Eliana P.O.V.
"Andrei" he was busy typing paperworks in the company.
"Yes? Do you want something? You want to go somewhere?" I smiled, that's how he was since I got discharged from the hospital "Eliana say something, I'm worried" I held his hand.
"Can we go to mom and dad as well as Josh?" I still had puppy eyes.
"Right now?"
"Hopefully, but if you don't want to, it's okay" I said sadly. I just really miss mom…
"Of course it's okay, Get up" he stood up and held out his hand.
"Thank you" I mouthed. He helped me go to our room "Get me some clothes, please" I begged "I'm having a hard time bending down" I pointed to my big belly. He laughed at what I said which made me frown, "I'm pregnant okay? So I'm having a hard time!" I said annoyedly. I would have just stood up when he stopped me.
"Chill, I'll take it. What do you want to dress?" he asked softly.
"Knee -length, I don't want to wear short" I mumbled. He was looking for a dress that I would like.
"This?" He lifted the cream -colored dress which he also took off immediately "don't do it".
I frowned, "That's all I'm going to wear" I insisted.
"Don't" he averted his eyes from me which made me even more surprised.
"What's your problem with that dress? I want that" I said annoyed.
"This dress?" She lifted the cream dress again "Mom gave you this gift, just in case you don't like it"
I arch my brow to him "And so?"
"I just don't want to show you those reminders of the past"
"I'm forgetting the past. I am totally healed from my Complex trauma" I insisted.
Andrei P.O.V.
"I just don't want to show you the reminders of the past" I'm scared. I really am.
"I have forgotten the past. I am totally healed from my Complex trauma" I gasped at its insistence.
§Flashback§
"Good job Eliana, You have passed ten weeks of Cognitive Behavior Therapy. Now, I declare that you are totally healed" the doctor happily announced.
I'm scared of what might happen. What if one day she wakes up and thinks of leaving me? Will she suddenly take revenge? Dmn! I can't handle that.
§End of Flashback§
"Hand me the dress," she commanded. I shook my head "don't repeat what I said Andrei" For the second time I shook my head "Why don't you let me wear that? That's what I want,oh gosh! Andrei"
"I'm scared," I exclaimed. She stumbled upon what I said "Maybe when you wear it, you'll remember the past. Our mistake. I don't want that to happen" my tears rolled down my cheeks.
"If you don't want me to remember the past, why did we live here again?" She pointed to our house "why are we still here?" I was stunned.
"I-it's our house, Eli"
"Right! This is our house so I won't forget what happened here" she shouted at me "I'm starting to move forward but you don't want"
"Because I'm scared"
"Are you afraid? Are you afraid of losing me?" I nodded. "I won't lose you" she smiled "but if you're like that and you don't want to lose the past, You'll totally lose me" I hugged her tightly.
"Eli, don't love me I love you I don't want to lose you please" I begged.
"Then, let me do what I want"
I kissed her whole face "Yes do whatever you want, just don't ever leave me, Eli" I supported her on the bed and laid her down to rest first "Just rest for a while" I added.
I would have stood up when she pulled me. She hugged me tightly "I won't leave you Andrei, my husband" her voice cracked "I won't sacrifice my life if I let you leave me"
"Thank you wifey, I love you so much" .
"Are you done wifey?"
"Yes" I kiss her forehead, which makes her smile sweetly.
"Hi mom and dad" she even caressed the grave of her parents "Sorry mom dad, just now I visited again.. Too much has happened in the past months."
"Well, see? I'm pregnant" she happily announced. "For the second time" she caresses her tummy "It's only been a month mom dad and I can see my little angel." her eyes were shining "Please tell Josh that his daddy and I love him. I miss him." Eliana told many more stories to mom and dad when at four o'clock they invited her to come home.
"Andrei, can we go to mom and dad right now?" she said without looking at me. She’s pertaining my parents.
"In Antipolo?" she nodded "why?" I asked.
