The world can offer much greater things. It not only revolves into one thing that we only wanted for ourselves.
There's more to life afterall.
This is something I can say that truly happened to me. There is so many things in life. Wonderful things I am grateful for and terrible ones I wanted to forget.
Those that I loathed, sometimes it's hard to forget all of it.
Oftentimes we were to busy looking what failed and what fell apart. We often were to engrossed into the things that ended that we sometimes forget that end is where we begin.
“Take the risk. Make that move. Spread your wings and achieve new things. I'm excited for you.”
Ehaan. This golden boy has the sun in him. He's a confidant. My most loyal companion. I love him and his soft spoken demeanor. He was someone who was there and never left my side.
Ehaan is a lovely human being. He was always that supportive towards me, my dreams, my life. He never led me astray but instead took my head to discover that there's so much more that I can enjoy and bask in with the life I have.
I can always count on him. Without him by my side, I don't know if I will be able to enjoy my life.
He was one of those few people who's effect too positive that he contributed into making me a better person.
I will be forever grateful for him. Because without Ehaan I am not the kind of Azaiah that I am today.
“Have you ever had that feeling that you'd like to go to a whole different place
and become a whole different self?” I asked Cloud while we were sitting under the tree trunk. He was playing his guitar and I know he heard what I say.
He looked up, he always have this curious look in his gaze. “You can be free to do what you want, Azaiah. You are not a caged canary.”
Cloud and his eccentricities. Some say he's weird, aloof, lost in his own world. But he was one of those great people I'm lucky to crossed paths with. I love Cloud because he is Cloud. There was no pretense. He exist as him.
In life it's hard to find friends like them. But I'm really grateful that I met them.
Thea and and her hyperventilation in the protest about love. She made me realized Alcuin's significance in my life. She made me realize to appreciate the love that one gives.
Callista. She was a great one too. We both love and have the passion for one thing. She was calm, a peaceful one. She did sprinkled wonders in my life.
Alcuin. His love made me learn a lot. He's a wonderful guy too. More than willing to give anything to make me feel better. With him I received all kinds of romantic gestures that I somehow failed to realize that it was all romantic. I'm grareful for receiving his love although I wasn't able to receive it.
Martin intruded me a lot. I never thought I'll be able to be friends with him but I was able to connect with him too, and it was easy for me to befriend him. He is such a cool guy. Although his depth lies in secret. He was amazing.
My parents. I forsake them for their incapabilities. But they were my parents. I cannot deny the times we spent together back in the days we were happy, all three of us together. But times changed. And I am no longer the same daughter they loved. And they were no longer the parents I once cherished. But it's still here the compassionate feelings I have for them. I loved them differently now.
Ajax Galen. It was the first time I fell and I fell for him. I thought I'll always have him around. That I can always love him freely. But it wasn't. The love I have for him transformed me. And although it started like a young love it grew in me, deeply.
It was a kind of love I cannot erased too easily. No matter how much at times I wanted it to be eradicated it jdut couldn't. It stayed and it made its mark in my life.
It gave me various lessons. Too much sweet illusions. I've longed for a lot of things and imagined lovable scenarios that had him in it. I always thought it would be easy for us to get together. But I was wrong for thinking about it.
The little jumps that came from my fast-paced heartbeats whenever he is around made me happy. And those clenching pain in my heart that left me feeling like I was stabbed hurt me.
Those anticipations that were shattered too early.
Those tears and smiles I gave out because of him.
The glimmer I had in my eyes when I stare at me. And the vengeful resenment I have in times when I thought about trying to get back at him.
Those times I felt happy because I feel like I've moved on and I no logger need him in my life. And those midnights I spent with myself and the idea of him comes around.
The loved I have changed me.
And sometimes I think somewhere down the lane, across the street, in a different time line, things could have been different between us.
It was both an aching feeling too treacherous and a valued love too precious.
He was my lovely heartache.
I stared at the lotus canvas in front of me. Wrapping my arms around myself I stared at it while thinking of these things.
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Someone bumped into her. Azaiah turned her head to look. It was a lady and the guy was trying to hold unto her hand. She
The boy's eyes twinkled as he stared at the girl who looked at him.
There's something in the way they stare at each. It's something that came on Azaiah's mind.
Upon realizing that they bumped into her unexpectedly. The two stared at her and gave an apology. Then they went to look at other paintings.
She was staring at it again. She smiled. Because she's staring at the canvas she worked upon. She drew it. The lotus. Where there's a light, illumination coming out of it as it was parkling. A sparkle spiraling upwards while it was in a clear water.
“The lotus is too beautiful and it's journey too.”
She heard the comment about the lotus. She turned her heard, eyes went wider as she smiled happily at the person who said something about the blossom.
“It's an epitome of resilience. It's journey started being rooted in mud.” She said before closing the space between them. She went closer to him. And now they were both staring at it. They are now looking at each other. They slowly leaned their forehead together, both look like they're basking in the pleasure of the moment. Eyes closed, while smiles were on their faces.