It was as if the time just slowed, and I am watching the scene in a slow motion, I can see myself running towards him, as well as fixing my eyes on his as he was slowly falling backwards, all I wanted was to reach him, to grab him with my stretched arm as I ran towards him, but it was all impossible, I can never make the run, we were few paces apart it right now, it looks to me like I just lost him, I believe all it took was a second, but for me, it was almost a minute, watching him slowly giving up, but I wasn't fast enough, I was never fast enough, even if I was five paces closer, I still wouldn't be able to make the catch.
The moment he was out of my sight, I gave up, I let go of myself as I fell out of balance, rolling on the floor and was stopped by the pavement he was standing on top of. The thud of the floor was all it takes for my scream to erupt. I screamed out in pain, anger, sadness and lost, I can't contain the whole emotion as I was broken from the reality that just happened, I screamed again and again, hitting my fist on my chest, beating myself for being too slow, I had only one friend and I couldn't protect him, I slapped myself again and again for being a loser who was watching his friend die right before him and I couldn't do a thing, I deserve to be punished, I deserve to be tortured for being a weak cunt. 
Right now have I realized how weak I was, Khloe saw it coming, but just like she said, I wanted to be blind, I wanted to remain blind, I never wanted to see the reality for all it was, I am weak, the weakest guy in this school, she might've said that I was weak emotionally, but as much as I just realized, I am also physically weak and can't do anything to protect my only friend.
I was just sitting on the roof, not getting up as I rested my back on that pavement, I never looked down to take a last glance, but I never left too, I just sat there, knowing that any action I take now, I can never outrun my memory, because they won't stop hunting me down.
The door was opened with force, I looked up to see Khloe, she was standing there, the expression on her face matching mine, as if she knew how I felt, he already knew how I felt for Barrett, even though they wasn't close friends, she already knew how I cherished him to the point she was confused when we were having that conversation, saying that what he saw between us is definitely something that she wasn't expecting me to give out again, not after stalking me and seeing the kind of person I was, I never cared for anyone, but now, now the only person I cared for is no more, the guy who made me laugh without even trying hard, it felt like both of us were meant to be close, even though we're totally two different peoples.
“ I understand what you're going through Charlie, but right now, we've got to go, we've got to get out from here, none of them out there possibly knew what might've happened, but here you're right now, I think they'll make you a victim, we've got to.....”
The door opened behind her, interrupting her speech, she turned around to see the staffs, as well as the policemen who just showed up, can hear their sirens blaring from down there.
“ That is him officer, he was the one asking about for Barrett before the incident, we never knew why, until this....”
The staff said, finger pointed at me, as she made her claims that I am definitely involved for whatever that might've happened to Barrett. I was dumbfounded, I was listening to what she was saying, as well as the murmurs, but I didn't speak or argue, I'm still in shock about what just happened, I still can't believe that this happened and I was present when it did, yet I never saved him, I never protected him from death itself, I just can't seem to hold back the tears as I sob slowly, not getting attention towards me.
“ It's not the truth officer, I came here with him, I was downstairs while he went for the errand he was asked to, both of us happened to see Barrett entering the building, but this..... This wasn't any murder officer, this was suicide, Charlie has no reason to kill his roommate, he's not that kind of person!!!...”
They just dragged Khloe aside as two men came to where I was. “ You're arrested and will follow us to the station for questioning, you've right to a lawyer, but until then, you're too be kept under our custody until the final judgement is passed....” one of the officers said as they grabbed me up, cuffing my hands behind me and dragging me away.
“ Don't let them do this to you Charlie please.... Say something please!.... Tell them that you're not the one, that you're not involved please!!!....”
Khloe was crying as she was pleading to me to talk, she also continued pleading to the officers, but it seems to be of no use until they dragged me downstairs and kept me inside the car.
I was sitting in there, watching the ambulance drove away, the ambulance carrying Barrett's lifeless body, I can see from her Khloe begging the person in charge of the building, possibly trying to tell him to do something, he was the one I came here to see, the one I took the documents from, but looking from every connection between me and Barrett, I believe they'll find a good reason to convict me, I just hit fuck it.