Arga wanted to surprise his mother if she wasn't wrong and if Maudy was still alive, which her father had always considered a joke, and her mother always felt that she only felt guilty for causing Maudy to die. Arga also wanted to know if his mother was just pretending or if she really didn't know that Maudy was still alive. It's not that Arga doesn't trust his mother; it's just that his mother is too kind to his grandmother's family, even though his father never blamed his grandmother; he only blamed people who came into their family with bad intentions and just wanted to pit themselves against each other, but it wasn't his grandmother's fault. also the one who takes care of a child who is not his biological child, which turns out to be a boomerang, and it all starts with the grandfather who has a past that is enough to make his past curse... not a dark past; it's just a mistake, still a mistake. And even his grandfather, who was unfair, made everyone suffer.
Hello, Se," Arga immediately answered Sean's call.
"Already in Jakarta?" asked Sean anyway.
"Hmm. Why?"
Nothing; is it safe there? asked Sean anyway. I don't know if Sean is just asking, pretending not to know, or actually not knowing.
"Are you testing me again?" he asked, chuckling. For some reason, Arga chuckled so often, even laughing like crazy these days. Honestly, sometimes this makes Sean and Tirta worry. Honestly, Sean has experienced it. Tirta too, but only Tirta immediately realised because he had children. However, in the end, he took it out on unexpected things, things that no one else would have imagined, even though it wasn't through drugs or killing. Ah, the drugs; he touched them once. Meanwhile, Arga, who has been holding back, has made his friends even more worried. As for Sean, don't ask; the free life he has been living is more than just an outlet for lust or pleasure, but rather an outlet for or challenging his feelings of trauma, which he ultimately uses in the wrong way.
No, never do silly things or things you will regret later. It's enough for you to regret everything. Don't do it a second time. Don't you regret making mistakes with Maudy and her family? Just once, I'm more afraid to see you like this than to see you get drunk and sleep with all the women on this earth. So, please, Ga, don't create another problem for the sake of an unfinished problem. He said he was half-begging.
"I understand, Se... I'm not an old-fashioned person, but every now and then we need to teach a lesson; at least it's an experience. Arga chuckled again, making Sean on the other side quite horrified to hear the sound of the chuckling, like a thirsty person who is never satisfied, so he could become a wild animal who will never hold back again."
"No," said Sean.
"Hmm. Why?" he said in response.
"You still love Maudy?" asked Sean again, making the atmosphere quite silent, whether Sean could guess or Arga was actually looking for what really happened to himself and his feelings.
"Why?" Arga asked too.
"I'm afraid; I'm more afraid that you're just giving vent to something that's wrong, and actually you don't have feelings for Maudy anymore. If it's just guilt, please don't do something that drives everyone closest to you away. Sean's suggestion, because Sean doesn't want Arga to fall into the hole again—the same thing, a second time, like a few years ago."
"What's wrong with my feelings? asked Arga again, as if it were a challenge for him, as well as knowing his own heart.
"No, I'll be back tonight; you better think about what I said. I don't want to patronise you, but because you're my best friend, it's enough for us to fall into a dark hole," he advised. Ah, no. He's just telling the truth. The bitter truth
"I understand; okay, just get ready first. I'm also busy, he replied.
"Okay"
After ending their conversation over the telephone, Arga just smiled sarcastically and wryly. Ah, I don't know since when she could smile as sweetly and sincerely as before. Maybe it wouldn't be possible if he hadn't returned what was supposed to be in its proper place. Argo sighed again. Why does it feel so hard to breathe—even breathing fresh air feels hard? He already knew Maudy was still alive, but why did it still feel like he couldn't breathe well? Why is he always haunted by guilt? It turns out that after he found out that Maudy was still alive, he didn't feel fine, but as if he wanted to die because there was another creature that would haunt him and really wanted him to be hurt.
Meanwhile, at the Arga family's house, Rita, Arga's mother, doesn't seem so well. She was also still a little shocked and panicked because he found out that Maudy was still alive. Actually, Rita was fine all this time, knowing that Maudy was gone. She doesn't want to be a bad woman; it's just that sometimes she has to be grateful that Maudy is gone. He thought that Arga would be fine; apart from their guilt towards the family, they could live a good life, even though sometimes they were haunted by guilt. At least their lives are safe, even if they have to sacrifice the lives of others.
"Mom?" Papa Arga called because he saw his wife sitting at the dining table alone. But Rita did not hear. So, like it or not, Arga's father approached his wife.
"Mom, what are you doing here? He asked, touching his wife's shoulder, because it seemed like Arga's mother didn't even know that he was at the dining table too, to see his wife.
"Ah, is Daddy home yet? He asked in surprise; he was quite shocked, so he stroked his chest, but fortunately he was able to immediately control his expression; he changed his expression as fast as lightning.
"Why mom?" asked Arga's father. Rita just shook her head.
"Nothing's wrong, Daddy," she replied.
"Oh, yes, dad, please talk to Arga; don't be careless."
Rita looked at her husband, so Arga's father could help him. Even though Arga isn't too close to his father, at least all this time he has listened to him, apart from his grandmother. However, her grandmother had made Arga quite disappointed; if he found out that he also took part in Maudy's accident, he might have hated him for the rest of his child's life and wouldn't even want to see him again, just like he had treated his grandmother since everything happened.
"Why, ma'am?" asked Arga's father, because he didn't know anything.
"Arga pa," she said, looking at his husband with a careful look.
"What about Arga?"
"Didn't Papa know all this time that Arga was investigating Maudy's death? Rita asked her husband.
"Maudy's death? Why? Was Maudy's death staged? Does that mean Maudy's death wasn't real, or what? asked the husband anyway.
"I don't know, Mom; I was confused when Arga said that Maudy was still alive," he said languidly, massaging his forehead, because he was tired of thinking about everything, while the child he hoped could let go and forget his past was even more unable to escape from that past. Besides investigating the mastermind behind everything, even though he knows, Rita knows, her mother-in-law knows, and her husband knows too, they are silent. It's not a matter of them being afraid, but because they have really decided that everything that happened in the family was bad luck that they had experienced and not similar events for the future.
"We all know that Maudy's death was staged, and that makes Arga feel even more guilty, and we can't do anything other than regret everything because we only have unreal evidence," Papa Arga explained, making his wife finally fall silent and just nod.