"Dude, what's the problem?"
Xymon came out next to me and Louisa was left inside. Until we got out, Xymon kept asking me questions but I didn't answer him. I wanted to burst out what I am felt about it. Because it's a pain. I don’t know which of the two of them Louisa I should blame. I know that Xymon has nothing to do with it because he doesn't know that I've wanted Louisa for a long time. I'm also not sure if I should be angry with Louisa because she first showed me that I can't get anything out of her. She felt like she couldn’t get my love back for her. But I didn't care anymore I just wanted to make the pain stop. I calmed myself first before answering Xymon.
"Are you okay? You're drunk"
"How can I be okay? Seeing the girl you love was being with another guy. Is that okay with you?" I laughed in sarcasm.
"Damn! Man, I didn't know you're dating."
"Yeah, you didn't know, Either her." I shook my head. "I'll go home." Louisa came out of the bar and she was behind xymon. I took a second glimpse at her. She did not look back at me. She couldn’t look at me because I knew she knew she was the one I was referring to.
"Can you take yourself back home? You're drunk" Xymon asked worriedly.
"Yeah, I'm ain't dizzy. Goodbye!" I walked out and waved my hands as I walked closer to my car.
As I got inside the car, I cried. I bent over the steering wheel and it almost broke when I hit it with my hand. I saw Xymon and Louisa enter again, holding my Louisa's arm. Damn! It should be me. I'm the first, right? Just not given a chance. Most painful is, why with my twin, why with Xymon that I often compare myself to. I lose, I really lose even though I wasn't the first. I can't win Louisa's heart because I'm the one she wants to choose.
This is probably one of the most beautiful birthdays I have ever received. I thought Louisa and I were okay. I'm too stupid to do anything to approach her. That's why she doesn't get along with me much anymore because they have a relationship with Xymon and even one of them didn't tell me. Was it a betrayal? Or I'm just a stupid chasing female friend just looking at her.
I stopped first in front of Lester's house. I didn’t get off and just waited near the gate. I will also go home later. I was hesitant because even though I was busy, I knew that his girlfriend was with him inside. As the gate opened and I saw a woman come out, Lester’s girlfriend. It looked like she was going somewhere and got in the car and then left but I didn't see Lester come out, he was probably just inside the house so I went down for a while. I'm also bored because I'm in the car and I have no plans to go home yet.
Before I could press the doorbell button the gate opened immediately, Lester opened it. He was carrying a trash bag. He was surprised to see me.
"Hey man! You surprised me. I'll just throw it away in a minute." I nodded. Lester threw away the trash bag he was holding.
"Let's go inside, Claire isn't here. What's wrong with you? you smell like alcohol." He took some water and laid it on the table. I just sat on the sofa. Lester sat up as well, worried about me. I shook my head. I feel like tears will fall in my eyes again.
I took a deep sigh. "Well, nothing matters. It's just ... it's just about Louisa."
"Are you and Louisa have a thing? Dude! That's what you're wishing for. What's the issue?"
"We're not….Actually, My twin and she were—"
"Damn! That's a problem."
"Yeah, I lose. You knew my brother, right? He can get what he wants without even forcing things on either person. Damn! Why I am so far from him?"
"Don't say that. It's just a woman and they are a lot if you widen your sight. Choose what you deserve." He patted my shoulder. Lester left me first to be able to think. He just left a bottle of wine. It's okay even if I run out of it. He seems to understand what I'm going through now.
I was so drunk that I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep on Lester's sofa. When I wake up it's morning.
Her fiancé was already there so I got up right away. I adjusted my crumpled dress and stood up even though my head was still a bit sore.
"Take your breakfast here," Lester said. He was having breakfast with Claire.
"Yes, Thanks. I'll better get going."
I didn't go to work after that night happened. I couldn't take seeing them together. I just let my assistant take over my job. I need to unwind. To go somewhere far from them so I could move forward silently.
"Are you sure about this, Xy?" Xymon and I were in my office.
"What a broken man you are! We Wilton's shouldn't be lost over the women."
"Yeah. But I did. It will take a couple of times before I get back. I miss going to the beach. I let Sarah manage the errands. I told her not to disturb me while on my vacation."
"So, that's a final decision, Huh." I nodded to him.
I packed my things before the sun Will rise tomorrow morning. My decision is already made. I need to take it away for a while until I get over to them. To anyone keep on pushing me the pressure. It's better to be done in this way. Instead, I'll be the one who took a step away and once everything would sorted out, Nothing I would be worried about or something that distracted me. I didn't need a piece of evidence because it was all clear to me. I just need to accept it. I didn't want to have these wounds would accuse my brother. Were are good as it always be. And to my long-time friend Louisa, I wished she wouldn't end up hurting my brother like what she did to me. I could handle it by now however I was not sure to Xymon if that happens to him. He didn't have any girlfriends yet. A girl that made him serious. No one than her. I saw how my brother was happy whenever he was with Louisa and I didn't get the point of not telling me about them. Why are they keeping a secret? I shrugged it all. I will end it in a quiet way and pretended that I didn't know at all.
While I was busy, my phone was ringing. She was calling. I stared at my phone, thinking if I would answer it. I let it ring as I expected she would not call again for a second time. I knew her, She was easy to give up when she felt bad but she keeps on calling, which made me curious.
I picked up my phone and answered the call. I didn't talk. I just waited for her to speak. I heard her choke, unable to speak directly.
"Can we talk? Just… .outside."
"You can tell it right now."
"Alright."
"Meet me at the coffee shop."