Tirta watched Mike, who was asleep. Earlier, he had been ignored by Mike for arriving late. But, luckily, Tirta was able to make his son smile a little. 
Flashback on. 
Tirta climbed to the second floor, he could even feel the aura in the room even though the light was on, and could see Mike's expression, just imagining it Tirta had already shaken his head, and it felt really fun to tease Mike. Even though sometimes Tirta is overwhelmed by himself. 
“Hi, daddy is coming” Tirta entered the room and could see Mike opening some books. Including encyclopedia books about space and animals. Yes, his son likes books about extraterrestrial creatures and objects as well as about animals and dinosaurs. Mike is very enthusiastic about such knowledge. He doesn't like business, but he likes anatomy, his dream is to become a doctor, and Tirta has prepared everything for his son. 
“Daddy it's been a long time, I'm too lazy to talk to daddy” Mike crossed his chest and looked away, Tirta who saw this clearly chuckled. 
“In fact, daddy brought something you know” he said showing the pizza and hamburger boxes he was carrying. 
“Yes,” Mike unconsciously stood up and almost jumped, if not caught by Tirta, Mike might have rolled on the floor because his son would not know if he would fall because of his jump. 
“Be careful!” Tirta carried Mike, but the little boy struggled and let go of his father's arms. 
“Why? What's wrong with me?” Tirta pointed to himself. 
“Daddy, you're late. So, late… and I don't give you respect for that.” Still with his arms crossed, Mike looked at Tirta. 
“But, daddy has a gift for you,” he said firmly. 
“What? Hamburger? Pizza? No, I would rather not be bribed.” Mike said, immediately refusing firmly and making Tirta gape. 
“What kind of bribe? Daddy said this was true because daddy brought food.” Tirta sat next to Mike who had returned to sitting at the head of the bed. 
“Mike, daddy will be sad if, for example, the food daddy bought isn't eaten, you know, the food is sad too because he wasn't eaten.” Tirta said sadly, making his expression as sad as possible. 
Mike seemed to think that Tirta's words were right. He also made a movement with his hand towards his forehead as if he were really thinking hard. 
“Really daddy?” he asked with a hand movement that again made Tirta want to pinch the child's excitement. 
“That's right,” Tirta added with a nod. 
“Then Mike would like to eat, but promise Daddy you won't be late again.” Mike stuck out his pinky finger, for them to make a pinky promise. 
Tirta obeyed his son until finally Mike ate the food given by Tirta. 
“Daddy, have you managed to find mommy?” Mike asked suddenly in the middle of his meal, making Tirta almost choke. 
“Mike, can't we just live together?” Tirta asked, Mike stopped his food then looked at Tirta carefully. 
“Why?” Mike asked sadly, “daddy doesn't want to give Mike a mommy? Does Mike really not have a mommy, why does everyone else have one, Mike himself doesn't have one, did mommy leave because Mike was naughty?” asked Mike with a sorrowful face. 
As cruel as Tirta was, he never hurt his child. But does it have to be this sad for Mike to want a mother? 
“Is Mike really not going to have a mommy forever?” Mike immediately looked at Tirta sadly and almost cried. 
“No! Mike was born from a mommy, why does Mike have to say that? Daddy is sad to hear that.” Tirta was indeed sad, especially when he heard mommy's words said by Mike. In the past, his mother did not want his existence. 
“Dad,” Mike called Tirta again. 
“Yes son?” he answered
“Daddy, sorry. But, I want mommy.” Mike said that he was unfortunate, making Tirta immediately hug him. 
Flash back off. 
Mike finally fell asleep after their heavy conversation, when he was about to cry, Tirta immediately hugged him, Mike cried in his father's arms slowly, unlike other children who struggled, he would just cry while wiping his tears. And Tirta always sees his son's sad face, especially if Mike cries, it feels like he will always be the one to blame. That's why Mike was born into this world, he was the one who made Mike feel the bitterness of this world, the biggest regret in Tirta's life because he had let his child feel what he should never have felt. But, most of all, he was happy to have Mike by his side. 
In the morning, Aunt Marie came to pat Tirta on the shoulder. It wasn't that she was rude, it's just that Tirta was like her child. So, Aunt Marie is used to doing this to Tirta. Since childhood, Tirta has been very close to him. 
“Sir, you know how to smile. Are you alone and then sad again?”
“ah, it's okay, Aunt. I was just thinking about Mike. Oh, is he awake?” asked Tirta, because earlier he ran in the morning, he had not exercised in a long time. And leaving Mike, who was still fast asleep. Yes, every time he came here he would sleep with Mike because they both wanted to. Moreover, Mike's bed is so wide. On purpose indeed. 
“Yes sir, he's even taken a shower. He just doesn't want to come down yet, he said wait for daddy to come.” Aunt Marie said again. 
“All right, I'll go up first bi, I'll bring the champ down.” he said. 
Mike was about to leave the room when Tirta had opened the door and stretched out his hand to Mike. 
“Morning.” Say hello to Tirta,
“morning dad” he said and hugged Tirta. 
But, just as he hugged Tirta, he immediately let go again, “Why son?” asked Tirta
“Daddy smells, haven't bathed yet.” he replied. 
Hearing this, Tirta immediately frowned and smelled his body odor. 
“No,” Tirta didn't accept it when Mike said he smelled bad. 
“No, dad smells.” Mike immediately let go of the hug and was about to dodge when Tirta wanted to catch him. But, there was no way such a small child could avoid it. He could only dodge a few times but was still caught by Tirta. 
“Mike, come on, dad hasn't showered yet. But, dad just finished exercising. This just smells sour, you really don't want to be weird, dad?” Tirta put on a sad face. He was sulking again, making Mike just shake his head and hands, saying no. Although, when Tirta continued to put on a sad face, he finally melted. Mike approached Tirta and gave him a hug. 
“Dad, sorry. Mike was just making a joke.” He said, hugging Tirta's neck who was squatting in front of him. 
“It's okay, daddy's not angry. Come on, we have to have breakfast. Oh, yeah, Mike, daddy isn't coming home today, right? Don't wait for daddy, and remember, don't be naughty. Don't make things difficult for Aunt Marie and Grace, okay, be nice. Tomorrow, daddy will have time to come.” Tirta promised. Mike, who already understood his father's work, just nodded. Tirta always said whether he was coming home or not. Usually, Mike would always ask why, but now the little boy never asked again because he knew his father would be busy at work. Mike never asked what kind of work and how. Because he had seen his father working at his house even though his father didn't know that maybe Mike was spying on him working. 
“Okay dad.” Mike made a hand gesture by bringing his index finger and thumb together to form the letter ok. Tirta smiled and stroked Mike's head. 
He wanted to hold Mike, but the little boy immediately refused. 
“No dad, I'm already big.” He said he protested and was immediately nodded by Tirta, he just chuckled at his son's behavior.