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Chapter 20

Nar's POV...
My thin lips couldn't hold back to form a big smile as I continue to stare at the screen of my phone. I let out a small laugh as my eyes continue to re-read the message she sent me, which literally caught my attention. In fact, I think I am more drawn to her message than she is to my reply. Who knows, I bet this isn't the first time she has texted a guy and dealed with a guy's boring reply. 
Coming back to reality, I still have a dozens of questions in my head about her message just now. Funny since I didn't expect her intentions to be so innocent to confess her feelings to a man who is already taken, which is me. Being honest to myself, I almost thought it's impossible to believe that a girl like her would actually be single to even have the chance to develoup a silly crush on me, a foreigner with a girlfriend who could literally just leave her with a broken heart once my work here is done. Man, that young girl is really putting her heart at risk for a guy she barely knows anything about. She is silly enough to willingly put her love on the edge of an upcoming heartbreak. Despite her nerdy looks, I do think it's almost seem impossible if she really doesn't have any other guys trying to hit on her or at least try to ask her out at some points. Though her fashion sense doesn't always look alluring, her cute nature is something that actually looks pretty attractive. I mean, if she remove her glasses, apply some make-up, and wear something that actually describes that she is a grown woman and not just a teenager who hasn't finish puberty, I'm pretty sure some guys would probably get turned on by her, or....maybe a lot of guys, not that it matters.
But anyway, I got to come up with a great responce. It has to have a bit of signature "so-called Asian TV drama style dramatic manner".
Meanwhile...
Linh's POV...
I want to pinch myself so badly after that stupid message I sent him. Linh, why did you even thought that it was necessary to tell him that you just thought of him on an ordinary night? Did your head just got hit by something or are you just stupid enough to tell your foreigner friend who literally has a girlfriend about your thoughts? Not to mention, he is your sister's gym crush who she probably already hates by now after finding out that he has a girlfriend. That was gotta be one of the dumbest things I could do. Obvious enough that I feel stupid, but other than that I'm just confused with myself. before I hear another ring of notification from my phone, signaling that I got a new message from him. I grab my phone to read his new message. I bite my lips out of anxiety while reading the message from him, only to get myself feeling mixed up while reading the message, and somehow...it tinkles an inner feeling of something cute.
Wait a minute...what the hell did I just thought of all in one night? Han Linh, I know your mind isn't probably thinking straight right now after the heartbreak of Xiaoyang's confession. Yet, falling for another man who is also in a relationship is like commiting suicide without any dangerous weapons. Linh, you are still struggling to overcome this pain. You better not be a fool and fall into the same hole with a different guy. What's worse is, he is your sister's gym crush, who she is probably still struggling to move on from after knowing his status.
Meanwhile....
Nar's POV...
"But I'm not a good man, so I don't want you to fall for me and get into the dark side, " I say to myself while reading the message that I just sent her in the most dramatic way, thinking like I'm the main character in some sort of Asian TV drama. 
I'm starting to laugh at my own sentence as I continue to stare at my phone. I thought of myself as pulling out the best dramatic pick-up lines I could think of. Yet, there is something about this Linh girl which I found to be oddly funny. Despite being secretly flattered by her feelings towards me, sometimes I like to believe that she's just playing with my mind. It's not everyday I get to see a young, intelligent and well-mannered girl to have interest on a foreigner who is literally in a relationship with his long-distance girlfriend. It just feels impossible to believe, and doesn't make any sense if you ask me. Doesn't she have other guys probably asking for her number at the gym or somewhere? Or maybe she secretly wanted another guy in her life because she didn't love her confidential rich boyfriend who her mother might already arranged for her to marry? Chances are possible. It doesn't make any sense to believe that a girl like her would be single. Well, unless she has daddy issues and she might have a thing for men she has completely no chance with. I mean, she did told me that her parents are divorced.
Just as my mind continue to wonder about that, my phone suddenly rings another notification, which I don't need to think twice to know that it's probably from her. At this point, I feel like she has been texting me at some points more often than my own girlfriend. We don't really talk everyday, but well, I could tell she prettymuch cares about me. She knows well I'm nothing but trouble yet she still pursue me in the most innocent way. Well, that's kind of cute.
A few minutes later....
Linh's POV...
As the minutes goes by, Nar and I continue to chat with one another through messages. Like late night deep talk which I could describe at this moment, one by one it's like we're revealing more about ourselves, whether it's our personal status, or our vulnerabilities. He said that he doesn't think he would be good enough for me since he believes that I don't know that he's trouble. I want to say that he was being dramatic with that sentence, yet I decided to keep that in mind and just say what my heart feels like saying, other than letting my mind take the lead in this moment. I believe that the ones who deserves us the most are the ones who think that they don't deserve us. Other than that, I would rather be in love with someone I could never have, than to be with someone that I never loved. In my own surprised mind, I've said those words to him all in one night. He was a bit surprised, but I was silently in gratitude when I knew that his reaction was...quite good. He said he felt like it was a good vibe for the night.
After minutes passed, I finally told him that it's getting late and that we should be going to bed. After we end our conversation, I put my phone down on my desk and climb up to my bed, ready to get some shut eyes for tonight. Yet, as I close my eyes, the vision of Nar's presence continue to walk through my mind, at some points leading me to experience some weird butterflies again inside of me. Like a tinkling sensation, the thought of his face suddenly makes my heart to slightly beat faster, with all of his sweet words still gently spinning in my head. 
Yet though this sweet feeling is quite enjoyable, I couldn't help but also feel a small sense of guilt lingering tightly in my heart along with the fear of which I am afraid to admit to myself. I can't deny with the reality of Nar being my sister's gym crush, who turned out to have a girlfriend. Logically I know well that falling for him would only lead me to a heartbreak eventually. But the problem is, I don't even think I have the courage to be true to myself about my feelings for him, which fears me the most whenever I think about it. 
To be continue...

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