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Time is precious, it's unpredictable and every move will left you unsure of the outcome. There I was, stuck in a situation where I completely froze, as if everything around me stopped, and even the most precious, unpredictable and distrustful time, stopped.
If there was anything I valued most, it was time. Yet because of him, and as our eyes meet, the moon shined brightly, facing each other as we both stood outside Casa Courdova's gate,the cold breeze kept rippling through my hair, I wanted to make more time.
At that moment, I wished time could be borrowed. I held on to the words he has spoken out, and I felt eager to make this escape, this getaway, to enjoy another one of his whereabouts, hoping this won't be the last of them.
On his tone, in his eyes, I grew afraid. He was talking to me, persuading me, like it was the last time. I smiled at him and nodded, I could see how his expression changed. He smiled at me, and seeing that, made my heart flutter.
I didn't care where we're off, it didn't matter where he was going to take me, I did not hold any hesitance and faltering. He handed me the other helmet, and after wearing it, I hopped on. I circled my arms around him. He drove off.
My head resting on his back, my eyes closed and my hands stayed there, holding close. The wind caressed my bare skin, he drove at a slow pace, and I wanted the drive to be slow, I want to remain in that moment for as long as I could.
As I stared at the road, Korics made a turn towards a street, a route I don't usually notice. From how I see it, we're a bit far from the village now. He kept driving silently, until we stopped on this boulevard.
He parked his motorcycle and I went down, he carefully guided me and when my sandals touched the ground I looked around and the place was peaceful, silent, and we were the only ones there.
Along the road, there's a bench and we both walked towards it, as we both sat down I noticed how silent he was. I just stared at him, knowing he's going through something, yet he knew I am always here for him.
"Care to tell me what's going on?" I asked him, he sighed heavily while trying to think about how or will he ever start. I was patient, I always was, especially when it comes to him. "It's okay if you don't want to, I will never force you.."
"If I suddenly leave you behind, would you get mad at me?" He asked, I was taken aback but eventually, I thought to myself. Why was he asking in the first place? "If I suddenly disappear, will you shut your doors on me?"
"It depends. If you're going to leave because you have something to chase, wether it's a dream or it's a goal, do I even have the right to get mad? I don't even know how to get mad at you." I laughed, but he just gave me this weak smile. "What brought this on?"
"If I ask you to leave me, would you?" He says, which made me look at him and just stare blankly before even trying to answer it. "If I told you to go away, would you?"
Would he want me to? I felt a sting in my heart the minute I heard all of those, was he trying to push me away? I felt so confused. I didn't want to answer it because it feels like I was digging my own grave. I felt hurt, I am in pain, emotionally.
If it's for us, or even if it isn't, if I could force things to end up the way I want them to, I would stay beside you forever, I would spend infinity with you. If it even exists. If you'd push me away, if you would ask me to leave, I will still choose to stay.
Weren't you the one who said all of those? That even if I get tired and would end up wanting to cut you off my life, you would still stay. I'm... willing to do all of that for you, I'm willing to return the same greatness to you.
"Savelle?"
I didn't respond, I sat there overthinking about what he said. I can't stand the thought of you wanting to leave, or wanting to make me leave. I got afraid, everything that has been happening inside my head was forming into a huge curveball.
I looked at him, and we locked stares again. Between the both of us, none are even trying to speak, we just looked like we were talking through our eyes. Doe-eyed, I could see how vulnerable he was, even if he would try to hurt me through his words, his eyes won't reciprocate.
"What is happening to you?" I said, a little hint of annoyance in my voice. "All of a sudden you're so hard to read! I don't understand anymore, all of these questions are blocking my thoughts! You can always open up, you can always tell me if you're not okay, but instead you cover them up with questions that... questions that scare me."
"I just wanted to know." He shrugged off. I looked at him and noticed how chill he was while I'm slowly freaking out about all of his questions. "You're paranoid Savelle, I just wanted to take you hear because the air isn't intoxicating and the environment isn't stressful."
"Your avoidance is annoying me even more! I didn't ask about the place." I said, rolling my eyes at him. He then laughs at me, which made me look at him with a death stare. "Your questions are scary, what are you trying to say? That you're leaving?"
"No, I'm not leaving. And I won't leave for as long as I can." He looks at me, somehow it made me breathe a little more better than how I was from earlier. "So stop being paranoid, I just wanted to hear your answers."
"So, what's the matter?" I asked, he gestured me to stand up and so I did, we started walking around since I never knew about this place, or maybe I just didn't notice this before. "I thought we're going to talk about... well, whatever's bothering you."
"No, I just used that as an excuse to bring you here because this boulevard is great." He says, and I looked at him with wide eyes. I can't believe him! But... there's a part of me that doesn't believe him at all. "Chill. Don't get mad, just look at this wonderful boulevard! It's great right? We should come here more often."
"If we're not busy, it's a bit far from where we live." I said, and after that I remember that it's Monday tomorrow, and we're going back to class! I got scared of being late. "Take me home!"
