The peaceful atmosphere covers the whole library. Charrie stopped texting me too. We are both busy and determine for the test.
But unfortunately, I feel it's not the right time to be the focus. The guy beside me keeps bothering my mind. Though, I should not because he didn't do anything to make me bother. He is just quietly reading a book, like an innocent kid.
So the best way, I can do is to stand up and sit beside Charrie. She looks at me and turns back her eyes to the guy.
"Why did you left him?" She murmured.
I didn't answer her and start reading a book. I must review a lot, I need to be on the dean's list. Even it's hard to be in there, I know to myself that I can do it.
Minutes of reading, the guy stood up. I was thinking if he is going out to the library. But, he took another book from the shelf and turn back on his seat.
Observing his uniform, name tag. I noticed that he is a political science student. He is tall, has blond hair, wearing an h.potter glasses; is precise to him. I stopped looking at him and ask Charrie to go back to the room.
She just rolled her eyes and agreed.
The class went well and I think I did my best on the exam. We are still waiting for the result tomorrow.
Charrie and I are politely waiting for our driver to pick us. While waiting, I traveled my eyes in the parking lot and saw Daile. Leaning in his car and intently looking at us.
I want to smile at him but his aura makes me shiver. Maybe, he is still mad at me. I must make a move right away or else our friendship will suffer.
I took a deep breath, until Charrie. Found Daile too, she waves her hand at him. But Daile seems so mad at me. He turned around and drove his car.
"He's still mad. You should be the one who's responsible for this Moriya." Charrie uttered.
As if she is trying to scare me or joking. I didn't mind her and now I am like spacing out. Minutes, later our drives took us.
I arrived safely at our home and went straight to my room. I'm tired but I need to create a plan of how Daile will forgive me.
Simple, purple crop top and black shorts is my outfit before I went to my study table and create a plan for Daile's forgiveness.
I am planning to make a letter for him.
Though, I am still confused about our status and what is happening. I must move and end the confusion.
I took a white and clean paper stand for purity and sincerity. Then, I started to write my message.
I began at greeting him. I just remember our exchanging of Valentine cards before.
Sorry, this is the first word that I wrote. I know to myself that I did wrong. I hurt his feeling, I made him valid. I also waste his time, he stayed with me for nine months and I said "no"
At first, I must think of it before. I always made bad decisions and this is the worst. Daile is affected. I hate myself because of this.
At last, I end up with this letter.
Hi, Daile. Hope you doing fine
Sorry, about what happened to us. Starting when we are a friend I saw how kind and thoughtful you are especially with me. You took care of me at school. We had a lot of fun and enjoyed it a lot. I let you court me and it takes nine months and yet you received this kind of treatment. I'm sorry, I am still confused and not ready because I can still see you as my friend. Through this letter, I hope you understand. It is okay if you don't want to see me anymore. I'll accept it. I hope that all our bad feelings will vanish even it's not right away.
Sincerely, Yours
I placed it on the white envelope and did a cursive on it. I also put a sticker. I wish Daile, accepts my letter. He is kind, he knows how to forgive. He wants our friendship to stay. I miss eating with him at the cafeteria and talk about a lot of stuff. We laugh because of exchanging jokes. And we are three, still managed to have a bond even we are busy and exhausted at school.
And I am this stupid girl who ruined it.
Because of irritation, I jumped on my bed and trying to sleep even I didn't have my dinner.
I want to sleep early, I feel tired.
I was about to close my eyes when I heard a knock at the door.
"What?" I shouted without moving out of the bed.
"Dinner is ready, Moriya." Our maid announced.
"I'm not going to eat, please tell Mom," I said and went under my comforter.
"But Moriya, you must eat and go to the dining area. "
"No, I want to sleep. I'm tired, hope you guys understand." I mumbled with irritation.
"But—
"Okay! Fine. Just bring the food here. " I cut her.
"Uh, your Dad's command you that should come at the dining area. I'm leaving make sure you are there at any minute."
I heard her footsteps.
I just groaned and fix my face. I put a pink lip tint since my lips are so pale.
"Dad, why you don't just let me sleep," I whispered and leave my room. I walk very slow like a zombie.
They must be considerate. They should let me sleep, maybe because I'm tired. And I can wake up in the middle of the night to eat food. Is there something important? Cause if there is not I will be back in my room.
Of course, to be respectful, I will ask for their approval.