Bernard haven't stopped showing concern even though Roselyn told him she was dating. He comes around and when asked he says he came to see friends. Roselyn could notice he comes more often than before so it wasn't just about his friends.
            The other evening he was there with his friends celebrating with a guy who cashed out a big sum. it was indeed a big fortune for a student like that. There they were about thirty and above, including girls. Neighbors were there but she didn't deem it necessary to join. She only stood at the balcony above them watching.
"Hey!" A voice heard right beside her. It was Bernard, he stood with a malt drink smiling.
"I didn't see you down stairs so I brought you this" Stretched out to give her the bottle. 
"Oh, that was thoughtful yet unnecessary" She spoke sparingly in other to suppress her shyness. 
"I don't mind how you ascertain it, I only want you to take it, please"
"Why malt?" Wondering why he chose to get her malt when there were vast brands of alcohol and beers there. He really had considered her to be soft-headed and too holy for liquor. Anyway, if so, he's right. She didn't grow in a family that fancy alcoholic beverages and so, not conversant with it. 
"I presumed this would be better for a decent angel like this. I can change it if you don't like it"
"It's okay. let me have it" 
          He gave it to her but didn't leave. He stayed with her and they had a casual moment. He was with her until the party was over, many left before him. 
           When Roselyn was alone, she took her phone and went through her contacts, first she dialed Richards number knowing that it won't go through. The result was just as she anticipated. The next was Richard mother's, she haven't called them for long and haven't received a call from them either, but that also didn't ring. She dialed twice but it failed. Possibly bad network or the phone is off, since electricity is a problem at some places. She kept scrolling, she saw Susan's number she sent her a threatening message and deleted it she did same to Fatima's number. Other old useless numbers, she deleted. Lastly she called her family, spoke with them assuring them of health and peace. 
             She went inside, she needed to study. She felt guilty of not taking her studies serious recently. She got her hands on books piled on a small table near the upper side of her bed, taking them off one after another. There she found a book she always read but for two month she's abandoned it. She slipped it out flipped the pages to where she assumed she stopped, while still searching she saw a paper between pages. She fetched it out, unfolded it with curiosity as she could not recall ever stocking it there. Maybe she did but forgot, time to find out. 
             
         𝑀𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒, 𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑎𝑟 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐼 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑖𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐿𝑒𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐴𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑖 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑠, 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑖 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
             𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 ℎ𝑜𝑤 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒, 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑢𝑠 𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡. 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑎𝑑𝑣𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔, 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠. 𝐷𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒'𝑠 𝑎𝑑𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒, 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑎𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑖𝑛𝑓𝑙𝑢𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑑. 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑏𝑙𝑒, 𝑓𝑜𝑐𝑢𝑠 𝑜𝑛 𝑠𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑑𝑢𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑞𝑢𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑑. 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑦.
              𝑀𝑦 𝑑𝑒𝑐𝑖𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑎𝑙 𝑠𝑢𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡. 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖'𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒. 𝐿𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑖 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑟, 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡. 𝐼𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑢𝑝. 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑑𝑜, 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡.
              She placed the paper to her chest after reading it, glowed with a deep meaningful smile. She felt so emotional that tears followed the smile. Her initial intentions to read was blown away by her sudden discovery. Memories of their days together lined up in her mind, taking turns, she felt a twinge in her heart. she needed to suppress it, not knowing how she began to slide through pictures of them in her phone, they played a crucial role in comforting her. Now, she could see the reason Amanda demanded she take pictures and keep memories of them. 
"At least he loves me, I love him too, so very much. He's the best boyfriend anyone can have. He proved himself in many ways. Why should I worry about carrying the child of a man I adore so much. Though i didn't plan for it, as it will however impede me to my ambitions but I still don't regret being pregnant. My lovely baby, I don't know your gender but whichever, you are a blessing. You are here to bond me and your father firmer. I love you. I will always do"
             She kept caressing her flat tummy as if she was really touching the unseen baby. She thought about her life, how it will affect her studies and many more. She haven't told anyone about the pregnancy yet, not even Amanda, Richards mother or her family. She already made up her mind to keep it but the question is can she go through the mockery and scorn that follows? is she ready to bear the pain and neglect? Of course that would be too heavy on her. Even if she decides to face her studies with it the challenges won't let her focus. Her days at school will be a waste. The only option was to quit school, not just quiting but travelling to where nobody knows her. A year is enough to get everything sealed. Although she haven't thought about what to do with the baby yet but she believes she would figure it out as time elapses.