"You know Sav... it won't kill you to be late every once in a while." He says, looking calm. I rolled my eyes at him. "Why are you so scared of being late? It's fine, they'll just let you off with a warning. Just enjoy this moment, will you?"
"Do I have a choice?" I held his bicep while we walk along the silent and cold streets. I shivered as the wind hugged me whole, I felt the comforts of the wind despite how cold it was. "I'm hungry. Is there any restaurant or food stall here?"
I checked my phone and it's already 10:15 p.m. He sighed and we both went back to his motorcycle to look for any food stall nearby. When we looked around, we happen to find a line of food stalls in the corner and there's a lot of people there.
"How come we never saw this place?" I asked him, Korics and I were walking to this stall where they sell street foods and soft drinks. "You're right, we should come here more often because this food is great."
For some reason, I didn't care about the time anymore, I just wanted to have fun since I'm back to facing my responsibilities and schoolworks tomorrow. Also, he's right, it wouldn't kill me to be late for once.
While I was busy drinking soda, I noticed how Korics never looked away, how he just sat in front of me and stared as I did absolutely nothing but eat. It made me think he was obsessed, and I laughed.
"Do you want me to take you home after this?" He asks, probably thinking that I'm annoyed, but he's wrong and I'm alright. I smiled while shaking my head, indicating a no. "You want to stay here longer?"
"Do anything, it's okay with me. Let's just enjoy the rest of the night, I'll worry tomorrow." The crowd in front of me with the majority of people our age are just walking around, probably here to let time pass. "As long as I know you're taking me home safely, I'm good."
"Well, of course I'm taking you home safely. I won't want your parents to kill me." He laughs, and while listening to him, it was also music to my ears. Everything about him is magical, it's different. "Do you think we'd end up as lovers?"
"Hmm, friends to lovers... I don't know, but right now... there's a huge possibility?" I said, he smirked and looked at me with an amused grin. "How about you? What do you think?"
"Well... it looks like we're on our way to becoming one..." He says, I blushed while hearing all of those. My hopes went up, I mean, I'd be lying if I said I didn't want us to eventually turn into a couple. "I'd make a great boyfriend, don't you think?"
"I'll be the judge of that." I said, he kept smiling at me, almost looking like a lunatic. We were having fun just by simply talking to each other, and it felt great. I felt happy. "It takes time, a wise man once told me, and that's you Korics Lource Villaverde."
"And this Korics Lource Villaverde, is willing to wait for that right time...." He looks at me whilst smiling proudly, I couldn't help it but just stay silent and admire him. "Seriously though, I will wait. There's a right time for everything, there's a right time for us."
I smiled while looking at him and all of the words that went out of his mouth kept repeating in my head, and he is in fact right. We have to wait for the right time, it will not hurt to take things slow, and for me, it's quite nice for us to stay like this... for now.
Everyday spent with him just proves me that he's a great person, he's just too much! In a good way. He's that kind of prince charming I'm looking for, and to be honest, I really did hope he is that prince charming. I would be the luckiest.
We are about to go home, yet we decided to stay and stand there for a while beside his motorcycle, talking about the most random things... well not until he opened a topic.
"Savelle, everyone is capable of forgetting right?" He asks, I looked at him thinking this is just another one of his questions. Just like the ones he kept asking me earlier.
"Yes, everyone can forget about simple things, well... even important things." I said, he kept nodding while massaging the bridge of his nose. "Why?"
He held onto his chest tightly and I looked at him, remembering how he held it that way... in pain, when we were in Siargao. I got worried, but he disregarded it. "Are you capable of forgetting too?"
"Well... yes. As I've told you, everyone is, and that includes me, Kor." I said, he just looked at me and I'm out there all worried about him. "Why? Did you forget something? Are you okay?"
"If I ask you a favor to not forget a certain thing, will you always remember it?" He asked, I looked at him in a pause before nodding slightly, still thinking if I should promise anything. "Are you sure?"
"Depends, if it's very very important, I will never forget about it, I will even write it in my journal if it's necessary!" I laughed and he smiled at me with the innocence in his eyes. "You can tell me... if you want me to remember something for you, so I can remind you about it if you ever forget."
"No, don't remind me about it Savelle," He says, and I just stood there listening to him as he explains to me. "Don't remind me okay? Remind yourself."
"So, what is it Korics?" I asked him.
"If I suddenly disappear, and leave all of you without the chance of seeing me again," He says and I stood there silently, trying to put everything in mind.
"Don't forget about me." He says, I just nodded, a little pinch in my heart, thinking of how things would be if he was away. Is he leaving? Will he transfer to a different school? Move to a different town? City? Country?
"Of course! I will never forget about you! Yet don't you leave, you know things will never be the same if we're apart." I said, trying to convince him to stay.
"I'm not leaving you, okay? It's just hypothetical." He laughs. "Oh, one more thing!"
"Yes? What is it? Go on..." I said, waiting for him to tell me anything he wants me to remember.
"Remember me... remember me as someone who loves you infinitely."
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