May nodded. Again she hugged her husband tightly. I don't know what would have happened if Alvin had not become her current husband.
"Sorry."
Alvin nodded. For him, May's feelings were innate as a woman. Very sensitive and also very easy to measure yourself with the achievements of others.
But they can not take the risk of it. Eventually, it will attack their feelings as well.
"Now May has to believe in effort. Those of us who try well and continuously then God will give us good results. Don't think bad about God, because the reflection of the result is our prejudice against God. This I can say from you, May. But now you're sad, so I'm saying this now. So, you have to remember that, okay? Don't forget it again!" Alvin said while stroking May's hair gently.
May, who heard this, felt directly ridiculed. Yes, she said it but she forgot it. May became ashamed of God. She tried to pull herself together and apologized to God for not thinking straight earlier. Her emissions dominate and it is of course the result of bad thoughts.
"All right. I will always remember that. Thank you, Alvin, want to make me aware of this very fatal mistake," May said, smiling broadly.
This made Alvin smile and nod. They both remind each other. Nothing is perfect in this world. If everyone demanded that it would never be able to. Because humans are wrong places and also improve themselves. There would be things for them to do wrong, both small and big.
"Let's eat first! Later we will check for May's pregnancy program. Don't think too much about it, okay?"
"Ready honey..."
*
At Lukman's house
On the other hand, Rena and Lukman are now enjoying being the parents of a one-week-old baby. Luna began to often stay up late at night and when morning came before the child fell asleep.
The thing that overwhelmed the two new parents. Especially now that Rena seems so sleep-deprived. She also complained that it was very difficult to breastfeed directly because Rena had not adapted well.
"You can't give breast milk directly, Rena? I heard that direct breast milk would be much better than drinking it in a bottle or pumping it first."
Ren took a deep breath. "I'm trying too, but I'm not ready. Sometimes Luna is also sorry because she's impatient and her stomach is hungry. If I insist on always giving direct breast milk, then I will be in pain. So please help later honey! I'm still adapting. "
Lukman nodded. "I'm not forcing you, Rena. I'm just asking that. If you're not ready, I'll continue to support you. If you have anything now, don't forget to tell me about it, OK?"
Rena smiled slightly. She nodded.
"Look, Luna! Your father is very caring, isn't he? I can't be like this all the time. Later, the one who loves you will die again with your father."
"So now you don't love me?" Lukman's question was answered by Rena with a loose laugh. He is now very relieved to see that Reba is back in a good mood.
Lukman's mother indeed said that Rena had a bit of baby blues. That is a natural thing and not dangerous either for him or for Luna. It's just that it's a little difficult and it takes time for her to accept children and not always rely on her perceptions and feelings.
And that means saying many things, especially supporting Lukman.
"I'm so glad you can laugh out loud like this honey. In the past, when you were so different, I worried every day. I'm afraid you're going to do something with Luna. Because as far as I know, babies are very sensitive and also have very strong feelings for their mothers. But after a long time, we fought together, and you recovered. I'm happy Rena. I'm very happy about this."
Rena smiled broadly. She was also grateful for this. A difficult thing but they can get through well.
"I didn't expect it before either. But thanks to you, mother and all, I was able to get to this point."
Lukman hugs Rena who is currently breastfeeding Luna. Rena is not smooth in being a new mother. Luckily, Lukman's mother is ready to accompany and also help Rena no matter what she complains about. Rena is still sensitive until now. However, the intensity of her crying had lessened. Not as often as it used to be, and that was a nice improvement for his wife. Lukman saw that as a relief. Rena is now back to normal and not constantly sad like she used to be.
"You know what? I'm still not fully aware that you and I are already father and mother. I sometimes don't believe that Luna is our child. Luna is the child we gave birth to normally and also makeshift tools and you have to turn into an assistant. the midwife suddenly came for me. I feel... If I don't remember that, I'll always tell Luna that I'm her aunt. It's weird, isn't it?"
Lukman laughed. "That usually happens, Rena. Because you were surprised by the existence of Luna. Previously, she didn't fill our lives. We already knew about Her when she was pregnant and we already felt her presence and were also aware of it, but again, it wasn't tangible. Now everything has become visible. Then it will give a different taste."
"It seems so, I feel the same way. Because we are used to Luna being conceived, we are a little surprised by what is happening now."
Luna smiled in her husband's arms. Luna wasn't bothered at all. Sleep her soundly.
"You see that Luna looks just like you, sleeping with her. See! You don't wake up at all, even if you're nudged and there's a jolt, she's still sound asleep, isn't she?"
Lukman and Rena laughed. They see Luna and compare it all with themselves. The thing that always makes all parents happy is one of these things. Luna makes them more accepting and also more mature and supports each other.
"Yes, it seems. But her face is very similar to yours. She is beautiful," Lukman added.
Ren smiled again. She is happy now. And hopefully so will be the case. She hopes Luna's growth and development can become the bond between her and Lukman.
"We'll be like this until we're old, honey... until Luna grows up and we even have grandchildren."
Rena laughed and hugged Lukman even tighter.