I can feel the wind blows and it immediately embraces my skin. I look at the view in front of me. The sunrise never fails to make me calm. Since then, it has always been my ally. Comforting me before my day starts, telling me by its beauty that everything's gonna be alright.
I feel a cloth that place in my shoulder. I look up to the person who put a coat on me, It's Brick.
"It's so early, Vianne. Why are you out here? It's still cold" Brick said and looked me in the eye. He sat next to me so I looked back at the orange sky. I smiled when I saw the sparkling sea because of the sunrise.
"I just want to look at the sun's beauty, to see something beautiful in the beginning of the day" I said without looking at him.
How I wish the day starts always good and ends always in good but weather cannot be consistent, there are days start with sunrise, there are also days start with rain and so as life cannot be consistent as well.
"You know, it's not just sunrise is the only beautiful thing you can see in the beginning of the day."
I glanced at Brick when he said that. I can see that he's already looking at me when I glance at him.
"It could be the person you love... that you want to be with for the rest of your life" he said almost whisper while looking softly but seriously with me.
Did he once fall in love? I think he has someone in his heart.
I almost jump when I feel something in my hand. .I look at it and I see Brick's hand holding me. I feel a sudden awkwardness but I can't just rudely shove his hand away from me. Not now that I feel the sadness in his eyes... but there's a rage emotion visible in his eyes. I can't just explain the emotion that I see through him. .I remember that I also don't know him deeply just like Logan.
"Beautiful things fade away, Vianne."
"But at least we witnessed, experienced it, and treasure it. Beautiful things come back, not just in one form, but in many. .yeah, it does fade away and not consistent but we experience it again and it makes us happy." I replied
"Yeah and fades away again, then you experience again and continue of the cycle. Don't you get tired of it?" He asked, still holding me and I saw him.
"This is life, it is not consistent..we hope for beautiful things happened in our life rather than always experiencing bad things right?" I said to him
"Indeed the world is unfair and my life always accepted bad things. Never the world just for once sided with me and gave me the things that I want..." he said it softly and many emotions I see in his eyes right now that I just witness just now for the days that we've been together. I feel that his hold in my hand tightened and I am uncomfortable with it.
I scream when I feel cold water touching my feet. I immediately stood up and withdrew my hand from Brick. My trousers got wet. It's already high tide so the water reaches my feet as I sit in the sand.
I squeezed my trousers to drain the water.
"Let's get inside, Vianne. I already told them to prepare our breakfast." Brick said. I look at his pants who got wet but he didn't bother to squeeze it to drain the water out.
I nod to him while I am still squeezing my pants. He waits for me until I am done.
He walked first so I followed him from his back. I just stare at his back and think about what we talked about earlier. .i wonder who he was talking about what he said earlier.
The world has never once sided with him?
I look softly and seriously on his back. I didn't know if he has past experiences or what but I noticed that he has bad memories and experiences based on what he said. I just hope that he will find a partner that can make him share his vulnerability and give him comfort.
When we entered Brick's house, we were immediately greeted by their housekeepers. We are now in a place far from the city. Brick said, this is their old house is where we are staying now, where there are beautiful views. Brick said that he grew up here and that they were here when his mother had not died.
Brick brought me here when I said I didn't want to go home. I want to get away even for a few hours and see a new and beautiful sight.
When we entered the kitchen, I sat down and was about to eat a spoonful of rice when Brick preceded me. I couldn't do anything but let him do it, I'm still not used to things like this.
"Thank you" I said when he's done putting food in my plate.
He smiled and spooned food for his self. I also started eating and I was closing my eyes because of the taste. This is delicious! Are the maids really this good at cooking? Even Hilda is an expert in cooking too.
"Vianne, you decide what time will be back in your house today." Brick said and I stopped eating because of it.
Yeah I still need to go home. Last night I was still thinking that Logan might be at home, so I told Brick that I didn't want to go home.
"Let's go home after we eat here." I told him and he nodded.
We continued to eat and then we fixed ourselves for a while before we left.
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I looked at the gate of my house and I held my breath because I still feel heavy because of what I saw last night and it seems that this house is full of sadness as if I will be alone again when I enter here. It seems that the memory accumulated in this house is only my sadness.
I looked at Brick and he didn't know that I was looking at him because he was seriously looking at the road and seemed to be thinking about something. I looked away from him and looked out the window.
Fortunately, Brick was there to comfort me. And I didn't even feel like I was alone again because I was with him yesterday. He's indeed a good friend.
The car stopped when we were at the gate. The guard opened the door and let us in. Trembling in my chest when I saw Logan's car in the parking lot.
And really thought of coming here? I thought you were busy, you jerk? Why are you here?!
I turned off my phone last night because I didn't want to see his call and I am angry with him, so my anger grew even more when I saw his car parked and he was here.
"He's here... Are you okay?" Brick asked in a concerned tone.
"Yeah, I'm okay" I replied to him and I can't hide my emotions anymore. I am mad and my voice is cold when I said that to him.
