Andrei P.O.V.
“Feeling well?” She just nodded at me. It's her 10th week in Cognitive Behavior Therapy and gladly it works "Do you want something to eat?,” I asked.
"I'm fine, I'm just sleepy" she yawned and made my thigh like a pillow.
"Then sleep" I caressed her head "I love you so much" then I kiss her on her cheeks.= gently.
"Thank you" I smiled bitterly.
'Still I can't win her back'.
Several times I tried to ask for her hand again but she refused.
"Can you, Andrei? I'm too tired for your tricky games, you can't fool me anymore. I don't love you anymore so don't insist on things that can't be done anymore" and that hits me.
I did too much damage to her. I hurt her so much. She hates me. No, she loathes me and I fvcking hate myself too.
I remembered last week she sang a song that really stuck in my mind that it's too late to apologize, it's too late…
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late… That’s the lyrics of the song she sang.
Am I really late? Am I not deserving of a second chance? Didn’t she love me anymore?
"Another day without your smile. Another day just passes by "
You are smiling, not for me, not for my family. Not for our family. You smiled for our baby, for your family. For tita Carmina, for her husband. For Jairo. For Ria and for Neil.
“But now I know how much it means. For you to stay right here with me. The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger. But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer "
No matter how many times you reject me, I am not going to give up. Never in my life. Even in extreme pain, the person you love and cherish repeatedly rejects you. I'll stay for the both of us including our next babies.
“I want to grow old with you. I want to die lying in your arms. I want to grow old with you. I want to be looking in your eyes. I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you"
Would you allow me to spend the rest of my life with you, wifey? Please say yes.
“A thousand miles between us now. It causes me to wonder how our love tonight remains so strong. It makes our risk right all along. The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger. But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer”
“I want to grow old with you. I want to die lying in your arms. I want to grow old with you.
I want to be looking in your eyes. I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do. I want to grow old with you"
“Things can come and go, I know but baby I believe something's burning strong between us
makes it clear to me"
Josh!
I thought, Josh is his man but it turns out that it was our baby. Our first unborn child was quickly taken back from us.
“I want to grow old with you. I want to die lying in your arms. I want to grow old with you. I want to be looking in your eyes. I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you"
I love you Eliana Bartolome Buenaventura… I love you Josh Andrew Bartolome Buenaventura and I love you Gabriel Elijah Bartolome Buenaventura… I can't wait to see you baby and be a happy family.
"Be patient with her, she's having a hard time for everything after all what happened to her"
"Yes doc, anything for my wife"
“Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit.” I said softly.
"I'm like wifey, when you're not in my life I'm dead. You're my life" my tears gradually dropped.
"Can we just rewrite our own love story eli? The better?" But somehow, this is God's Plan. I don't want to change God's plan for us, my dear woman. What God's plan is, I will accept it even if it hurts.
"Andrei awake" I flipped over in my lying position
"What?"
"Where is Eliana?" I looked around the house but there was no Eliana.
"She was just sleeping here earlier" I muttered.
Jairo said, "we're doomed".
We drove her while Neil followed me.
"not here either" I was depressed at what Neil said on the other line.
"What about the cemetery brother? baby josh?" my eyes widened at what Ria said. I immediately told Jairo, “In the cemetery” then turned off the call. It’s possible he went to Josh’s ashes.
"Wifey" she sat across from Josh's grave.
"Baby mommy misses you so much," she said, sobbing. I ran over to her and hugged her tightly.
"That's enough wifey, that's enough!" I buried her head in my chest.
"J-josh! I-i miss you so much, my son! My son Andrei!"
I caress her back "Our son Eli misses you too but life goes on. Do you think he likes what you're doing to yourself? Do you think he’s happy seeing her mom in a state like this?” she stiffened "Our son doesn't want to see you suffer wifey, so God took him right away because he has a plan. Please don't hurt yourself anymore, I'm hurt by the loss of our son but I'm even more hurt to see you like that." I kissed her eyes.
"T-the pain, it really hurts" full of resentment she said.
"Our son is in good hands. He's now an Angel, Eliana" she removed my hands from her face and leaned back on Josh's grave.
“B-baby, mommy misses you so much. I don’t even know how to start again without you baby, I really hope that you are with us right now”. She caressed her tummy “with Daddy Andrei”.
Daddy Andrei…
"Will you guide me baby? Will you guide us, Josh?" She smiled but there were tears in her eyes "If that's what you want baby, mommy will do it" she turned to me and took my hand "We will never forget you son. You're still our first baby, my First unborn child" she hugged me to my surprise.
"I will never leave your mommy, son" I looked into Eliana's eyes "I really love your mommy son, I hope she can forgive me one more chance and I will not waste that"
"I'm gonna spend my life with her and your brother baby" I kissed her forehead multiple times.
We all let her stay here with Josh's grave. Eliana told our son many more stories.
Like how she wanted to celebrate Josh's first birthday. Like how she wanted to travel with Josh. Like how she wanted to hear, see and touch our son that she would never be able to.
"Son, mommy is tired" we were all alarmed when Eliana said "Mommy is coming home, huh? Daddy, uncle and aunt are going home" we felt relieved on what she added "I love you son, promise. I'll take good care of your baby brother or sister" she caressed her 5 month old belly.
"Let's go?" On this day, we saw her smile.
"I'll pay you a visit next week son" . I supported her in the car.
"I want to sleep hubby, Wake me up when we're home okay?" I smiled, she's finally back. My kind wife and lovable too.
"Alright, sleep well" I kissed her directly on the lips. She smiled sweetly at me which further widened my smile.