Chapter 32 How Can I Let You Go?

"Oppa... What exactly are you doing here?" So Eun asks, perplexed, as the man who came to visit her late at night in her room stands silently in front of the door. Hyuk Soo's expression is sad and depressed as he stares at her with puppy eyes.
"I miss you," he finally admits. Hyuk Soo forced his way into So Eun's room, closing the door behind him automatically.
"What exactly do you mean? It may give everyone the wrong impression of our relationship, so please return to your own room." So Eun is attempting to force Hyuk Soo out of her room by pushing him with her hand, but her hand is stopped in the air between them by the ringing of her cellphone. Her boyfriend has called her.
"Please don't answer his call in front of me," Hyuk Soo discovers through her phone screen. He quickly takes her phone away from her hand and rejects Junsu's call.
"What exactly are you doing? Please return my phone!" So Eun demands that he return her cellphone. She reached out her hand to reclaim her phone, but the tall man in front of her drew her in even closer and engulfed her in his embrace.
"Oppa! What's the matter with you? Let me go!!" She is attempting to flee, but her strength is incomparable to his. The more she struggles, the stronger Hyuk Soo's embrace becomes. She is unable to flee.
Hyuk Soo didn't say anything and just held onto her even tighter, inhaling her scent that he had been longing for. He cuddles up to her crown and hides his face in her hair. He closes his eyes and wishes that this moment when she is in his embrace would last forever.
So Eun, realizing that her attempt to flee is a waste of her strength, gradually surrenders for him. She let Hyuk Soo tightly hug her. The feeling of his embrace is very familiar. His masculine scent provides her with so much comfort that she begins to forget. She doesn't want to admit it, but she feels safe and at ease in his embrace. As a result, they remain silent on this point for the time being. Tears escape So Eun's eyes without her even realizing it.
Hyuk Soo's body eventually becomes limp as he falls asleep in her embrace. So Eun must use all of her strength to hold onto his body and keep him from falling. He reeks of hard liquor, and the man appears to visit her late at night because he is affected by alcohol.
This current situation reminds her of a time when Hyuk Soo became unconscious in her embrace while sick. He said the same thing he said tonight, that he misses her. When she thinks about it again, she feels a heavy burden on her chest.
So Eun carefully dragged Hyuk Soo's sleeping body towards the couch, where she placed him and observed his condition for a while. He appears despicable and pitiful. What had happened to him to cause Hyuk Soo to become this way? So Eun, who felt sorry for him, squatted beside the couch to tidy his unkempt hair. It allows the actress to see his face figure even more clearly. She takes her time looking at his sleeping face; it's been a long time, she thinks. So Eun is about to touch his cheek with her hand when her phone rings again.
Lee Junsu is starting to call, and the sound of his voice brings her back to reality. She is not supposed to be looking after Hyuk Soo here. She now has a boyfriend. Keeping Hyuk Soo in her room and allowing herself to be absorbed by the thought of him when she already has someone else waiting for her return is a major sin for her. She shook her head quickly as she stood up and snatched her phone from the floor. So Eun dashed towards the balcony as she answered Junsu's video call.
"Oh, Junsu... I'm sorry, but something happened that forced me to decline your phone call earlier." So Eun apologizes to her boyfriend right away because she feels terrible. She appears to be two-timing him behind his back with her ex boyfriend right now. She was devastated.
"Is that correct? I assumed you declined my call because you no longer want to speak with me." Junsu is playing a sulky boyfriend who didn't get enough attention from his girlfriend. But he's not very good at it because he keeps his smile on. He can't help but smile when he sees So Eun's face, whom he sorely misses.
"What exactly are you saying? There is no way I would refuse to speak with you. I'm missing you." When she sees Junsu's warm smile, she completely forgets about what happened with Hyuk Soo. That's right, she misses him terribly and wishes he could meet him in person right away.
"I just bought your favorite spicy ttoboekki because it reminds me of you, and I wish I could share it with you..." Junsu cheerfully displays the packaging he just purchased.
"Lee Junsu, you are so cruel! You are aware that there is no ttoboekki available here... Why are you making fun of me like that? You make me want to book a flight to return there right away!" So Eun suddenly craves the spicy ttokboekki, but she has to restrain herself because that snack is not available in Germany.
"That is exactly what I really want... But you have a lot of work ahead of you. Be strong. So Eun-ah... I'd buy you a lot of ttoboekki when you return "Junsu encouraging his girlfriend on her new job. So Eun became depressed after he mentioned the drama.
"Oh, What's the matter with your expression?" Junsu, who is literate So Eun's expression clearly indicates that she is not in a good mood right now.
"During the shoot, I make a lot of mistakes. I'm irritated... Can I really do well in the drama Junsu-ah?" So Eun acts spoiled in front of her boyfriend because she needs his encouragement right now.
