Summer's Point of View
A week passed, and after that day everything seems to change in both ways. I'm not going to blame Jake for feeling that way but it's for his sake. I bond with Sunday, Fiona, Yola, Sari and Auntie for the week.
And now because of Kyle's plan that we should also go to the studio to take pictures, we are here. It's Kyle's treat and after this they plan to rent a bike to ride.
"Sounds like a great plan," Jake commented. Kyle even hired a make-up and hair stylist for these pictures to be perfect. He even bought matching dresses for the four of us.
And we're now here, the photographer was taking pictures. First it was the four of us then Fiona and Jake decided to split up taking pictures so I ended up taking pictures with Jake.
It was awkward for me to pose with him but he seems fine with it. Our first pose was holding hands and looking at each other then we just let the photographer decide our next poses.
After that we went to rent bikes so we could ride them across the area. Kyle just rented two bikes with a backseat, perfect for a couple. This is really a set up because I see Kyle smirk while glancing at me and Jake.
And that was it. Jake was the one who drove the bike while I'm just in the backseat. I just enjoy the scenery because it's sunset and the view is so heavenly not to take a look at it and take pictures.
"Are you enjoying the view?" Jake asks then he slowly drives the bike. I nodded in response even though I know he can't see me. I just took a video with the sunset.
I saw Fiona taking a picture of us because she seemed to have forgotten to turn off the flicker. I glared at her and she just gave me a peace sign. They went closer to our zone.
"Delete that" I said to Fiona. She and Kyle laughs at it and I knew they wouldn't do it.
"Let's stop by the near stand of street foods, I'm getting hungry" Kyle stated.
"Is it going to be your treat again, bro?" Jake asks but Kyle just instantly put his middle finger up.
"Bro, waste some little money on us. Your love would always reject you if you don't" Kyle stated and Jake threw his middle finger up. The atmosphere became awkward as we continued riding our bikes.
Then we went to a street food stand. We buy some of our favourite street food and eat them quietly. There's a distance between me and Jake. I can feel it like even though we are near each other there's a barrier and wall that was created by me.
I suggested that we should switch partners for the rest of the ride.And I would drive the bike that Kyle was holding and Fiona would drive the bike that Jake was holding with them being at the backseat.
"Okay, let's try that" Jake agreed but I saw hesitation in Kyle's eyes.
"Do you know how to drive?" Kyle asks when he was hesitant giving me the bike. Fiona rides Jake's bike with Jake on the backseat. They looked so comfortable then there's Kyle who doesn't seem to trust me.
"I was so offended right now, Kyle," I said and even made an angry face. He gulped and glanced at Fiona and Jake who was now getting ready to drive.
"Just trust my sister, Babe," Fiona said, which made Kyle blush. He nodded and went to me happily.
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Fiona's really his weakness weapon, huh. They really look so lovely together. I hope Kyle would really love and treasure Fiona for the rest of his life. I hope that he wouldn't hurt Fiona because Fiona has a lot of pain and it would ache me.
"Don't hurt her" I said when we started riding. "I promise to you, Summer," He said. That sounds so genuine so I bitterly smiled. I hope that promise will not be broken.
"How are things going between you and my brother?" He asks.
"It's complicated" I simply said. There are a lot of things that made things between me and Jake complicated. I want him but I also don't. We both knew things wouldn't end up happy. It would mostly ending with a bitter truth that we were just fated but not destined.
How do I come up with that saying? First of all if we're destined to be with each other things like dying wouldn't be a problem. I think we just happened to see each other because I need to find a reason to live again. To feel alive again and that's all.
"You two really have similarity when answering the questions. You both are not very good at elaborating it well but you both are very good at making me curious" He said. If you just know it, Kyle.
"It's very obvious at the beginning. Things like this wouldn't end up happy, we both knew it" I said.
"But you're still here. You're still alive so make the most out of it. If you really want to choose your heart then choose it. Don't waste any more time thinking and thinking. Choose what would make you happy while you're still alive and let the future be it" He said. It sounded really genuine that it made me cry.
"I'm really going to entrust you to Fiona. Thank you, Kyle" I said and drove it to where Jake and Fiona were. We found them at the bench taking their stop-over as they were talking to each other.
Kyle called Fiona so that made me stare at Jake. I want to be with him while I'm still alive and let the future be it. I stop the bike and run over to him, he also runs over to me with his arms spread, I threw myself to him as i also threw the what-ifs that I still had.
"I'm so sorry, I'm really sorry" I said while sobbing, he gently patted my head and all I heard was him sobbing too.
"Don't be, you're not the one to blame. I understand you" He said and looked at me, straight to my eyes. His eyes told me that he was tired and also passionate about waiting for me.
When I looked at the side where Fiona and Kyle are, I saw everyone staring at us. It gives me social anxiety so I bit my lips and quiver.
"Can we go somewhere private? People might cringe and call us dramatic" It was mostly a whisper, enough for him to hear. He nodded at me and held my hand.
He didn't even make excuses to Fiona and Kyle but deep inside me knows that they already knew it.
We go somewhere far from the area. We weren't the only one here but we're just few so Jake found a bench and sat there down. I also sat beside him.
"So what would you say?" Jake asks. I smiled at him, crunching my nose. This part might be cringe and if I look back at it, it would make me hardly cringe at myself.
"Love me, date me, know me, care for me till my last breath and I would also do that. I wouldn't think of the future and would just think of now" I said all smiles. He kneels down, which shocked me.
"So can I love you till your last breath?" He asks. I nod happily, that also brings me tears because I love him so much and I'm so thankful for him.
"I do" I said and that made him kiss me.
This would be the most memorable moment in my whole life. Me being purely excited for being alive and me purely loving someone who's also would do the same and feel the same as I do.
"You don't know how you really make me happy and how excited I am for the moments that we can share together. I love you, Summer, "he said after the kiss.
"I know because I also feel the same way as you feel and I'm also looking forward to our moments together. I would always wait in heaven but you don't have to do that while you're living. I want you to cherish your life and make the most out of it. I always want you to be happy and lovely, Jake. I love you too" I said and went closer to him for another gently and loving kiss that we shared.
I have a lot of wants before. I want to die, I want them to also feel what I experience and I also want someone to love me for who I am. And now here he is. My first and last love, my greatest love and all the love that I can state that's going to be him.