I step out of the car and I hear Hilda's voice.
"Ma'am! Why didn't you come home last night? I was worried because you weren't answering my calls!" she said worriedly to me and checked to see if I was okay.
I smiled and hugged her to make her stop worrying.
"I'm okay, Hilda. I'm with Brick yesterday. You don't need to panic." I said and broke away from the hug. I still saw the worry on her face so I smiled even more.
"Even so, Ma'am! I'm still worried and I was about to call Ma'am and Sir when Sir Logan said no because you and Sir Brick are together but I'm still restless!"
I smiled sparingly because of what he said. Logan was here last night. Nice, he has more time now.
"I'm going to rest first, Hilda, I'm tired from what we went to yesterday." I just told her for me to go up to my room because Logan might come down and see me here, I don't want to see him and talk to him today. 
Hilda looked at me worried so I gently held her hand.
"I'm okay, Hilda. Just bring me some snacks to my room and I'll take a shower." I told her so she nodded.
I turned to Brick who was behind me.
"Thank you for yesterday, Brick." I said.
Brick showed me his perfect teeth and I felt his usual aura again.
"Nothing, Vianne. . you are too precious to be broken and not taking care of" he said it and eventhough I was shocked by what he said, I just smiled at him and said goodbye to him, saying that I will take rest in my room. He nodded and let me leave him
I took off all my clothes and then wrapped the towel around my whole body before entering the bathroom.
I took off the towel and turned on the shower and let the cold water slide over my body. I was just stupidly soaping myself up while thinking about what I saw at the bar last night. I didn't realize there were tears coming out of my eyes. I feel my heart aching remembering those scenes.
I thought I was done crying from all the pain last night but it seems not yet.
Why did he do that? Is he really that eager and thirsty for things that I have not experienced with him? Is he already feeling lust when he's here with me and I didn't recognize it? Eventhough when I recognize his desire and lust, I can't fulfill that to him.
Is he not content in just a kiss? .is he always fantasizing to go beyond that? Fuck him!
I am right! Nobody can last long in a relationship without having sex! Nobody can last long in a relationship when one cannot give each other desires!
I thought there were men who were not eager for sex but I was wrong. Maybe our relationship won't work out.
I just let my tears fall again and pour out all the hidden pains.
After I finished taking a shower, I immediately left the bathroom and got dressed. I immediately looked in the mirror to see if it was obvious that I had cried and I was relieved to see that it was not obvious. 
I had just finished drying my hair with the dryer when there was a knock at the door. That must be Hilda.
"Come in" I said and went to my closet to get the clothes I chose earlier because I don't like what I'm wearing now.
I had my back to the door but I felt it open and I heard the sound of dishes landing on my mini table.
When I got the dress I wanted, I faced Hilda.
"Thank you, Hild--" the words I was about to say were cut off when I saw the person who entered my room.
I immediately felt my anger and wanted to cry but I stopped crying because I didn't want to see that I was crying to the person in front of me.
"Get the fuck out of my room!" I shouted angrily to him.
"Vianne, it's not what you think. Yesterday was--"
I cut off his words.
"I said get the fuck out!"
I feel the lump in my throat but I'm not gonna let him see my tears. Fuck him!
"Vianne, let me explain--"
I throw my cloth on him.
"What else do you have to explain huh, Logan? I saw everything last night! You fucking disrespect me!" I yelled at him angrily and he was walking so fast that I couldn't avoid him. He grabbed my hand so I struggled in his grip and punched him in the chest.
"Are you contented? You fulfill your fucking desire on Hazel! Are you that thirsty? Are you already fantasizing that we do something more than kisses, huh? Then you realize that I can't fulfill your desire? Fuck you!" I pushed him hard causing him to get away from me.
"Is that how you think of me, Vianne?" I don't know if his emotions are really playing with me, but I saw in his emotions that he was hurt.
I ignored the emotion I saw in him and looked at him even more evilly.
"Why? Are you insulted by what I said?" I told him sarcastically.
"Why would you? You already done in disrespecting me and you still think you are really kind in my eyes?" I laughed sarcastically to stop the tears that were about to fall from my eyes.
"Vianne, I'm not that kind of man--"
I cut off his words
"But you did that last night? You're kidding me..." .I looked at him judiciously and when I saw that he was about to speak, I didn't let him.
"You know what? Get out of my room before I decide without thinking that I will call our wedding off." I coldly said to him and I see the worry and sadness in his eyes.
Why would you feel that, huh? .you should be happy 'cause you can freely choose anyone without worrying to satisfy your fucking desires.
He took a deep breath before hanging up and looked away from me and nodded softly.
"Okay. Let's talk when your ready to talk about this again." He said and I didn't reply him. I just followed him out of my room.
When he came out, I felt weak and my tears immediately fell.
I lay down on my bed and immediately buried my face in the pillow and let myself cry again because of the pain I felt.