It's 12 in the morning and Haven was rushing to Aviana's house.
"So it's my mistake all the time..." his heart whispered while clutching the steering wheel.
"I'm coming to get you and our child Aviana" he said, drifting on the road.
"So, who knows the fault now huh?" his good side appeared.
"So it's true that it was your fault?! What an ego" his bad side said.
"That ego was coming from you! You asshole demon!" his good side said.
"Hey! Even if it is...I didn't say that he can use it to hurt other people!!" his bad side was to defend herself.
"Whatever, the mission now-!" before finishing his words, Haven turned the corner and made everything in the car upside down.
"Hey!! I thought you realized your mistakes?!!!" his good side shouted while holding his seat together with bad side.
"I bet he hasn't yet!!! Arghhh!!!" his bad side shouted, the car drifting on the empty road.
"I think...he can even beat...Tokyo drift~~" his good side spinning then disappeared.
"Same~~" his bad side followed.
Haven rushed to Aviana's house door and stood in front of it, panted.
"I already made mistakes, I need to fix it..." he said and knocked on her door.
There's no response but he saw the light turn on from her window.
"She's already asleep and forgot to turn off the light?" he thought and twisted the doorknob. Surprisingly, it isn't locked.
Haven entered her house just to see it was silent and every light was on.
He knocked on her door but no one was there, same with the bathroom and any other rooms. Haven was thinking if she's actually or coming home but her dress and shoes that he gave her were left on the bed.
Then, when he was sitting at the couch, thinking. Suddenly he saw 2 letters on it. There's no title, just from her to himself.
"Did she leave it for me?" he opened the letter.
To Haven Victor,
The letter that you read right now was my goodbye letter.
"Goodbye letter?" he was confused.
Maybe it was weird for me to leave a letter for someone that's not even love me but I still love you...maybe because you're with someone else.
I wrote this just to tell you, I already left the country tonight, my flight was at 11:30...I bet you can't chase me now HAHAHA. But for one last time we talked in letters, I'm sorry for everything, hurting you with my illegitimate child and can't be with you on the altar one day...
Don't look for me, I'll stop working and find another job, another house, a new life. I promise that I'll not look for you anymore even after the child is born...
P/s: hope you'll have a new happy life, I'm just a passenger and I'll always be like that...
Sincerely,
Aviana
Haven was stunned and looked at another letter that was her resignation letter.
Haven rushed to the airport then realized that everything was already late as the flight was at 11:30. He almost gave up and realized he needed to fix all the misunderstanding.
"No, I'm gonna find her, no matter what it'll cost!" Haven went home and looked at the flight that leaves at 11:30, it was England, UK. The only flight that left sharp at 11:30.
"I'll be looking for you..." he said.
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The next day, as usual, Haven did his work at the office and most of the employees started gossiping.
Until lunchtime, Haven looked at his employees, stalking and giving him and dark glance.
Then a message came in.
"Haven, what have you done?!" Melinda asked.
"What? What have I done?"
"Look at the news!!"
Haven opens the news and there's a picture of him holding Melinda's waist back at the cocktail party where he was trying to catch her.
"Was an old story repeated again? Haven Victor from Victor's Entp. was dating Miss Melinda Tigress from Tigress Entp.! Are we able to see a lit couple make a comeback?!" A main topic that gets lit and fire among all the citizens and reporters.
"How someone took the picture?!" Haven texted her.
"You think I got an idea?! I also don't know!! This shit needs to be clarified or it'll turn more worst" she replied.
"Why is it always the moment when I realize the mistakes?!" he texted.
"Just chill, me and Liam will settle this in a day...you said to Liam that you're already found Aviana?" she asked.
"Yeah, she's in England now, her flight was 11:30 last night" he said.
"Haven..." Melinda stopped texting.
"What?"
"I don't know how to say it but did you watch the news this morning?" she asked.
"No, I don't usually watch it, what happened?"
"Actually, an airplane that went to England crashed with another airplane as they lost control with the wings," Melinda said.
"T-then, some of them survived, right?" he asked.
"No...that tragedy has been confirmed that all the passengers were resting in peace, no one survived or went missing" she said.
Haven left the message in seen and he doesn't know how to react. His heart skipped a beat and he didn't believe what Melinda had said so he found it by himself.
The truth was hurt but he needed to accept it, he looked at all the passengers' pictures, there's no Aviana's picture yet and his heart was still beating until the last row, Aviana's face was there...
"No...NO! THAT'S NOT HER!!" he yelled and almost all the employees heard him.
His office was a second place where he threw everything and he can't think anything straight right now, not anymore.
Every document, file and tool on the desk was being thrown in aggressively. None of the employees dare to knock in.
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2 weeks after Aviana's death, Haven changed to someone that cold and too focused on his work. Forget about meals, sleep and sometimes entertainment.
"Yes Sir, Mr. Haven was working nonstop, it's good for the company but all of us worried about his health," said Jason in a phone call with Haven's dad.
"I see…thank you for reporting" said him then they ended the call.
Haven was frowned all the time but still kept his humbleness for people surrounding.
"Hello dad," said Haven.
"Haven, when will you be free?" his dad asked.
"Tomorrow after work at 8, why?"
