* Put God first in everything you do. *
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---- Sushie's POV -----
" So do you understand the concept of organic chemistry now? "
" Yeah, I do. "
It was currently some minutes to midnight on the 23rd of April.
And I have been preparing a lot for the GCSE exams that are coming up in less than a month's time.
Brother had been helping me a lot with my studies and the tutors had also been doing a lot in helping me understand the topics I am finding difficulties at.
Just like organic chemistry.
I had been battling with that in the past year, but you know what?
I now understand the whole concept deeply.
It still feels so unbelievable to me that I do.
I had struggled so much with it that at one point I gave up on trying since I believed that I might not be able to understand it.
But now I do, which is quite shocking.
I guess all I needed was just a little push just like my brother said.
All I needed was the encouragement that I could do better.
Now i Realize how correct my brother had always been with his words, though then I really didn't believe his words, but now I do.
Perhaps it's because I too can see it clearly.
I guess it's really true that I am enough and will always be good enough.
I always thought I was dumb, but now...
After going through a lot of self tests and seeing the results I have come to realize that I was indeed intelligent and smart.
Intelligent and smart? Oh that's new.
I guess this is the first time I am being so understanding and patient towards myself.
Can't blame me though...I had been used to people saying stuff about me and I have come to get adapted to it and have even begun to accept it, but now?
I have grown up, I must say.
And all this growth is thanks to my lovely brother Danny.
Sometimes, I see him as more like an angel than a sibling.
I still can't believe it, it feels totally surreal.
Just a year ago, I was wallowing in Depression and anxiety.
I had been feeling so unloved and unneeded. But now?
I don't feel loved anymore... It feels like all the negative feelings have evaporated into thin air.
Funny right?
But you know what? It's really true.
Even I can't comprehend it sometimes but it's really the case.
When I was in that dark place, I never for one single second thought I'd be able to come out of it.
I thought I'll be there forever or my situation would get worse than it already was.
But who knew?
Then, I never knew that there would be a light at the end of the tunnel.
I also thought I'll be forever stuck in that deep and dark tunnel.
But I was wrong, so wrong... Now I realize just how wrong I was.
Now I not only feel happy but also proud of myself.
I feel more confident and secure than I have been before, and I guess my self esteem has also risen very high too.
It feels so good to be good at something.
It lifts the mood and helps a lot in regaining self confidence.
Then I always find myself wishing to be like the best Student and always comparing myself to her.
But not anymore, I feel enough and even more than enough just the way I am.
I don't need to compare myself to anyone, I mean anyone as I am already so satisfied with Myself.
You guys would never be able to guess just how happy and fulfilled I am now.
I have always been beating myself up over being just a name only science student as there were lots of things I don't understand in my core subjects.
But not anymore... Though there are still some weeks to the exam I am preparing for, I could already smell success at a distance.
I can feel it already within me and I must say, it's really a good feeling...
A feeling I have never felt before and never thought I would ever feel.
But well... I am feeling it right now, ain't I?
Now I realize that true happiness and satisfaction comes from within and not from material things...
I had always dreamed of happiness to the extent that I began to think I would never be able to gain it.
But what now?
I can already feel the happiness and satisfaction within myself.
Oh... It's really a good feeling..
My advice to everyone is to NEVER GIVE UP! NO MATTER WHAT!
PEOPLE WILL TRY THEIR BEST TO BRING YOU DOWN, BUT NEVER LET THEM SUCCEED IN DOING THAT AND EVEN IF THEY DO, GET BACK UP!
Keep aiming!
Keep dreaming!
Keep moving!
Because, You are a genius!
Ever evolving.
You are breakthrough.
Ever happening.
You are enough!
Always Remember that you are, YOU ARE ENOUGH! And will always be.
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A/N : love you all guys.... (+_+)