What baby And save? Of whom? Before me? I think I'll have to save Nathan from her sooner because she doesn't have them all anymore. First of all she comes here to be with my boyfriend. Then she uses the excuse that she wants to save him. And she ends up calling my baby, baby! who is she please Only I can call him that, and believe me I could kill her for calling him that. But like my mother always says, "bitches go and new bitches come, you can't kill them all. Show 'em he's yours and you won't share your husband"
When she said that back then, I blushed and today it's no different. Every time I remember it it makes me smile and that phrase really makes my day. Neither Nathan nor I said anything, I didn't know what Nathan wanted to do. But since it wouldn't do any good if she was further in front of the door, I got up and slowly opened the door. In the second, I was pushed backwards. I was able to hold on in time to keep from banging my head on the dresser.
Kaitlin immediately went to Nathan, but he came to me. "Are you alright babe?" he asked me and I nodded slowly. I was still in shock but got up with Nathan's help. He brought me onto the bed where he sat down and pulled me onto his lap. I closed my eyes with relish and sucked in his wonderful smell. Of course, Kaitlin didn't agree with that at all and wanted to push me off Nathan's lap. However, Nathan was holding me, more like his arms were around my body. And he hugged me very tight.
So hard that she couldn't push me down. "Nathan Baby, are you alright? I was worried," she started to talk and I rolled my eyes in annoyance. "No, he's not feeling well, he's dying of pain, but I'm threatening him to pretend everything's fine, otherwise he'll die in a second," I said sarcastically and Nathan chuckled softly. "Really? Baby I can get you out of here without her hurting you," she tried to persuade him and I glared at Nathan angrily. "Really? Baby I can get you out of here," I mimicked.
And made Nathan laugh again. "Dude, as you can see, he's fine. He's spending time with HIS GIRLFRIEND!" I emphasized to his girlfriend and Nathan laughed again. "I'm going out, you clarify that," I said annoyed. And Nathan gave me a kiss on the cheek. I left the hotel room and heard them start arguing. I just didn't want to hear her voice all the time. And besides, she blames me anyway and in the end Nathan agrees with her again, like always.
And since I already know the ending, I prefer to go for a walk to the beach. I love to go for a walk, no matter with whom. The main thing is that I can relax, and most of the time it works and I can relax. But this time it didn't really work, my thoughts were always with Nathan and Kaitlin. Was it a mistake to leave her alone? I mean she's kissed him before, she would definitely do it again. But Nathan hadn't returned the kiss then, why should he return it now? But then he knew I was there, this time I'm not there. And they could do everything, I'm not there.
I immediately decided to go back and endure Kaitlin's gossip rather than risk her doing something wrong. Just as I was about to walk past the lobby to the stairs, someone pulled me back. Rather pulled into a corner where almost nobody was. It was a boy, he had curly brown hair and chestnut brown eyes. "Let go of me!" I hissed angrily. How can he drag me anywhere without my permission. "You're really hot" was the only thing he managed to get out before I could yell and punch him. He pulled me towards him, he approached me and without my permission put his lips on mine and kissed me.
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He kissed me without my permission. Without allowing him to kiss me, I was taken, happily taken. Of course, I pushed him away immediately after I was relieved of the shock. "How dare you kiss me?!" I yelled at him angrily, and you could hear in my voice that I was still in shock. "That had to be sorry," was the only thing he said before disappearing. I had to tell Nathan everything right away before he heard it from anyone else and didn't believe me. Sometimes Nathan is very naive and believes others instead of family and friends.
I hope this time it's different and he believes me instead of anyone else who gets it completely wrong. I stayed in the same position for a few more minutes before quickly shaking my head and wiping away my tears. They came from thinking about Nathan and thinking about how he believes someone else. I immediately ran up to our hotel room. Fear took over me at the door. I was afraid of so many things but most of all that he would leave me, he is the only person who has always been there for me. I can't and don't want to lose him right now.