"Can you return to our place for a while? Me and your mom wanted to talk about something," he said.
"Is that thing important?"
"Kinda, it's a mental and private problem of yours we want to talk about" he said.
"I got nothing to do with that problem" Haven denied.
"Yes you got and we want you to come back…" his dad insisted.
"Fine, I'll be there at about 9" he said and ended the call.
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Haven was driving back to his mansion at 8:30. He dealt with his dad at 9, so he can have a rest first.
But, he doesn't know how he can suddenly detour to a park where he and Aviana are having fun.
"Why I brought myself here" he said while sitting down at the same bench and remembered Aviana sitting there with her smile and laugh.
His tears were falling without him realizing and immediately he wiped it.
"At the end, I just need to let you go right?" he said looking at the sky with a few stars shining.
"Why did you leave? You even bring our child…am I that bad and jerk?" he clenched his hair.
Then he remembered what he had said back when he and Melinda were talking at the cocktail party.
"I am really a jerk…if I didn't hope for it, you must be here with me right?" his lips slightly trembling and his feet bring him back to the car.
It's very rare for someone to make him cry but losing her was like destroying half of his life, the entire heaven and leaving him in hell.
"I…sorry…very sorry…if I can say this to you…if I just can" his voice trembling and sobbing. His chest aching and throbbing hardly.
Not a single word came out after that, and his head was spinning. Just if he knew it earlier…
A few minutes after that, he remembered his dad and rushed home.
When he was in front of his dad's penthouse, Haven wiped his tears, cleaned his throat and took a deep breath.
When he was about to get out of the car, he suddenly staggered. His head is still spinning but he needs to ignore that and get into the house.
"Haven! Finally you come back!" his mom hugged him and patted his back.
"Yeah I—" everything suddenly goes blank as Haven faints on his mom's hug.
"Haven! Are you okay!? Honey!!" his mom called his dad.
"What happened?!" his dad rushed and saw Haven was laying on the floor and his face was pale.
"Haven!" his dad brought him to the bedroom.
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"He just lacked oxygen in the blood due to not eating, I'll consume some vitamins but please tell him to get a proper meal" the doctor told his parents.
"I see, thank you doctor, I'll seek you out" his dad said.
Haven's mom was looking at her son, something was wrong with him. He'll not be this worst if it's not because of someone.
"Who's this time, Haven?" his mom asked with melancholy eyes.
He then opened his eyes and looked around just to see his parents approaching him.
"Haven…are you feeling good now? Want a glass of water?" his mom asked.
"Yeah, thank you," he said in a weak voice.
"Haven, we really need to talk about this" his dad approaches him and slowly Haven sits down.
"About what?"
"Why do you skip your meals and sleep? You know it's important!" his dad raised his voice a bit.
"Honey…be gentle" his mom defense.
"No, this is serious and if you can't even concentrate on this kind of thing, I can't let you manage the company until you learn how to sleep and eat!"
"I lost her, forever" he said while looking at the window, raining heavily.
"Lost? Who?" his mom asked.
Haven approached his phone and showed a pic of both of them at the park.
"So she…" his mom stopped.
"She's my girlfriend that I want to introduce to you" he said.
"Aviana toddler was her name right?" his dad asked and Haven was half shocked.
"How—" his dad cut his words.
"Well, her parents were actually our good friend of us back then when both of you at the kindergarten, they also part of the agency" his dad opened an old book (tell the story)
"Yeah, but unfortunately, they got killed while on vacation and we didn't believe that their daughter would survive," his mom continued.
"Yeah, he even carried my child…" Haven said.
"Then? Why didn't you bring her to us? Talk about marriage, you're not letting her give birth without a marriage and a right husband right?" his dad asked.
"I…I…messed up everything" he said and told everything to his parents.
"You want to say that she died in an airplane crash?" his mom asked.
"Yeah…"
"But Haven, isn't Melinda and Liam going to England at the same time?" his dad said.
"What? No way! I saw the news and Melinda also texted me after that night!" he said.
"Melinda Liam just had a video call with me yesterday and she said that she and Liam lost their phone at the airport. So they need to buy a new one" his mom explained, frowning.
"Yeah, I saw it too, what news did you watch that morning?"his dad asked.
"If I'm not mistaken, it's “Morning Ring Channel” it looks more like a youtube channel than a news channel," he said.
"Haven…that kind of channel doesn't exist and Melinda and Liam even changed their phone number. They even try to approach you but can't…so, to whom are you talking and giving information since that day you texted Melinda?" his dad asked.
"I…don't…know" he said then his mom flicked his forehead.
"Ouch! What's that for?!" he touched his forehead that was sore.
"You and your dad just same, sometimes can be stupid!" she said.
"That's quite hurt my feelings" he looked at his dad and he just nodded, surrender.
"Better for you to bring back my daughter-in-law and grandchild or you'll know the sequences" his mom warned them as they walked out.
Haven frowned in confusion.
"Your mom was so scary and psycho, better if you look for her" his dad said.
"But what if she already—"
"You called your feelings towards her a love and yet didn't believe in her? Have you checked everything by yourself? Her last location? Her last activity on the phone? Have you checked that?" his dad gave a series of statements.
"N-no, I—"
"You're too sad aren't you?" his dad smirked.