-XAVIER'S P.O.V-
I know wala na ako sa limitasyon but the thought na magkasama si Feather... at Rage makes me wanna kill Rage and see him cry in pain.
I know I did wrong but the anger inside me takes over. Ang sakit malaman na sa loob nang tatlong taon Feather was fooling around me.
I can hear Feather's sobbed habang nakatingin sa bintana. I can't help to look at her pero the moment na nakikita ko siya diko maipaliwanang ang sakit knowing na wala na ang Heather na inakala kung siya.
Alam kung hindi tamang maisip to but kahit isipin ko mang wala na si Heather I felt pain but I really think that this pain inside me wasn't enough what made my world entirely shattered is the fact na niloko ako ni Feather. Tila ba mas masakit isipin na niloko niya ko kompara sa katutuhanang wala na si Heather. And I don't know what to think anymore.
That explain na para bang nag-iba si Heather 3 years ago. I noticed it for the very first time since nagpaalam si Heather na magbabakasyon 3 years ago and I let her. When she's back I thought she just changed pero ipinagwalang bahala ko not knowing it was really a different person. It maybe hard to admit but I have love her the most that time.
I love her but im confused with whom I was really inlove and I just can't forgive her for what she did.
Pagdating na pagdating namin sa bahay ay hinugot ko siya. It was wrong for me to do that but everytime na nakikita ko siya naalala ko kung pano ako naging tanga sa loob nang tatlong taon.
"What was Rage doing in your school? Don't tell me now that alam ko na ang pangloloko mo you can freely flirt with him?!!" Diko mapigilang masigawan siya. I just can't stand the fact na magkasama sila while I was in debate with my self dahil sa panlolokong ginawa niya.
"No.. Xavier your wrong.. kasama niya si Luna and they were just..co..comforting me.." Nauutal na sabi niya. Knowing her for the past 3 years. I have witness how she was honest with me and I know kahit ngayon but the truth na since from the start it was just because of her lies and how she plotted everything I can't seem to have my self low down my pride because it is all I am left with.
"Comfort?" I asked with sarcasm in my tone.
"Hell!! With it!! A liar like you don't deserve a comfort.. just tell me na nakipaglandian ka sa kanya kasi tapos na ang panloloko mo!!" Kitang kita ko ang pagluha niya sa sinabi ko. I felt a spang of pain knowing na nag backfire lahat nang masasakit na sinabi ko sa kanya ang sakit ring makita syang nasasaktan but I can't hold my pride.
"No.. Xavier you.. are wrong.. ma.."
"What now?! You will bewitched me again with your lies? Tandaan mo to dika makakawala sa akin. You are mine and mine only! Pag-aari kita kaya itatak mo sa kukute na wala nang iba pang makakakuha sayo.. I will make sure na mapagbabayaran mo lahat nang nagawa mong kasalanan sa akin!" I know that I was beyond the limit but the anxiety inside me made me lost my trust to her and even to my self.
I stormed out of the mansion at iniwan siyang umiiyak. I need a drink and seeing her makes me remember everything.
Pagdating na pagdating ko sa bar luckily I saw Rage.
Agad ko siyang inambangan nang suntok kaya wala sa oras siyang napahiga sa sahig.
"Be near her again and I will not hesitate to kill you." Galit kong saad at pinagsusuntok siya nang makahuma siya ay ginantihan nya rin ako nang suntok hanggang sa ako narin ang napahiga dahil sa paggulong-gulong namin sa sahig.
Aambangan ko na sana siya nang suntok nang agad niyang itinutok ang baril niya sakin. This man don't really know how to fight with blood and sweat with me.
"Saktan mo siya Xavier and I will not hesitate na kunin siya. Mark my words!!" Napatawa lang ako sa sinabi niya how can this jerk be so confident. Tsk.
"You don't know a thing... and before you can do that... I'll have your heard first." Nanggagalaiti at paasik kung saad sa kanya.
"Tsk.. what does a man like you have to deserve someone like Feather?" Napatigil ako dahil sa sinabi niya. Alam na pala niya. Seeing how I was stopped for a second ay tinago niya ang baril niya at tumayo.
"Once nalaman ko na sinaktan mo siya.. You know already what I've been longing for."
I may not admit it but I was threatened by what he said.
-Feather's P.O.V-
Napapaluhod na umiiyak ako habang nakatanaw sa papalayong sasakyan ni Xavier.
"Oh my God! Fed? Ok kalang? What happened?" I saw Luna infront with her worried tone. Diko maatim na makapagsalita I just can't explain kung gano kasakit ang natanggap kung mga salita.
" What did Xavier do to you? At walang yang lalaki yun magpapakamatay siguro halos paliparin ang kotse niya.. naku-naku ang gulo na talaga nang mundo!" Alam kung maglalasing na naman si Xavier ngayon and I need to face and accept his anger dahil ako ang dahilan nang lahat nang iyon.
"I deserved this Luna... masaya akong nakasama siya for the past three years habang niloloko ko siya.. and now his in pain. I really deserved this."I can't stop my tears to stream down again.
"No... Feather magpakatatag ka.. Surely you did a mistake but it is just because out of your love to Heather and Xavier.. you made a promise na alam mong masasaktan ka sa huli.. Oo nasaktan mo si Xavier pero wag mong lahatin.. you may have an option that time pero alam kong naiipit kalang sa hiling ni Heather when shes on the verge of death." Alam kong kinocomfort lang ako ni Luna but she's wrong for the past 3 years narealize kung it was all because of my greed dahil mahal ko si Xavier.
"No.. Luna mas pinili kung patagalin ito nang tatlong taon.. and in the very first place I have my option na itigil ang lahat at magpakatotoo.. but my greed is preventing me... mas minahal ko si Xavier at natakot ako di dahil nagkasala ako but the fact na mawawala siya sa akin... It was my deepest sin.. now I have made him suffer." Napabuga lang ng hangin si Luna at niyakap ako at mas napaiyak pa ako sa balikat niya.
"Wag.. mong lahatin lahat Feather. Sige nagkasala ka pero kung lage kanalang magiging ganito.. pano na si Baby.. alam mong maaapektuhan siya." Pagpapaalala ni Luna sa akin.
"Alam na bato ni Xavier?" Pagpapatuloy niya.
"Hindi.. and I can't tell him now.." Mahinang nasabi ko kay Luna.
"It's your decision.. just think of the baby for now.. wag mong hahayaang may mangyari sa kanya." Tumango ako sa sinabi ni Luna sa akin. We bid our goodbyes after giving me her advice.
Nahapahawak ako sa sinapupunan ko.
"Im sorry baby for hurting your Daddy." And with that I cried again thinking about our undecided future.
-End of Chapter 4-