When I finished the song, there were many more requests, but they just didn't know that every time I recited and strummed the guitar, my heart was breaking little by little. I don't know why I played this, I can relate to it too much and it's funny that the dress I'm wearing now is the same style but different color from the one I wore on my first anniversary with Zevron.
My song is just funnier, so I dedicate it to him again, why is it always him? I always sing him a song.
"I think our singer guys are still overwhelmed" said the MC and the audience laughed.
"Would you mind if you'll sing a song that is requested by our audience?" The MC turned to me.
"Its fine, though I'll just sing it when I know the song" I said shyly and the crowd cheered.
"Okay the most requested is YOU AND ME BY LIFE HOUSE" the MC announced so the crowd made noise.
This is fucking unbelievable! Is that really as in?! Is the person hopeful? It's because they don't know about my past, so maybe this is the time for me to sing that again in front of him, right? I took a deep breath and strummed the intro.
"What day is it? And in what month This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time" Some people stood up and asked their partners to dance, I turned to our table and I could clearly see that Zevron was stunned just looking at me and his eyes seemed to be talking.
"'cause its you and me And all other people With nothing to do Nothing to lose" I feel that he is sad while looking into my eyes, even though I am very hurt especially with every word I say I remember how he left me and chose the one he loves in the second time around.
"And its you and me And all of the people And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you" When the song ended, I said goodbye to go downstairs and go to our table.
"Beshy! You're really good at singing and playing the guitar?" Jhuneevine said happily.
"A-ah hehehehe it's not too much" I answered shyly.
"And because of that, let's cheers!" A man said too much.
We cheered one after the other, as time went on my head hurt. It's dizzying, jusmeee!! I do not want anymore.
"Let's all welcome our hugot singer MS. BROKEN" I heard the MC announce.
"Excuse me" Czarhaine said and got up to go to thGe restroom.
Many people applauded for the singer, I knew I had the right amount of alcohol so I just chose to watch the singer. When I heard the intro, it was like something pinched my heart. Why now? Haiist! Wrong timing.
"Stone cold, stone cold You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor Stone cold, stone cold Maybe if I don't cry I won't feel anymore"
Why the pain? Almost all of us were looking at the singer, I turned to Kay Zevron who was also looking there and turned to me.
"Stone cold, baby God I know I tried to feel Happy for you Know that I am, even if I can't understand, I'll take the pain Give me the truth, me and my heart we'll make it through" I can see and feel in his eyes that he has a lot to say.
I'm hurt for both of us.
"If happy is her, I'm happy for you" I mouthed at him while singing the last part of chorus.
I stood up and smiled at them to say goodbye.
"Where are you going beshie?" Jhuneevine asked.
"That's all, I need to go home" I replied sparingly and she smiled, while holding back a sob.
I sped up walking to the parking lot, I wanted to be alone.
"W-wait" he held me by the arm when the two stopped.
I frowned when I realized that it was Zevron and Yussef.
"Krishaina" the two said at the same time.
I removed my arm from their grip.
"W-why?" I stammered in response, as I stopped my tears from falling.
"I'll take you home?" Zevron said.
"Just do it with Czarhaine" I said and turned to Yussef.
"Just me?" Yussef groin I just nodded and he opened the car for me, I immediately got in.
I saw they talked for a while and Yussef entered. He started the car without saying a word, I leaned towards the window and the tears I had been holding back started to fall.
"I know you're crying, go on release the pain you're holding. I'm just here to listen." He suddenly said.
I sobbed and cried, I couldn't take it anymore. It's so painful, I didn't expect to be hurt more than before. I didn't realize that the car had stopped, I just heard Yussef Jaxx get out of the car and open the door for me. We were not in the dorm, he took me to the place where the city lights can be seen.
I can see everything clearly from here, I don't know where it is as long as it removes the weight from the feeling even if it's just slight.
"You can shout here, no one will be mad at you 'coz they won't hear you. Don't worry I'm here" he said with a smile.
I went to the railings and went up to the gutter to sit while looking at the city lights. I just let myself release the tears I held back, maybe they were left over from the time I was hurting because of Zevron. After a while Jaxx handed me a handkerchief, I immediately accepted it and he hug me. There is nothing to be ashamed of, rather than my cold dripping and him even seeing haiist!
"Just a moment?" He said and left.
After a while he came back with dirty ice-cream, flavored cookies 'n cream my favorite.
"Thank you" I said when he handed me one.
"You're always welcome" he replied and sat next to me.
"Can you tell a story? Why are you crying? Is it because of that man?" He asked as we started to eat.
"I-I don't want to talk about it, but since you bought me ice-cream, fine, but it's just a secret, right?" I said and he nodded.
"Sure"