One of the hardest points of our lives is to decide. To choose what is the better over the best. Five months later Xymon and I broke up. I broke up with him. Something bothering me every time I'm with him. We were good and he was. He's the type of man you don't have to look for anymore. Xymon is as perfect as Xyler tells me. Now I can see the difference between them. I’ve been through Xyler’s feelings over his brother. With it being so perfect, I don't seem to belong to her anymore. I found myself far away from Xymon. I can't be perfect like him and the worst, I can't love him back the way he loved me. Everything will just be unfair to us. I know I promised myself something. I promised before Xyler left that I would not hurt his twin but I could no longer afford to say yes to something I knew I could not stand just not to feel them disappointed. I resigned from their company after we broke up. Everything went well. Xymon was hurt because she loved me so much but she accepted that I immediately didn't want to because she knew my real reason. He knows that he is not the flesh of my heart but his brother. I just lost courage because I was indebted to Xymon. I don't know how to make up for his help.
Xyler wasn't there when I got into trouble. He is in another country and I know he is still looking for himself. I was stuck in the midst of the rain. The wheel of the taxi I was riding in was flat so I got off and ran. A car passed in front of me and blew its horn loudly. I thought this was where my life would end. I even lay on the road picking up the papers I was holding. That was the night I was giving up on life. I was just crying but there was Xymon. He got out of the car with an umbrella. Fortunately, he remembered me. He got me in the car and drove me straight to his condo. I spent the night there. I told him all my problems. I just cried that night while talking but a kiss calmed me down. That night. There something happened between us. I don't know why I didn't push him away when he kissed me. I feel like as we do that my tears are dripping, I want to lose the weight I feel. I wanted to forget all the problems I was carrying and Xymon helped me to make the pain stop in just one night. The night after he helped me with my job so I got into their company right away. Her mother also knew that because she treated me lightly. But I forgot about Xyler. I forgot to let him know that I had a connection to her family. I forgot everything when he was gone.
Xymon knows how much we get along with her twin so I begged her to keep it secret first. I don’t know why I even have to hide. Xymon understood that. The day Xyler came back I was happy. I don't know but I'm excited that he's already there but I just put that longing aside because I know I'm already committed to Xymon. My mind was very tired at that time. I hurt them both. And if there's anyone to blame, it's me because I've become a coward in how I feel. I was wrong, it was all too late for us. Xyler has left and I know when he comes back he will forget about me. It will be different. That's how people are after they heal from the pain they change and the best way to revenge is to forget who hurts them.
2 years later...
I was busy preparing the coffee for our customer. I was enjoying here to be served day by day. The aroma of the coffee made my day enthusiastic.
"One Latte and two orders of waffle, ma'am Enjoy!" I smiled at the customer, putting their order on the table. I roamed around to the other table to pick the empty cup of coffee to lessen the mess. As I walked, handing the trays with fragile cups, I accidentally slipped on the wet floor, I stumbled and the cups were broken.
One by one I picked up the broken cup, and my co-worker Shiela immediately approached me to help me.
"Leave it to me, you have wounds!" Shiela panicked.
"I'll get back." I got up and quickly went inside but a customer approached the cashier table to order. My left hand was bleeding but I still managed to get her order. I can't press the coffee machine properly. The wound on my hand is already hurting. Another man came, he was just looking at the menu and he saw I was having difficulty he asked. "Need some help?"
"Uh, No. it's my job."
"Okay. One coffee breve," he said gradually.
"Miss, I need my order. I'm in a hurry." The woman seems so impatient waiting for her order because I can't immediately serve it properly. "What's yours, miss?" The man offered to help the woman.
"One espresso and Cappuccino." "Let me. Treat your wounds instead, Miss." I just nodded to him and didn’t hesitate to walk out. I looked around a few more times to see if he was doing the right thing and if the coffee blend he was going to make would be right. The woman looks calm and patient as I look back to them as the man serves the coffee for him. Right after I treated the wounds. I wear my apron right away and head about in the coffee lobby. I didn't know how I should approach he seems so happy doing it. “Hey, Uhm, Thank you for helping, I appreciate it. Sorry about earlier. You can now leave. ” I said shyly.
“I’m Adrian. This coffee shop is as good as I expected compared to others. ” He roamed around his sight and now turned his eyes to me, smiling. Although I didn’t ask for his name, he told me and so I told him my name too. "Louisa."
“Louisa, Cool. You’re kind of familiar to me. ”
"What?"
"Nothing, mind if I go."
"Thanks again. You can have your discount anytime you come here. ” I said, and he bid goodbye. I let him have a free coffee from our shop. That man was cool, though.