"Well, it's been a week since we saw them so I think it's time to visit them," she smiled sweetly.
"thank you"
"Thank you for what?" she asked.
"Thank you for accepting me again and again."
"I love you no matter what you are.. And I will still accept you, not because you are the father of our baby but because I love you so much" I kissed her hands multiple times.
"Andrei son, Eliana" mom was surprised to see us.
"We're here,mom" smiling Eliana said "Andrei wouldn't have wanted to go through here, if I hadn't forced him"
"I understand ija, we'll be there inside and you'll be blown away
"
"We're from mom, we've been here before"
Mom got teary eyed "Thank you ija".
"No worries mom" she said and gently stroked her stomach.
"Are you going to eat here? I'll cook your favorite Eliana" Mom said. I was shocked when suddenly Eliana jumped.
"Fck! Stop jumping" my voice rose. I lowered my gaze to her stomach. Doesn’t she think?
"u-uh s-sorry" I sat her on the sofa and went out first.
"D-mn!" I was annoyed and I let myself kick the weeds in our garden.
"Son" I looked at dad.
"Dad, I don't want to lose a child," I said tearfully.
"Eliana also doesn't want to lose a child. With you two. She is even more hurt by the loss of my grandson Josh. Understand Eliana son" he patted my shoulder.
"I understand her dad, I always want to. But I'm scared! I'm scared, I can't do what I did to her before. I don't want dad anymore"
"you can't do that to her, you know what's best for both of you"
I smiled. "Thanks dad"
"You're always welcome son. We're just here with your mom" hugs don't do, but fist bumps do.
"Andrei," I heard Eliana say. I ignored her. I am mad at myself.
"I'll leave you first so you can talk" said dad
"Andrei, talk to me," Eli promised seriously “Andrei!” He recognized the call but I still didn’t pay attention to it "So you don't want to ignore me? Then fine! I'll reconcile with my brother"
"You're staying with me, Eliana" I seriously promised.
"No, you're not talking to me are you?"
"I'm calming myself down! I don't want you to raise your voice or do what I did to you before. I don't want to repeat it Eliana" I insisted.
Her face became gentle at my insistence "Look! Andrei--"
"I don't want that to happen again Eliana, maybe when it happens again you will leave me" I said full of resentment.
"I trust you" she said softly "I know you won't hurt me"
"I don't trust myself" D-mn!
"Then, Trust me" she hugged me
"I trust you" I caressed her hair "I love you" I kissed her lips. The night went well..
"Eli, come on you have a check up today" she has a weekly check up now because it's only a few weeks and she's going to give birth.
"I'm too lazy to walk" she muttered.
"for our baby" I even let her go to the doctor.
"You're on time" the doctor said happily.
"I agree doc hehe"
"You're gaining weight again Eliana" said the doctor to weigh it "From now on, you need to take a walk, you can't lie down even if you're overweight"
"And eat healthy foods most at the time"
"Your baby fetal heart rate is Normal 130 heart rate per minute, There's nothing to worry"
"Do you want to know the gender of your baby?" We both shook our heads.
"It's just our bestfriend doc, she's actually going to take care of our baby shower" Eli said happily.
"Okay, Then I'll talk to her just through the phone" I called Ria and handed the phone to the doctor.
He left the clinic first …
"Andrei" she looked faintly at me.
"Hm? Yes?" I lowered my head to his shoulder.
"u-uh! what gender do you want for our baby?"
"Anything," I replied.
"Don't you want a boy? Usually because first daddies want a baby boy, because they have a junior" I put my face close to his stomach and kissed her repeatedly.
“I would” I smiled “But what God will give me I will wholeheartedly accept that.” Tearful tears looked at me. I wiped her tears "It's my own flesh and blood. No matter who she is, I will love and still love her".
"Thank you" she mouthed
"I love you" I kissed her forehead. She just returned it with a sweet smile. Will she still not accept me again as his husband?