yes Dad, I will miss you both too. Mom, Dad, thank you so much for everything. Without you both I will not pass this crisis in my life. I love you so much. I said and hugged them both and kissed their cheeks.
My mom and I are already okay. After what happened to me being so depressed and helpless because of heartaches mom realized what’s more important to her and it was me, her one and only daughter. She apologized to me and she wants to recover our relationships. I was so happy that day I couldn't have asked for more. My family is there beside me when I need them the most. They help me to stand again and to move on with my life.