Summer's Point of View
I was finally on my last week of life. I was getting weaker and my illness is getting painful. There's no more painkiller that has been effective to reduce the pain that i feel.
On my last month, I've already finished my sixth plan. We gathered at the playground and play like a child. I swing with Fiona and Jake and Kyle played at monkeybars. We also play on seesaw and slide of the playground.
We were at the beach right now, Aunt Sonia set this as our vacation and my final moment too. Jake and his family was invited to come and they are pleased to come.
They were now festing the barbeque that they just grilled earlier. I smiled as I get my jacket to fight the coldness that I was feeling. I was wearing cardigan and its still not enough.
I walk close to them and when Jake saw me, he already guided me to sat down. Kyle gets me some barbeque and I dipped it to the sauce that they have.
"Do you feel okay?" Jake asks. I nod and smiled at him so he doesn't worry too much.
"Do you want us to have smores, Summer?" Yola asks.
"If you guys wanted to, go ahead" I responded so she quickly gesture her boyfriend to gather some woods.
I coughed the itchyness on my throat. I also feel so heavy right now. I fight against it not to bother them. Fiona taps my back as i was coughing so much. I tries to really fight what I feel but I got defeated. So Fiona guide me to go in my room.
"Fiona, I was really relieved that we got the chance to be with each other again for how long. I was also relieved that Kyle would take care and cherish you. I was also relieved that I got the chance to see you with smile again. But I'm so sorry for not going to be with you in your wedding day or I won't see your children" I said. We were now crying as I'm saying that.
"Don't, I can't. I can't take it when your here bidding your goodbyes. It was like I'm going to lose another love of my life and not seeing them in my future anymore" She said as she continues to sob. She still have the urge to open the door and tuck me in my bed.
"You would still have days left. I want to still share moments with my sister, with my older sister. Goodnight for now" She said and hugged me. She even kissed my forehead.
And when she was gone, I started to pray to God for a miracle. I don't want to go yet. I want to still fight. I woke up early in the morning as I feel that I want to vomit. I vomit what I ate the last night. When I saw my face in the mirror, I was not good anymore and it shows.
I went out to see sunrise as I am still thankful that I got to breathe this air and still see the ocean waves. It's the last plan that I have. I pull off my slippers and slowly sat down on the sand. I saw Kyle who's now going to my direction.
"Good morning" He said as he also sat down in the sand.
"Kyle, I am thankful for everything. I owe you everything. After our parents died, I know Fiona was hurt. I talk with Fiona last night and I was really hoping that you'd be there for her on her last breath. I can't see her anymore in the future and I won't be next to her in her wedding or in her pregnancy so take care of her" I said. He looks away to wipe his tears.
"I'm not used to bidding goodbyes as you also became the part of my life. I promise that I would be with her and not hurt her. I would love her until the last breath of the two of us. I would give her the best life with the family that we would built and if we argue I would think of this moment, this day when I promise to you. Rest easy, Summer" He said and look away again.
That day was spent well with them. I also bid my goodbyes to Yola, Sari and Aunt Sonia. Sunday was here at my room as i was rubbing his belly. He looks really comfy and would somehow sleep in my legs.
"Sunday, I would leave you with Yola. She would take care of you. Be there for her always. When she cries, when she laughs and when she was getting frustrated in life. You'd have a loving home and precious life with people that would absolutely love you" I said.
"Arf Arf" That's his response and we slept.
I woke up with Sunday by my side. He was all smiles and wags his tail so excitedly while I was here. I was feeling defeated now by my illness. I think I wouldn't survive the last days and this would be my last day.
I saw Jake on the beach swimming. I get my jacket and went out with Sunday immediately following me. Jake saw me and left the beach. I fix my hair as I knew that I wasn't still fix it.
"Good morning, what do you want for breakfast?" Jake asks. I smiled at him.
"Hmm, bread with chocolate syrup" I responded. He quickly went to get his towel but I grabbed his hand. He stop on what his doing and look at me.
"I want you to be at my room later as you tuck me in" I said. He nods gently and kiss my forehead.
He gets me my breakfast and even joked that it wasn't a breakfast in bed but breakfast in beach. We shared a lot of fun as he was all smile this day. I was also all smile because of him.
We were joined by Yola, Sari, Aunt Sonia, Fiona and Kyle when they saw us. They went to take a picture and also have the breakfast in beach. We talk a lot and joked a lot of things.
"What do you want to do for today, Summer?" Aunt Sonia asks. I think of what's the best thing that would do today and I plans to just have fun at the beach with games like charades.
When I saw Fiona excusing herself to went to the bathroom, i quickly followed. Then I talk to her when she went out of the bathroom. I want to get a chance to bid goodbye.
"Fiona, I'm bidding my goodbye to you. I hope you would get to built azhappy family that you would truly be happy. A family that wouldn't hurt you. I'm getting sicker and sicker and I think this would be the last day that I would live. I want to rest so I'm so sorry" I said. She just hugs me and whimper.
"I love you, my older sister Summer. I'm sorry for the years that were not with each other because I felt hatred and I blame you for everything. I'm so sorry for ruining you. I'm really guilty because you just welcome me with warm hugs when you can hate and be mad at me. I promise that I would build a good and healthy family for you" She said.
We stayed on our hugs and stay silence. I'm really relieved that I get to bid goodbye with the loved ones The last one that I want to bid my goodbye and be with me up until the last breath was Jake because that was what I promised to him.
When evening went out, Jake guide me to my room and tuck me in my bed. He also tuck himself to bed and comb my hair by using his hand. I lean on him and smile at myself.
"I'm so thankful to be with you today, yesterday and when the day I've met you. I'm so thankful for making me feel alive in short period of time. I think I'm being defeated by this illness, Jake and I want to bid goodbye to you. Sorry and I hope that you would be successful and have family just like Fiona and Kyle" I said.
"I love you, Summer" He said while wiping his tears.
"I love you too, can I now rest because I'm getting tired of this illness?" I asked. He sings the lullaby with sobs and said "Goodnight, Summer"
With that, I slowly close my eyes as I pour my last tear. I was happy to be kept my promises to him. That was my story that I'm proud to tell to my mom and my dad.
END.