The rain was strong, the sky matched the feelings of the people in front of me now and crying while looking at my human body that will be buried in just a few minutes.
Until now, I can feel the sorrow felt by Abiah and Bael, especially Pavel, who does not leave the side of my human body. I took a deep breath then looked at Cynrad who was holding an umbrella and was giving me advice.
"It hurts me to see Pavel cry." I whispered, he looked at me then smiled gently.
"This is the second time I've seen him cry." Cynrad said that's why I looked at Pavel's behavior that was very distressed while looking at my human body.
"First the three of us thought you were dead." Cynrad said cause I remember that incident.
From where I was standing, I saw Pavel and Cynrad facing my human body with flowers around it.
I frowned.
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"What are those idiots doing?" I asked while looking at them.
"It seems like just yesterday that the four of us were happy." Bael said sadly while looking at my body.
"It happened suddenly." Cynrad said, I saw Pavel approach my human body and hold my hand.
"Why did you leave us so soon?" Pavel asked so my forehead wrinkled, do they think I'm dead? I close my eyes remembering that my soul is not in that body so my breathing and heartbeat of that body will probably stop.
I was about to walk closer to that body when I saw the angels around Pavel as if they were watching over the three even my human body.
They all looked at me at the same time, causing me to look at them too.
"You are a disgrace!"
I remembered again what my mother told me earlier. I couldn't move my body close to my human body, I just stared at the angels who were also looking at me, there was no emotion on their faces so I couldn't tell if they intended to hurt me or what.
"Come back to us.... Ksara." I turned my attention to Pavel who was crying while holding my hand.
"What you said to baptize that name... we've done it, so come back to us Ksara, we don't know how we're going to start without you." I heard what Pavel said so I smiled, they did what I ordered. Now, I don't have a problem with that toddler.
I suddenly felt sad while looking at Pavel being supported by his new baby boy.
I signaled to Cynrad that I would approach Pavel, so he nodded and helped me to go to Pavel's side.
I felt Pavel's sadness when I held his hand, I saw images again when I held his hand, he didn't turn to me because of hurting me.
"I'm sure Ksara is sad because you are sad too." I said so he looked at me, his gaze slowly lowered to my hand holding his hand.
"Wait, your eyes are covered with sadness." I said, he looked at my body.
"He always leaves me." He said the reason for what he said hurt me, suddenly the things that happened in the past returned to my memory, how I left him alone, how he became sad.
"I didn't… I didn't keep what I told him when we were still together." He said sadly, I looked at my human body while listening to what Pavel was saying.
"I said I would formally propose to him when we get home, then when he answers me... I will immediately propose marriage to him so that he has nothing to lose." My tears formed when he said, I suddenly remembered what he said to me before while we were walking back here to Winsoul.
That was also the first time I kissed him on his lips.
"When I arrive at the palace, I will formally propose to you." He said so suddenly that I lost my evil look at him. He was smiling while saying that.
"Then when you answer me, I will immediately propose to you so that you have nothing to lose." He said then looked at me. "Then when I become king, you will be queen and we will create our children and then we will rule winsoul. We will rule it orderly and peacefully." He said with a smile. My eyes slowly warmed up because of what he was saying.
"Then, we will raise our children well, until we grow old and our children will have their own families." He said excitedly.
"Then until the next life, I will follow you. Then in our next life I will still choose you. There is no one else." I suddenly stopped walking because of what he said. He immediately looked at me and his eyes widened.
"U-you're crying, why are you crying? Oi, don't you like what I said?" he asked and immediately wiped my tears. I smiled and shook my head, I immediately held his hand and looked into his eyes seriously while crying.
"Like." I answered so he stopped and his eyes widened.
"You mean you like me too?" He asked in surprise. I didn't answer, instead I pulled him closer to me then hugged him. I closed my eyes and continued to cry.
I want everything he said to happen. I want to like him. I want to be with him until the afterlife.
"I want to see you happy. That's why I want you to find another woman besides me. You should only love her." When I hugged him, he relaxed and then I slowly let go, he was stunned by what I said, so I took that hug to wipe my tears.
"W-what? B-but I want you--"
"I can't return your love Pavel." If I lie, I can see that he will be weakened by what I said.
"Let's keep walking. We're close to the town's Barrier." I said coldly and walked towards him first.
I swallowed and once again felt that tears flowed from my eyes, so I immediately wiped them and walked away. I felt him follow me.
"Ksara--"
"This is not the time to talk about your feelings." I said, I felt his hand grab my left arm then forced me to face him.
My eyes widened when his soft lips touched mine, my body seemed to stiffen and my knees went weak, something disappeared from my chest and stomach because of what he did.
I closed my eyes and returned the kiss to him, which surprised him. I immediately let go and walked away from him. He just looked at me as if he didn't expect me to kiss him back.
"Kiss back. It means what you said earlier was a lie and you really want something from me." He said and a smile slowly curved his lips.
"What? That's not important." I said. He laughed.
"That's important, because you like me too." He said laughing.
"Even if I like you, we still can't be together." I said making him laugh and shake his head. I started walking and he followed me.
"Why? Is it because I'm going to be king and you're just a normal person?" he asked. I looked at him.
"No." My answer.
"What?" he asked.
Because I'm a demon and you're a human. Because the duration of my life is counted on my fingers.
"Because I don't want to." I said so his eyes narrowed.
I held my lips when I remembered that thing, I kept one hand on Pavel's hand until the burial of my human body began, I took a deep breath and then simply put the purse I took from my human body, I looked at Pavel and he was crying so much that's why I pulled him close to me and hugged him.
"Stop....I can't stand seeing you sad." I whispered while hugging him.