Ness sighed heavily, for her, she had been doing well with everything in her life. But somehow lately, she began to realize that she was not who she thought she was.
The life he thought was going well. Apparently it didn't turn out the way he thought it would. Reality doesn't work as well as one would like it to.
And Ness now realized and agreed with that. Including how he should deal with his marriage to Ririka. He who had previously thought of letting Ririka go somehow thought otherwise. He felt that he should not let her go. He felt responsible especially when the accident happened to Ririka. And made his wife feel so desperate especially, when the woman who had the status of his wife lost her sister in the accident.
It all started with compassion for his wife's misery. But somehow it slowly started to creep into other directions.
Ririka didn't just suffer when the accident happened. But she also almost lost herself.
Ness truly regretted how badly he had acted all this time. It seemed like all she thought about when living her life was herself. There was no one else, which is why Ririka was almost never seen in his sight. But Ness now realized that Ririka was actually precious to him. And he didn't want to let her go.
Ever since learning that Ririka had been in a relationship with another man. Who he seemed to be pretty sure was the person he had met before. Making the feelings in his heart become more and more uneasy. He felt a sense of betrayal even though he shouldn't call it that.
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"What are you crying about to look like that?" Ness found the crying Ririka hiding in a corner of her personal library.
Don't expect her to give him an answer. Because Ririka seemed to want to leave as soon as she was caught crying.
"If you have something to say then say it. I won't mind listening to you," Ness said before Ririka actually left the library.
Ririka did not seem to move from her spot. I don't know if she was really listening to Ness this time or something else like that.
"It's useless talking to you. The only thing I'm curious about is why you're the one who suddenly became so concerned about cuckoo. That weird attitude of yours, it's definitely bothering me."
"Do I look like that to you?" asked Ness incredulously. It wasn't that she was incredulous at her own change in demeanor, but rather a little surprised that her wife was still willing to respond to her and not just walk away.
"Do I look like I'm messing with you when I say this?" challenged Ririka who looked like she didn't want to engage her husband.
Ness was a little provoked to get such a response from Ririka. "I don't know what to call it. I don't even mind if you end up not caring about my actions. This feels a little confusing to me."
Ririka's brow furrowed. "I should be the one to tell you that. That attitude of yours turning into attention is bothering me. Are you doing that just to get my attention or something like that? I don't know exactly what you're thinking about. But remember, in the end, the two of us will get divorced." Ririka, whose emotions were a little unstable, couldn't stop her mouth from letting out words that felt burdensome in her heart.
Despite receiving unpleasant words from his wife. Ness did not argue at all, he looked so relaxed despite trying hard to understand his wife from inside his mind.
"If I told you that I had a relationship with another man. Would we get divorced so soon?" Already overcome with emotion, Ririka seemed to continue to speak the words she seemed to be keeping close to her heart.
Hearing Ririka talk about something that bothered her so much. Ness tried to restrain herself and chose to listen to what would happen if Ririka revealed her heart.
"I prefer to listen to you. So just tell me everything that makes your heart feel heavy. Because I also have to determine how our relationship will continue or end," Ness said, giving his wife a chance to express the feelings that were weighing on her heart. She knew that Ririka was under emotional stress and unstable, so she took this opportunity to listen to her wife.
Ririka immediately revealed everything in her heart. "I cheated on you, and I had a relationship with the doctor who treated me at the hospital after the accident. Where you, as an irresponsible man, didn't care about me when I should have needed you. Just so you know, I almost thought about ending my life after the accident took my sister's life. And you despite having the status of my husband, you really didn't show any concern for me at all. And the man who works as a doctor who took care of me there, he was the only person who encouraged me after I almost ended my own life. You... damn ...." Ririka could no longer hold back her tears after that, curse words and complaints mixed together just spilled out. The long-kept secret was finally revealed.