"My Kristina"
[ Note : this is the continuation of chapter 25 and this is still Leonard's point of view ]
"Johnson?"
Feelings and emotions, disappontment and wrath were all mixed up
Johnson, my bestfriend, he married my ex-girlfriend?
I like Johnson because he never ever did betrayed me and he was actually my first true friend
I found both friendship and family in him, he was like a brother to me
Out of all people, Johndon was the only person I never thought that will betray me
I never thought that Johnson will do such a thing to hurt my feelings
He was the first to know that I love Kristina more than my life and this is what he'll give me?
***
"Leonard!"
I was on my way home when Johnson suddenly called me
"Wait up, I have to show you something"
He grabbed me by the wrist that made me follow him and he took me somewhere I haven't went yet
It was a strange new place, it was something I never thought that will exist
"This is the arcade I was talking about man, my mom told me to bring a friend here since she's the one who's paying for everything we'll do today" said Johnson
Johnson was like a sibling to me, a brother who I always want to have
He was really good to me, he's so genuine and he listens to every problem that I tell him and he actually give me life advices
An older brother figure, that was what I see him
"Leonard" he called
"Leave me alone, everyone will leave and betray me anyways" I shouted aggressively
Earlier that afternoon, I met a bunch of bullies that bullied me for reading a lot of book and for loving books then they started calling me a lot of stuffs like nerd, st*pid, and all those hurtful words
"Get yourself together man, I'm still here, you're mom id still with you, everyone didn't leave you, I will never leave nor betray you man"
Johnson was my crying shoulder, my buddy, and the most trustworthy friend that I have
***
Johnson was the most important boy in my life especially because I found both a friend and an older brother in him even though I'm older
I never expected this to happen in my life
I lost my Kristina, a friend and a brother in just one blink
Five years has passed but the pain and the thorn in my heart still remain and will keep on remaining
I still haven't move on from my first and greatest love Kristina and the fact that she married my bestfriend Johnson
I hope they make a great and healthy family for their growing children and I hope that they are in their best state
Every day in my life was like a year of loneliness where the people just left the world and went to some sort of other planet
My mom also left me three years after Kristina and Johnson got married
I finished school and graduated as a journalist but I never did used it
I am currently a writer now and I have published almost 999 books and is working at a company right now
I want to publish another book but I've ran out of idea
And that's the reason why I'll be taking a walk to the park today to freshen my mind up to have an idea on what book I'll be writing
"Figgy" I said
I called my puppy which reminds me of my old dog that my mom gave me
Sadly, he died after mom said goodbye too
They all left me behind
I went out of the house, holding figgy's leash on one hand and my mobile phone on the other
I was wearing a black shirt, paired with a white colored pants and a black cap
As I was walking figgy at the park, I noticed a lot of lovers and families that were bonding there
I kinda felt a little jealous and those things made me lonely
I then start to reminisce things, all the things that hurts and gave me a lot of pain in my life
My reminiscing moment gave me an idea for my next story so I rushed home to write
I was thinking of a name and I finally got it
The only reason that I started to write and the reason why I'm still living right now
I started to write from chapters after chapters and was actually liking the flow of the story I was writing
In every story hides a moral lesson and a secret message for our reincarnated selves
Yes, I believe in reincarnations and next lives
I write and write, from chapters to chapters and from message to message
There I formed a book about my life
My Kristina, my love, my darling, my everything
A life without her isn't a life at all
My heart was fill with joy and happiness when I was with my Kristina but the world is indeed cruel and destiny is indeed playful
I am not destined to be with you but I am and always will be loving you, my Kristina
I promised my self before that after a thousand published book, I will stop on writing and start a new chapter of my life to experience other things while I'm still alive
I can experience a lot of new things to do but loving other woman than you is something I could never do
Kristina is one of a kind and I know that I'll never find any woman that's better than my Kristina
I promised myself that I'll stop on loving her but how exactly?
How can I love someone than Kristina?
How can I move on from my greatest love?
Is it because I could not or is it because I would not?
She's my sweetie, my love, my darling, the sugar in my tea and the beautiful view near the sea
She's a work of art
She's 'My Kristina'
-End of chapter 26-
( See you on chapter 27 )