Natsumi
"How many times can I tell you to go home?"
"I'm here, I'll watch over you."
I'm just massaging my temple.
Looks like this one doesn't want to leave. I want to be alone, but my kind cousin called this man to watch over me.
"I can handle myself so leave me alone!"
"You're drunk. You can't handle yourself like that."
For all I don't want, to interfere with what I do. I want to be alone but they can't give me that.
"It's already midnight Jenthrix. Go home, I want to be alone."
"Fine. Do whatever you want but I won't gonna leave you here."
I'm feeling a little dizzy because of what I've been drinking. I need more drink to forget anything.
I just get a bottle of wine instead of beer. I went straight to the sofa and ignored the man sitting on the single couch.
I take a sip of my wine. I leaned over and closed my eyes. The hot flow of wine in my throat helps me feel more relaxed. Somehow I forgot my problem.
Eliminating this drink from how I feel right now helps. He was telling me something but I didn't pay attention to it instead I kept my eyes closed. I opened my eyes and saw him looking at me seriously. I straightened my drink with wine. I notice that he still doesn't take his eyes off me.
I poured a wine again into my glass and drank it. He was still looking at me as if he wanted to say something. I tilted my head and then closed my eyes again.
What else am I missing from what I do? Everything they want, I obey. They can make me do everything. Don’t just get married. To me, marriage is a sacred thing.
I still believe that you only marry the man you love. No mixed insistence and reconciliation took place. That you felt that he was the person for you.
But that seems unlikely to happen to someone like me.
For someone like me who can't get along with other people. I can only socialize with high-class persons in this world.
I just felt the left side of the sofa where I am sitting now move.
"What's wrong with you? Earlier, you suddenly left the party because you said you were suddenly dizzy. Then your cousin suddenly called me to join you here. Then I'll just see you drinking here in your unit?"
"Then leave. I don't need a company." I said and I looked him in the eye.
I accidentally bite my lower lip when I landed my eyes in his eyes.
I saw him swallow for what I did. Is what I saw true? Or just the effect of what I drank?
I approached him but he backed away. Corner Jenthrix, you have nothing to fall back on.
"Tell me..." I brought my face close to him. Only a few inches away.
"Am I not worthy enough to be free?" all of a sudden what I said came out of my mouth.
Suddenly he was right in his place. Did I do something? I'm just asking him.
"Hey, I'm asking you. Do you want me to repeat it for you?"
"Huh? No, of course, your worth be free. W-why did you ask?" why is he blushing?
"Thanks." and I returned to my seat.
I could hear his sighs. Does he have difficulty in breathing? I looked at him again and I caught him averting his gaze.
Am I hallucinating?
I think I saw him blushing?
I approached him again which surprised him. I put my face on his neck. Suddenly he was able to sit up because of what I did.
"You smell good," I said. It's only now that the effects of alcohol seem to be coming to me.
"And your scents... is damn addicting." and I looked him in the face again. Our faces were only about two inches apart. And I see his adam's apple slow-moving up and down. Why so sexy?
"Nervous." I laughed saying.
Her lips are too red. I was touched by nothing in time my lip. Why is his lip are redder more than mine? That's not fair! None of my own touched his lip. Damn! His lips are so soft.
"Why are your lips redder than mine and they are soft? How does it even possible?" I told him pouted.
"Stop it, you're already drunk." he immediately took the glass of wine in my hand and placed it on the table opposite to us.
When he returned to his seat, I didn't intend to kiss him on my own. My God! The softness of his lips. His lips are damn addicting! I took a long time to kiss him, yeah I’m the one who's moving our lips. At first, he was still tight but when he recovered he accompanied me but I suddenly let go.
"It's true. Your lips are soft... and sweet." I laughed saying to him as I stood up.
I went to the kitchen to get some water. I suddenly got hot. Maybe the effect of what I drank? The aircon is on, but why the heat?
When I returned to the living room, I saw him still sitting while leaning his head.
I did not approach him first. I let myself watch the man sitting on the couch. I can say that 'perfect' is the right word to describe him. I stared at him in the distance for a few minutes, I don't want to disturb him.
What if we become together? Will he accept me? The real me? Not the person he just met months ago? Will he love me as the Asakura heiress? The Princess?
But loving me is suicide. I'm already tied to the person I don't know the name and his personality.
What am I thinking? He doesn't like me. I am just his friend and he is my friend.
When I landed my eyes on his lips, I automatically touch my lips. I can still feel the softness of his lips. Can I get another kiss from him? Nah, what am I thinking? Am I addicted to kissing?
I decided to approach him and drink the wine on the table again. I'm the owner of this unit. No, the building rather. So I can do whatever I want.
"You still here?" I asked him as I sat down.
"I told you, I'm not leaving. I'm only leaving when you're asleep," he said as he averted his gaze from me.
"Stop staring at me. You're making me blush." I did not hear the last thing he said.
"Huh?" I think I heard something.
"Nothing. Go to sleep," he commands.
I stiffened and lay down on the sofa. I don’t care if my thighs rest on his. I don't want to sleep, because when I do that nothing will change.
I argued with him. In short, we debate for minutes and...
"What the! Hey! Put me down!"
Yeah, he just lifted me. Because I was stubborn and didn't want to sleep, he just lifted me. I tried to use my combat knowledge but it didn't help because of what I drank.
"No! I won't put you down. You're already drunk! You're going to rest!" I suddenly fell silent because of the sudden rise of his voice.
"Nami, look I'm sorry. I didn't mean to raise my voice to you. It's just, I'm just worried about you. I don't know what your problem is. I'm not in the position to tell you what to do. I'm just... I'm sorry. "
I sat down and looked at him. I hope they like Grandpa too. But he is not like that. I smiled at what he said.
"Apology accepted. Thank you for saying those words. At least for now, I feel free." smiling I told him. The smile is real, not fake.
I was surprised when he suddenly kissed me. A sweet and passionate kiss. His kiss on me lasted. Just for now, I want to be free with him. Right beside him.
He was the first to let go of our kiss. We both closed our eyes as our foreheads touched.
And his last words are why I want to fight for my freedom.
"No matter what happens, I will stay by your side. For now, just sleep and everything's gonna be okay. Good night my love."