May's POV (Elena)
"So, how did we end up here Mr. Javier?"
I fixed my gaze on the bistro in front of us. Moon Cafe, ugh, I despise the vibe of this place. It reminds me of something I don't want to recall. And the worst? It's not even my memory!
"I heard from Yummie, your best friend that the both of you love to hang out in this place. So I thought we could spend our day in your favorite spot," he answered while smiling at me.
Geez, thanks Yummie. You're a lifesaver. If rolling my eyes could make my eyes roll off, I won't be able to see by now. Tsk.
"This cafe was once the abode of the exquisite moon enveloped by a bright star, but... it's nothing but a place where darkness ravels for me," I uttered blankly.
This was once my nirvana but now it's just a haunted place. It has already become my greatest weakness. It's the place where I'm trapped in the boundary of giving up and keeping going.
"I don't understand what you're saying and what's with that blank expression, May? If you don't want to come in then we could go to another place," Luke suggested. Sensitive and caring as ever.
I simply nodded and moved to the front seat. It still feels heavy going there. It's like a hollow from one of my worse nightmares. I'd like to go in, but I'm terrified. That place simply serves to remind me of my vulnerability. A memory of Elene flashed in my mind...
"Stop going to that place if you don't want me to ruin your sister's life. I didn't raise you to be weak Elena," Granny lectured, her face flushed.
"Don't involve Misty and Winter in your selfish desire—" I was cut off with a hard slap but I strongly looked back at Granny. "I'm enough Granny."
'Let me carry the burden. I want my sisters to live their lives without Granny manipulating them. I am enough'... were my thoughts... or Elena's.
"Your mom is nothing but a disgrace to our family's name," Granny grunted before leaving.
"May? Is there something wrong? You've been spacing out since we left Moon Cafe."
I was brought back to my senses when I heard Luke's soothing voice. I looked at Luke and flashed a pale smile. I should be cheering him up by now but here I am getting depressed on my own. He smiled at me before leaving and opened the door for me. Gentleman as ever.
"I was supposed to bring Elena here. I wanted to at least ease her pain by showing this to her but I was too late." He offered his hand before taking a step. I smiled at him and took it. "Careful, you might fall."
"I guess it's too late to say that," I muttered to myself.
I'm not an air-head; I know I love this guy holding my hand right now. Can a memory also make you love someone? I mean my memories are all about Elena, nothing about May Gonzales. I wonder if me... loving Luke Javier is caused by my so-called amnesia.
"A penny for your thought?" Luke smiled before handing me a biscuit.
He stared at the horizon before us. We are currently sitting at the edge of a cliff. Fresh air and perfect view. The perfect place to unwind. I thought I could finally live starting anew but everything just jumbled up when I discovered I worked under the person who I claim to be me and the worst and idiotic jerk— Chase just suddenly appeared out of nowhere and kept pestering my life.
"You really remind me of Elena." I turned to Luke. He's still staring from afar. "The Elena who made me go all crazy."
Here goes the familiar weird twitch in my chest again. My emotions are mixed up. A part of me is happy as he says all those words about Elena because a part of me still believes in the memory I claim and a part of me aches because I know this is all just wrong.
"You're right," I mumbled to myself.
Me too, Luke. Me too. Everything about me screams of Elena. I think I'm going crazy. I have to be rational and stop this delusion. I took a glance at Luke once again, sadness was evident in his eyes. So this is what it feels like. Staring at someone you love loving someone else. This feeling is new to me. I never felt like this in my entire life... entire life, ha?
I'm not even sure of my own memories and here I am talking about my entire life.
"I guess this is my second heartbreak," I muttered.
And like before I can't do anything about it. No matter how hard I try to reach for it. I can never catch up.
"What's wrong? You've been mumbling something for a while." Luke asked with a wide boyish grin on his face "Mind sharing?"
I shook my head as an answer. His face suddenly softened. He averted his gaze away from me before speaking.
He let out a sigh. "You see. The old Elena, the Elena before the accident. You act just like her. I'm sorry if I caught you up in this mess. You just remind me so much of her. I just wanna grab this moment to apologize to you."
"Apology accepted Mr. Javier. So wipe that gloomy mood of yours. We are here to unwind remember?" I gave him a sincere smile.
He chuckled and brushed his hair he looked up at the sky, "You're right."
He started talking and sharing stories about his childhood days and all I could do was smile at his silliness. I already know this, I already know everything about him... through this memory of Elena. I wonder how I got hold of all this information though.
"It's getting dark. You wanna go home?" Luke suddenly suggested in between our silence. I nodded when he suddenly grabbed my hand. "May, thank you."
"You've shared a lot today, Luke," I said softly. "Why don't you enjoy the benefits of it and tell me more about what's really bothering you?"
I can clearly still see it in his eyes. He's just trying to act strong but he is still in pain. I don't want him to be this way, he deserves all the happiness in this world. He grumbled before faking a laugh.
"Hands up," he uttered while raising his two hands in surrender. "You're really good at this. Aren't you, May? Like Elena you've really changed since I last saw you. Don't you remember? You were on verge of suicide when I first met you."
I did? How pathetic could in the past? Tsk. "How embarrassing."
"No offense intended," Luke chuckled, his expression changed again. "Elena. She changed into a complete stranger after that incident. Everything about her changed. It's like she's not the Elena I loved but in the end. No matter what or who she will be. I still love her. She is the girl who stole my heart and I can't even take it back. The past Elena, the present Elena, and even the future Elena. I love everything about her."
His confession triggered another memory of Elena...
"What if one day, we part ways, Luke? We are uncertain of the future. What if there's no you and me?" I held the arms wrapped in my waist.
Luke rested his chin on my shoulder. I heard him let out a deep sigh. This is me again... being Elena?
"What's with those questions all of a sudden, Elena? Is there something wrong?"
"No particular reason."
"That will never happen, Elena. You know I'll do anything for you, for us. I am yours, only yours."
I turned to face Luke, and I noticed how his face shifted in shock. He wiped the tears from my eyes. This is the second time I've shed a tear for someone.
"Don't give your all to me, Luke. I am afraid I might break you." I lightly punched Luke when a small smile formed on his lips. "Why are you smiling, idiot. Is it really that fun making me. Elena Perez cry because of you, Luke Javier?"
"I'm sorry. I just can't help it. This is the first time and I just got overwhelmed that's all. And you don't have to worry about anything, Elena." He cupped my face and gave me a sweet smile. "You complete me and don't be afraid of anything because you won't break me. Am I really that weak in your eyes my lady?" He chuckled while wiggling his brows
"Stupid," I mumbled. "But you're the only guy I will ever love. So please, don't give your all to me. I don't want you to regret anything."
"Listen, Elena," from the cheerful expression his eyes turned serious.
"If we ever part ways. Don't fret, I will come back for you even if it means fighting against fate. I will never let that happen, I will never let you go. Remember our promise? You and I forever, and I swore I won't break that promise. I won't regret anything because you are my other half. Wherever you are, I'll run after you until I could finally imprison you in my arms again." I paused for a minute as I stated those words from my memory. I met Luke's hazel orbs. "Right?"
"H-how did you—"
Why does it feel like the thing I always feared has finally come true? And again, my greatest fear came back haunting me. It's like I'm just going in a circle again and again. Luke just stared at me... his expression was mixed with confusion, happiness, and hope?
"Elena," he whispered to himself but enough for me to hear.