One week has passed, making Rena and Luna now able to adapt well to their new status. Rena, with the status of a new mother, sometimes can't believe what she is currently going through. Everything seemed ambiguous to her. However, it was also a very complex experience for her.
Sometimes new mothers are sad and happy too. She felt that she still couldn't make Luna comfortable and give the best for her daughter.
"I never thought that I would give birth to you. I'm still dreaming, My Luna. I'm sorry if I make a lot of mistakes later. I'm still very early when it comes to caring for you."
Rena was now sobbing a little and also tried to get her daughter to talk about her who still couldn't believe everything that was happening now.
To be honest, this relatively young woman, really feels that she has not been able to do the best for everything related to Luna. This made Rena cry a lot over trivial things.
For example, when she was wrong in holding Luna for the first time and made the baby cry so hard.
"Rena ... come on eat first!" Someone's voice was now ignored by Rena. She would rather not hear because she was too late in her thoughts which were not clear at all.
Lukman's mother, who had called Rena earlier, now looked around and when she entered the deeper room, her daughter-in-law who had been called earlier was silent and pensive while looking at her daughter who was fast asleep.
Instantly it made a big question in the mother-in-law's mind. What did Rena do so that she was so focused and didn't hear when called earlier?
"Rena ,,," Lukman's mother gently stroked Rena's arm. She wants to awaken Rena first. Meanwhile, Rena immediately turned around and found her mother-in-law who was now near her.
"Mom ..." Rena said while wiping her tears. She now immediately tried to be okay. not wanting to cause trouble with trivial matters like how she felt right now.
"You look chubby. Is that okay?" asked Lukman's mother with a soothing smile. It reached Rena's feelings. She knew now her mother-in-law was trying to cheer her up. Rena smiled sincerely. She could feel it.
"No matter, ma'am. Rena looks like i'm just feeling emotional, ma'am. I want to get rid of this feeling but honestly can't. I don't know why I want to cry and blame myself for not being able to be a good mother to Luna. Rena feels guilty.”
Lukman's mother breathed a sigh of relief. Now she knows what her son-in-law is going through. Since giving birth, Rena's behavior has been a bit strange. She often daydreams and also often sees her daughter-in-law feel uneasy when she is near Luna. So it turns out that everything is because of the ambiguous feelings that Rena is currently experiencing.
"It's okay Rena. Indeed, sometimes postpartum mothers will experience this. the feelings of a woman after giving birth will certainly be much different, and maybe you are surprised by that. or maybe something else, hm like…”
Rena, who had been paying attention earlier, was now waiting for the continuation of her mother-in-law's words. She was honestly also very curious as to why he could be this sensitive to her true feelings if as usual never like now.
“It's like experiencing the baby blues. Do you know it?" Lukman's mother asked Rena. Rena blinked and then shook her head.
"I've heard of it but don't know what it means."
Lukman's mother smiled. Before giving birth, Rena should have taken a lot of classes for postpartum women. However, her mother-in-law also knows that Rena is not only a wife but also a student.
Her time certainly takes up a lot and she is not able to attend classes like that. even though it is very important so that a new mother can understand her condition after having a child.
“Baby blues is what you are now. The feeling of a mother after giving birth is like a very up-and-down mood. Even in cases that are at a terrible stage, to the point of wanting to kill their baby. There are also mild cases. But these are just assumptions. Maybe I'm wrong. One of the things to heal is to always be accompanied and also open to all the things you feel. You want to tell me all the same things?”
Rena nodded. She smiled at her mother-in-law who understood this very well and made her feel more comfortable now.
"You know where it all came from, ma'am? How come Rena doesn't know at all huh?" Rena's question made her mother-in-law smile broadly. She was happy with Rena's question.
"I used to take part in postpartum classes as well as before giving birth, Rena, so it was as if we were taught there, what are the things that usually happen to women when their status changes to motherhood? What are the things that often become complaints and also often make new moms anxious? We learn everything there and at the same time with the solution.”
Ren nodded. She so wanted to take that class. but I'm afraid that Luna will not be taken care of by her and she will become a bad mother to her daughter.
"I want to pity Luna," muttered Rena with a pitiful face.
A very drastic change in mood. Previously Rena was normal but now she seems very sad.
"That's okay. You can come with me. Later, if you take Luna's class with me, you can also see Luna from afar. How? Or do you want it private? I'll talk to Lukman, he'll allow it."
Rena diverted her attention now. She looked at her mother-in-law again. But it's very clear in her heart, still unsure of all the things her mother-in-law said. She can not make a decision now.
"Later, Rena will discuss it with Lukman. For now, Rena is still confused," Rena replied, looking down. The child is even more different now. Lukman's mother feels that.
"Okay, darling. no problem. You don't feel uncomfortable if you want to ask me for anything, okay? I'm the same as you just changed your status, I'm very grateful for that. So don't ever think that you are bothering me with all these things. because I'm happy to have grandchildren, so it's only natural that I intervene right?"