Upon getting home and packing inside the garage, I have asked her to stop with the details of the conversation until we reach the building, I wanted to accept and listen to the details of what she's trying to say with an open mind and heart, so driving while she's speaking will divide my attention.
The moment I packed my vehicle, I got my hands out of the staring, resting my back on the seat while she still sat silent right by my side. What would Dad think when he gets to Kno that I am now in speaking terms with Oakley again, I know that after this conversation, the hostility between us is going to disappear into thin air, so I guess I will have to listen to a good reason for making that decision and confirmation.
“ I know you believe that I might've been stalking you, seeing you at that water park, yes.... I saw you, as well as becoming a new tenant in this building, and on top of it, now a student of the same school you changed into, yes..... I've been stalking you, but afraid to speak to you because of rejection. You already believe me to be a bad person, so what else should I be scared of than just letting everything out, approaching you for forgiveness, even if rejected, I will never stop until I get the forgiveness I don't actually deserve......”
I looked into her face again, seeing exactly the same young Oakley I knew, the young girl who speaks like she was the carbon copy of my mind, as if she was the definition of my mind in person, a forgiveness she doesn't deserve, I like that.
“ There's nothing to point my fingers to and say it's because of this that I messed up, no. All that was on purpose, something I thought through, a decision made at the expense of your emotions..... I'm really sorry Ivan, I really am....”
I don't actually care about the tears, maybe I actually do, but I'm just not showing it, I just remained stoic, eyes on her, watching the girl in my heart plead for mercy. It took her three years to do this, on the first Year, I was the one in misery while she was having fun, on the second year, fun has already become part of her life and now she doesn't find it special or exciting anymore, while in that process, I was already torturing myself, working on myself, building muscle.
Now on the third year, I have succeeded in upgrading myself, becoming a guy others want to emulate, looking good with an amazing and attracting physique, but for her, it's the opposite, she now missed the feelings of true care, true love, being cherished and adored, she missed all that, now believe that she would come back to where she threw them out and still find it there, pathetic.
“ It's alright, you can now live your life in peace, I have accepted your apology, I no longer have any grudge against you, do what you want, live your life and enjoy every moment of it....”
I encouraged her before getting myself out of the vehicle, she did the same from the other door, probably not waiting for me to come open them up for her. “ I don't know whether I should hold this back or ask, but I wouldn't know if I decide to not ask....”
She said, not speaking about what she actually wanted to say, like she just wanted me to show her curiosity first, I can tell with the look in her eyes. When she understood that I wasn't going to speak, other than just staring at her blankly, she decided to speak again.
“ I guess it's best I hold it back in, maybe you wouldn't react well to it the way I might've presumed.....”
Nodding her head slightly as she speaks, she headed for the back door that allows you into the building from the garage route. Yeah, I was curious, I certainly was, but by doing exactly what she wanted, that's no different than giving her back the powers she once possess, my curiousness. I wouldn't say that I knew what she had in mind, but all I just have to say is that, it definitely has something to do with our previous relationship, at least I feel that way.
Heading in through the door she had went through and into the building, I saw Abigail's eyes were staring right that direction, as if she was hoping that someone in particular was going to step out from there.
Taken aback by my sighting, she came by herself, this time I wasn't the one that asked her to come over. Looking behind her to see whether any of her colleagues were there staring, there was none, as we waited for the elevator to be available. There are two elevators here, Oakley might've already gone upstairs with one, so the other one beside where Abigail took me too is definitely the one that should be available.
Stepping inside, she was still peeping outside, waiting for the elevator to close before doing anything. Immediately the elevator was shut close, her attention turned around towards me. “ Is that actually what I am thinking that just happened?....”
“ I'm not actually inside your filthy mind Aby..... But whatever it was you're thinking, it's actually true....”
I said, giving her a seductive look, hands traveling to her left cheek, seeing the tension coming out as a result of my touch. What I'm trying to do here is the top level of dark psychology, where you did agree with exactly what the opposite person said, but your actions will confuse her, making her doubt herself whether you did understand what she just said, can only be used towards the opposite gender or to the same gender depending on the action.
She's definitely thinking that I was with their new tenant, I agreed with her on that, but watching me touching her again and trying to seduce her as if there's nothing to fear now makes her doubt herself in confusion, whether I truly understood what she meant by her words.