"It is natural for us to make mistakes. So Eun-ah... Don't worry, I know you can do a great job as long as you believe in yourself and keep doing your best without giving up. I have faith in you "Junsu immediately expresses his undying support for her, causing the actress to smile heartily. It's always enjoyable to share her problems with him because Junsu knows how to be a supportive boyfriend.
"How is the collaboration with Lee Hyuk Soo-ssi going?" Junsu spontaneously wants to know. So Eun is taken aback when he casually mentions Hyuk Soo. Her gaze is drawn to Hyuk Soo, who is sleeping soundly on her counch. As a result, So Eun sighs deeply and lowers her gaze.
"That's exactly the problem," she says quietly.
The time has passed; it is now 4 a.m. Hyuk Soo is having a bad dream, and his forehead is sweating profusely as a result of the nightmare that is haunting his sleep. He's mumbling to himself, and there's a painful, unbearable noise coming from his mouth. He closes his eyes tightly and has a distinct frown on his brow.
So Eun, who is sleeping, is jolted awake by Hyuk Soo's noise. She slowly awakens and walks towards him. From a close distance, she can clearly hear Hyuk Soo's deep voice calling out for help.
"Omma (mother)..." His cheek is flushed with tears.
It appears that the man is having a nightmare about his late mother. So Eun, who is aware of his mother's death and what happened behind it, also experience a painful feeling emanating from his heart. So Eun squatted beside him and gently shook his body.
"It's just a dream, Oppa... " She speaks softly into his ears. However, Hyuk Soo is still struggling with his dream. As a result, she continues to shake his body until he slowly opens his eyes.
So Eun is already in front of Hyuk Soo, staring into his eyes from a close distance, when he opens his eyes. She appears to be concerned about him. It makes Hyuk Soo vulnerable and unable to control his emotions.
"Nan... Omma bogo sipeo... (I miss my mother)," he sobs pitifully and begins to cry. So Eun has never seen his vulnerable side, and this is the first time she has seen his pitiful side up close. It makes the actress feel a lot of pain, and she can't help but try to comfort the man and gently touch his arm.
"Nomu... omma bogo sipeo" (I miss my mother terribly). He grabs So Eun's hand and clings to her so tightly that she can't move. So she begins to stroke his hair gently in an attempt to comfort the actor.
"I'd become a successful model and actor, and able to make my dream come true; my mother must be very proud of me up there... But I'm the only one here... I can't seem to find her... I can't tell her I did an excellent job... I really wish she was still here with me..." As he hugs So Eun's hand like a pillow, Hyuk Soo continues to express his feelings and cry inconsolably. He appears pitiful.
"My mother is no longer present... Neither you... You are no longer present with me... I sincerely hope you will remain with me... I, also, miss you... Why has everyone abandoned me, leaving me alone and dejected?" He asks So Eun in agony, causing So Eun's eyes to well up with tears. By staring up at the ceiling, she is attempting to keep her tears from falling down her cheek.
"Why am I the only one who is lonely? My life feels meaningless..." The actor goes on.
"Oppa... Gwenchana (it's all right)... You are not alone; I am now present... You may return to sleep..." So Eun is aware that Hyuk Soo may not have fully awoken in this situation. She can't bear the pain caused by his agony any longer, so she refuses to listen to his half-asleep conversation.
She let Hyuk Soo cry out all of his tears while clinging to her hand and gently stroking his hair. She is attempting to make him feel at ease so that he can return to his sleep without having any nightmares. She follows him until he returns to his sleep and falls asleep beside him.
It is already morning when Hyuk Soo awakens from his sleep, his head dizzy from being drunk all night. He tried to wake up from his position by holding his dizzy head with his hand, but he felt something heavy on his stomach. He slowly opened his sleepy eyes to discover that So Eun had fallen asleep on his stomach while holding his other hand. To grasp the situation, Hyuk Soo must blink several times. He is perplexed as to why he wakes up in So Eun's room rather than his own.
As he slowly regains consciousness, the incident that occurred last night when he entered her room drunkenly resurfaces in his mind. He also recalls snatching her phone away when Junsu called her the night before. He recalls everything that happened between them, including their half-asleep conversation.
"Crap! Why am I being so embarrassing?" He curses himself in hushed tones, afraid of waking her up. Hyuk Soo must return to his own room as soon as possible before his manager discovers his absence. But seeing So Eun's sleeping face up close makes him want to stay even longer. He slowly extends his hand and gently strokes her hair.
"When you decide to push me out of your life, you must do so until the end. You should have pushed me outside and abandoned me... You should not have let me stay here, no matter how pitiful I appear to you "He speaks quietly to the sleeping So Eun.
He gradually awakens, his hand supporting her head. He places his face on the couch directly in front of So Eun's face after successfully sitting on the floor. He brushed her hair away from her face while admiring her lovely figure.
"How can I let you go, So Eun-ah, if you do this to me?" Hyuk Soo moves forward slowly and kisses her on the lips.

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