Just as I was about to knock on the door to go in, I heard a soft sob. My heart started pounding, it felt like someone had stabbed me in the chest. And keeps pulling it in and out. I quietly opened the door and saw my friend crying out of the crack and Kaitlin comforting him. It broke my heart to see him like that, but I couldn't help it. I was partly guilty, but also innocent. I didn't want him to kiss me, but he did anyway.
Against my will, unfortunately. "N-Nathan..." I whispered trembling and my bottom lip started to tremble. I was about to start crying, but was able to hold myself back. "Get out of here!" Kaitlin yelled and I couldn't hold back my tears. It hurt that he didn't say anything about it, but I couldn't change it either. "Can we talk please..." I managed to get out without even starting to cry. "Wa- No!" Kaitlin interrupted him and apparently already decided for him. "Please..." I whispered, shaking, but Nathan shook his head, crying.
How I hated seeing him when he was sad or devastated. And the most devastating thing to me is that I'm the reason he's crying now. "Whatever you want to say, you can say in front of her!" he said and I could hear the chill in his voice. Ouch, did it hurt. It was unusual for him to be so cold, but he is and I can't help that. "I'm going out baby, I'll wait for you outside the door," Kaitlin said, and inside I was puzzled. Since when is she so nice and do me a favor?
Kaitlin slowly got up and gave Nathan a kiss on the cheek. Then she disappeared from the room. "Let me explain!" I babbled quickly, but he wouldn't let me continue. "No! YOU were the one who complained that Kaitlin is my best friend! But YOU are also the one who has an affair with someone else! I really didn't know you could sink that low! Do you really have so little pride that you have your affair! I've done everything for you really everything and that's the thanks for it?!" he yelled at me.
And those words hit me perfectly in the heart. Ouch. How can he think that of me? I really thought our relationship was stronger than the rumours, but apparently I was wrong. "You yelled at me, hit me and only complained when it came to Kaitlin! But you are no better yourself! YOU are the one who starts dating a boy even though you are in a relationship, not her. YOU are the one manipulating me and not her! So don't you dare say a bad word about her because you are her!" he screamed all his thoughts out and I was just dumb.
I didn't dare say it wasn't true and that it was somehow planned by whom. Instead I kept quiet and let him hurt me and say such nasty things. I knew he wanted to say a lot more, but didn't. "It's over..." he ended our conversation before I could do anything to make him stay. Maybe scream, deny everything, but I didn't do anything. My tears ran their course and I sobbed quietly to myself. _It's over.._ _It's over.._ _It's over.._ _It's over.._
Those three words kept echoing in my head and I couldn't deal with them. "You kissed." Was the only thing I could get out. He turned to me for a moment and unexpectedly looked at me. I really thought we were going to talk about this, but apparently there's nothing we can talk about. Or what he can and should explain to me, because he turned away coldly and slammed the door with force. I sobbed to the ground and started crying loudly. He left me without giving me a chance to speak.
Without explaining what really happened. He only got a part with nothing more and he is already leaving me. More and more tears came out and my sobs got louder and louder. He can't end it now, not without knowing the truth. Not without knowing all of this from my point of view. He mustn't and can't just leave me now. She has achieved what she has been trying to do for so long, she has finally achieved. Through all the crying and sobbing, I was getting less and less air, but I was still able to keep myself under control.
My heart hurt so bad I wanted this pain to stop forever. I just didn't want to feel anything anymore; I just want to end it As awful as it sounds, it hurts so much I can't take it. He just throws 3 damn years away without even talking to me about it. Man, I was always there for him and did everything, everything I could do. I was always there for him, listening to him and comforting him when he needed it. I warn against the fact that he has a best friend, and much more.
But he left me anyway. I was devastated by what happened, but I still had the strength to clear my name. 'Cause I won't let some boy destroy my name. Because he has already disturbed my relationship and it can no longer be saved. My tears slowly diminished and I slowly calmed down. Just as I was about to get up, my cell phone blinked and I picked it up. "How could you do that! We are so disappointed in you!" I started reading out loud and got tears in my eyes.